Scowl

I noticed the affect of this one immediately, and have had no deep permanent scowl since.

Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Scowl (4 Hd's)

6/6/09
Hd1-L3-1G

Visual: A golf club which is anticipating to swing, and aiming, and hoping and concerned (yet not actually hitting the ball)
Intention: To hit the ball perfectly
Why? It is concerned about what others think. It wants to be well thought of.
Why? It is insecure in its identity. It identifies itself largely with outside performance.
Why? It has forgotton its inward identity – True Self.

New Visual: An underwater missile cruising carelessly and peacefully through the water (it doesn't care where it goes, nothing will want to touch or disturb it, very powerful). Outwardly calm, inwardly potent. Perfect already!!
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Dwell on me for 1 hr.


Hd2-L3-1G

Visual: Blue hard plastic tennis racket / paddle
Action: Effort, trying, doing its best not to miss the ball, concerned about judgment, running hither and thither as though if it misses the world will fall apart. Tension and stress.
What does it want? Success
Why? To both be accepted and so it can feel good about itself – it has achieved something.

New Visual: A starfish (red)
About: It is content in itself, it just simply is, whether seen and admired by others or not, it will just be itself, beautiful and at peace. It is very happy with itself, with no desire or need to become something different. It need not go anywhere or do anything. Everything necessary comes to it.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: BE


Hd3-L3.5-1G

Visual: Baseball and bat
Intension: Respect, success
About: Tension, trying to hit ball, pressure – everyone watching, stress, as if salvation was dependent on it.

New Visual: Eel swimming through ocean peacefully and gracefully, no care or concern.
Transform? Yes
Action: Bat becomes aggressive and doesn't want to change, but surrounded with love and let it know that the eel possessed everything it wanted (us as respect – only it possessed it, it needn't need to prove it or earn it). Became eel, aggressive at first, but once it realized it didn't need to prove itself to anyone, simply being an eel was all anough, it was content and became peaceful.

Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation baseball batting – It steps to the plate and hits the ball based on who and what it is – it doesn't care what that is – it is there ony to express itself and the best of what who it is, the result is irrelevant. Who it is cannot be changed so why stress about it? If that ends up being a pop fly, a bunt, or a strike out, so be it. It will make the game more interesting, and that's what people care about, not a home run from every player every hit every game (i. e. boring).
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: I gotchyo back man

Hd4-L4-1G
Visual: Thunderstorm, electric storm, lightning
Meaning: Massive conflict, tension, upsetness, anger, stress, largely unseen energies colliding and conflicting.
Intention: To express itself, make itself known – doing so creates outward conflict, not doing so creates inward conflict.
Why does it want to express itself? For validation
More effective: self-validation (or God validation)

New Visual: A big plump juicy red tomato. HUUUGE
Transform? It is thundering that self recognition is not enough, it wants recognition from the world.
Why? “To confirm and affirm who I am”
So then you don't know who you are . . .
“I am intense, powerful, fair, just, responsible, peace-loving, intelligent, righteousness loving, sin hating, striver for excellence, achieving”
Willing to stand before God and base eternity on fact? “Yes”
Did so. God affirmed.
Tried to become tomato, entered, then exploded out (shattering tomato)
“God cannot limit Himself to a tomato!”
So then you want to express all those attributes as well?
“Yes”
Why? “Because I love them and want them to live. They are not alive if they do not express themselves.
Are these not eternal qualities? Can they die?
"Yes. No."
Then what does it matter? “People need to see them."
Should they be forced upon them? "No"
When should they see them? "When they want to and are ready"
Can you then be content to contain yourself till that time? (a true sign of strength and self-control) "Yes"
Then you are willing to become a tomato?
"Yes"

Result: Becomes tomato, lightening and storm sucks itself into it. Internal anxiety. Decides it would be happier to let go of thunder and lightening desires and just be a simple tomato. The biggest and best tasting ever.

Q1-4: Yes, Q5: I'm here for you, always

Easily Breaking Blood Vessels

Name: P. V. (proxy)

Issue: Easily broken blood vessels (3 Hd's)
6/4/09-L2-1G
Visual: Circular saw blade
Intention: To cut. What? Flesh. Why? To remove disease.
How does this relate to blood vessels breaking? The body doesn't wish to expend resourced to support healthy blood vessels to a body part that is diseased – it would rather pull the life support, cut off the resources. It would rather push away the problem then deal with it. So the ultimate intention is health? Yes.

New Visual: A caring doctor / healer (someone willing to examine/diagnose the disease and treat it with compassion – take responsibility)
Willing to transform? “Easier to just cut” - realize more pain and more damage though - “Yes”.
Result: Violent transformation, but became heart which entered doctor.

Q1-4: Yes, Q15: Love me

Time Management

Name: D.V. (proxy)
Issue: Poor time management (1 Hd)

6/4/09-Hd1-L4-2G(m)

Visual: Soup ladle
Intention: To give each person a portion
Why? To be fair
But does everyone deserve to have the soup? No, there is only so much soup
How then should it be measured out? To those you are most important first, lest the bum on the street be filled while your mother goes hungry.
What kind of holodyne then is needed? One that prioritizes

New Visual: An escalator, moving things and sorting them at the same time – the most important are being moved up, while the lesser important are falling and rolling back down. A constant sorting is taking place.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Yes

Q1,2,4: Yes. Q3: “Don't know if it will help every day. I'm sure it will, but I might forget to utilize it.” Remember, you are asking it to be one with you and integrate so it will be working for you automatically. “Oh, OK. Yes.” Q5: I love you

Video Interview with Founder

I just came across this link the other day. An excellent overview and history of holodynamics:

http://www.consciousmedianetwork.com/members/vwoolf.htm

Stess and Sickness

Name: C.G. (proxy)

Issue: Stress, resulting in sickness (5 Hd's)

6/4/09-L5-2G (m)

Visual: A ladybug
Intention: To simply be (peaceful and happy)
Why is there stress? Ladybug can't keep up with what is being demanded of it.
Understanding: One cannot “simply be” while involved in activity and while fulfilling duties.

New Visual: A person walking a tight rope
Meaning: Peace and stillness through movement – maintaining inner calm while under stress.

Willing to transform? Said yes readily, but in actuality had a hard time making the transition for fear that a gymnast couldn't maintain the qualities of a ladybug. Didn't believe possible for ladybug to became gymnast, but wanted to. Reminded that the only thing necessary was desire – not money, time or talent, just desire. That seemed to somewhat liberate the doubts. Needed to go through intermediate transition steps / stages to develop confidence. Eventually walked high tight rope effortlessly and fearlessly. Performed a seris of very difficult stunts as if second nature. (took 13 minutes)

Q1-4: A little prodding, but yes. Q5: Activate me!

Note: It was difficult for me to perform this tracking in that in order to appreciate (surround with field of love) the immature holodyne of a ladybug, one must have those qualities (which I am to some degree lacking), making clear that one can more quickly and easily perform a tracking for one whom they readily identify with. On the other hand, having worked through this, I did experience more personal growth than an “easy” one.

Unsatisfying Romantic Life

Name: P.B. (proxy)

Issue: Unsatisfying romantic life, unrealistically high standards for marriage partner, unwillingness to commit to a good relationship always hoping for better, but never finding, surviving not thriving (35 Hds)

6/4/09-L4-1G

Visual: Wagon wheel (not moving)
Intent: To move, carry goods from on place to another, mission
Why? To serve
Who? Humanity
What is going on? P. needs to sense how his relationship with E. serves humanity, until he does, it won't move.

Understanding needed: P. needs to see how in serving E. and developing a good relationship with her, he is in fact serving humanity, in that as she becomes a better person, she will make the world a better place. His example will inspire her.

New Visual: A powerful king bowing before a powerless queen.
Willing to transform? Yes but what if queen doesn't appreciate gesture and turns around and cuts the kings head off?

Remember: POWERFUL king, powerless queen – the queen can do no harm to the king A) God would not permit it unless it was best for the king B) The king is an eternal being that cannot be killed C) Any suffering that is inflicted is chosen by the king as his act of service (much like Christ - “No man takes my life, I lay it down willingly”). Think of wife as the humanity you have come to serve.

Result: Wheel transformed through various stages to a frog with a chefs hat. Eventually it became a king in armor, wielding a sword which gave him great pleasure and a feeling of power, but he was reminded that he was here to serve, not be served, here to express his divine self, through providing the world with guidance and wisdom. His sword was to execute justice, not take vengeance. He was hesitant to bow before the queen, an act he considered humiliating. Then he was reminded that the queen represented the humanity he had come to serve. He bowed before the queen. The queen was delighted and gladly and joyfully became a loyal subject.

When asked if the transformation was complete: Not quite. As the king bowed, the queen decided to test the king and slapped the king. The king didn't so much much as flinch, but said, “I've come here to serve you” with a gleam of sparkle in the eye. The queen slapped the king again, still with the same response. The queen spit on the king. He couldn't have seemed to care less, but bowed with the same response and divine sparkle in the eye. This revealed more than anything that the king was truly divine. Earthly insults could not shake or rattle his cosmic existence.

Q1-4: Yes
Q5: Love me

Foot Pain - Part 1

Name: P.V. (proxy)
Issue: Pain in lower arch of foot (4 Hd's)

6/3/09-Hd1-L4-1G

Visual: Fork
Intent: Protection
What is it doing? Creating physical pain to protect from feeling emotional pain
Why is there emotional pain? A different holodyne

Issue: Emotional Pain (12 Hd's)

Hd1-L6-2G (d)

Visual: Many shapes always changing form, largely orange.
Willing to take a single form? Yes
Single form: A HUGE single block of ice as big as a city lot (a crushing load)
Intent: To comprehend the magnitude of sin
Why? To overcome it
Intent then? Overcome sin

New Visual: A pool of water with someone effortlessly diving in it and sliding smoothly through (representing victory and mastery over it).

Willing to transform? Yes

Result: Diver did triple front flip and landed smoothly and perfectly into water – much ease and comfort – perfect mastery.