Name: P.V.
Issue: Foot Pain (4 Hd's)
6/27/09-Hd3-L6-1G
Incorrect Visual: Brown – Big square. Changes colors. Purple, orange and brown.
Was focused on “seeing” and not on sensing. Recommended not to be so focused on the self (seeing), let go of trying. Let it enter the imagination. You are not in control of what comes up, but you are in control of how you respond (accept / reject). Pretend you are dreaming. Have that same state of “letting go”.
Correct Visual: Up two stories looking out a window (the room was empty, but she felt safe, but not happy), at the beach and seeing D. Had his back to her. He was on the beach and walking away. Alone.
Feelings: Loneliness, feeling abandoned, empty, extreme sadness, sorrow, overwhelming loss, saying good-bye to what could have been, letting go, an internal ache, a longing,
Note: Didn't feel any of the feelings while viewing, but once it dawned on what the meant, they overwhelmed.
Positive Intent: Completeness, companionship, shared joys, shared sorrows, loving and being loved. Ultimately wanting completeness. Satisfaction.
Relation: Could be creating physical pain to block emotional pain. In foot because its the furthest place to put it. Put it as far away as possible.
New Visual: Faucet with pure clean clear water coming out, like a full stream being turned on full blast. (Maybe P turned it on? Didn't see anyone else turn it on). Coming from a good source.
7/1/09
Representing: Satisfaction. Completeness, can never run out. As much as needed. Whereas D. can run out (come home and be tired and want to sleep). Noted similarities between story of woman at the well with Jesus.
Took a while to see how new visual fulfilled all the intentions of the old. Was able to see mentally, but didn't feel it. Decided to try transformation anyway.
Transform? Yes.
Result: Became ocean, then sunshine, then ended in a shower of water coming out a shower head. (12 minutes)
Feelings: Much joy! Singing: I've got a river of life flowing of me . . .
Monday, July 27, 2009
Foot Pain - Part 2
Name: P.V.
Issue: Swelling and pain on left arch of foot (4 Hd's)
6/19/09-Hd2-L3-1G
Visual: Half a sunshine is rising with red and yellow flames. Representative of Jesus.
Positive intention: To give hope and fulfill the hope
New Visual: Small red sunshine in the middle, round in center with squares radiating out, dark in center, purples and reds and yellows, and beams going out. Much like a kaleidescope.
Transform? Couldn't picture the original, so it must have transformed. (?)
Update: After completing this tracking, the foot pain was gone for the rest of the day. It returned though, so there is likely another holodyne involved (and/or it may take some time to physically potentialize).
Issue: Swelling and pain on left arch of foot (4 Hd's)
6/19/09-Hd2-L3-1G
Visual: Half a sunshine is rising with red and yellow flames. Representative of Jesus.
Positive intention: To give hope and fulfill the hope
New Visual: Small red sunshine in the middle, round in center with squares radiating out, dark in center, purples and reds and yellows, and beams going out. Much like a kaleidescope.
Transform? Couldn't picture the original, so it must have transformed. (?)
Update: After completing this tracking, the foot pain was gone for the rest of the day. It returned though, so there is likely another holodyne involved (and/or it may take some time to physically potentialize).
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Weak Liver - Part 2
This was the first tracking since the seminar that I have actually facilitated where the person themselves did the visualizing and integration. While it took a little work, I sensed that the same thing was happening with them that was happening with me. While this is still only one person, I'm excited at the prospect of being able to help others learn to track and transform their own holodynes.
Name: D.V.
Issue: Liver weakness (5 Hds)
6/20/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: Yellow life raft, in life raft waiting for rescue
Intention: Safety
Relation: Non-movement, waiting for something
New Visual: Looking down into the water from the raft, mountains appear with snow on them. It continues to snow on them even though it is a sunny day. The water has disappeared and the raft is now evidently way up in the sky. The snow is seen as a negative that you are safe from.
Relation: Some issues are beyond control, you don't have to be upset about it, you can be at peace with it.
Transform? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Smile as you look down!
Name: D.V.
Issue: Liver weakness (5 Hds)
6/20/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: Yellow life raft, in life raft waiting for rescue
Intention: Safety
Relation: Non-movement, waiting for something
New Visual: Looking down into the water from the raft, mountains appear with snow on them. It continues to snow on them even though it is a sunny day. The water has disappeared and the raft is now evidently way up in the sky. The snow is seen as a negative that you are safe from.
Relation: Some issues are beyond control, you don't have to be upset about it, you can be at peace with it.
Transform? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Smile as you look down!
Weak Lungs - Part 2
After doing a substantial number of adjustments, I came to the realization that each transformation that occurred contained information that shaped itself to the performer, and that in fact the process of transforming was also a part of the integration process. Therefore, I decided to track the following holodynes but wanted to try letting the person themselves perform the transformation (and of course integration).
Name: D.V. (proxy)
Issue: Weak lungs
6/19/09-Hd2-L4-1G
Visual: A dolphin swimming through the water peacefully, with flashes of great big jaws, such as a great white shark, flashing in its mind, ever conscious of danger.
Relation: This ever present consciousness of danger could suppress the life forces, particularly paralyzing breathing.
Intent: Survival, caution, recognition of vulnerability, safety
New Visual: A wheel, spinning. It is moving very rapidly. It looks like a bike wheel but is connected to nothing. Though I sense it is connected and in fact enabling someone to go somewhere. After a time, someone tries to slow it down. They rub a stick on it. It does slow a little, but as soon as the stick is released, it picks up speed spinning again. This time, a hand tries slowing it down. Eventually, it comes to a stop in the firm grip. But the grip can't hold forever. It eventually releases and the wheel begins spinning again.
Relation: I sense that this wheel represents life, movement, and achievement. Issues may arise, but ultimately, they can't stop the process. Forward movement is eternal and can be slowed and hindered but never permanently stopped. Let the lungs reintroduce this life cycle and show them whose boss by deep, rhythmic an cyclical breathing.
Transformation: Incomplete
6/19/09-Hd3-L4-12G(d,d,d,d...)
Visual: A HUGE windmill, such as you might see in Holland, three stories high and as wide as a house. In fact, it may be one. The blades are turning on the great beast, turning, turning, then the wind dies a little and it slows a bit. The wind dies substantially and it just creaks along.
Intent: Movement, progress, achievement
Problem: Dependant on variable outside source
New Visual: A beautiful, shining red heart, it slowly turns in circles, showing off its completeness.
Relation: You are not the object being “done” but rather the object “doing”. You can achieve as little or as much as you want . . . There is an infinite supply of blood. You are the source.
Transform? Yes.
Result: Windmill spins fast, then comes off, doing loops around a tube now . . . Incomplete
Note: I haven't finished this one yet with this person. Will post an update if I do . . .
Name: D.V. (proxy)
Issue: Weak lungs
6/19/09-Hd2-L4-1G
Visual: A dolphin swimming through the water peacefully, with flashes of great big jaws, such as a great white shark, flashing in its mind, ever conscious of danger.
Relation: This ever present consciousness of danger could suppress the life forces, particularly paralyzing breathing.
Intent: Survival, caution, recognition of vulnerability, safety
New Visual: A wheel, spinning. It is moving very rapidly. It looks like a bike wheel but is connected to nothing. Though I sense it is connected and in fact enabling someone to go somewhere. After a time, someone tries to slow it down. They rub a stick on it. It does slow a little, but as soon as the stick is released, it picks up speed spinning again. This time, a hand tries slowing it down. Eventually, it comes to a stop in the firm grip. But the grip can't hold forever. It eventually releases and the wheel begins spinning again.
Relation: I sense that this wheel represents life, movement, and achievement. Issues may arise, but ultimately, they can't stop the process. Forward movement is eternal and can be slowed and hindered but never permanently stopped. Let the lungs reintroduce this life cycle and show them whose boss by deep, rhythmic an cyclical breathing.
Transformation: Incomplete
6/19/09-Hd3-L4-12G(d,d,d,d...)
Visual: A HUGE windmill, such as you might see in Holland, three stories high and as wide as a house. In fact, it may be one. The blades are turning on the great beast, turning, turning, then the wind dies a little and it slows a bit. The wind dies substantially and it just creaks along.
Intent: Movement, progress, achievement
Problem: Dependant on variable outside source
New Visual: A beautiful, shining red heart, it slowly turns in circles, showing off its completeness.
Relation: You are not the object being “done” but rather the object “doing”. You can achieve as little or as much as you want . . . There is an infinite supply of blood. You are the source.
Transform? Yes.
Result: Windmill spins fast, then comes off, doing loops around a tube now . . . Incomplete
Note: I haven't finished this one yet with this person. Will post an update if I do . . .
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Weak Lungs - Part 1
Name: D.V. (proxy)
Issue: Weak Lungs (3 Hd's)
6/13/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A nose with big nostrils, which turns out to be on a dog which is using it to smell with and going all around sniffing (Pluto style). It discovers something dangerous and frightful, gets scared and decides it doesn't want to do any more sniffing ever again (bad experience). No more inhaling. The breathing process becomes arrested.
Intention: exploration, discovery, safety
New Visual: A ferris wheel
Significance: One is able to have a new experience, see the world differently, obtain new vistas, while observing from a secure position that is safe, being fastened to the seat behind a metal bar. The circular motion of the ferris wheel might represent the restored rhythm of the lungs – steady, fixed motion which allows exploration with safety.
Transform? Yes. Complete: Yes
Issue: Weak Lungs (3 Hd's)
6/13/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A nose with big nostrils, which turns out to be on a dog which is using it to smell with and going all around sniffing (Pluto style). It discovers something dangerous and frightful, gets scared and decides it doesn't want to do any more sniffing ever again (bad experience). No more inhaling. The breathing process becomes arrested.
Intention: exploration, discovery, safety
New Visual: A ferris wheel
Significance: One is able to have a new experience, see the world differently, obtain new vistas, while observing from a secure position that is safe, being fastened to the seat behind a metal bar. The circular motion of the ferris wheel might represent the restored rhythm of the lungs – steady, fixed motion which allows exploration with safety.
Transform? Yes. Complete: Yes
Weak Liver - Part 1
Name: D.V. (proxy)
Issue: Weak Liver (5 Hd's)
6/13/09-Hd1-L3-2G (m)
Visual: A banana is on the ground and it gets stepped on, squashing. Someone finds it and not wanting to waste it, scoops it up and lays it on the counter. It just sits there. It isn't eaten because, well, it's kind of messy and gross. Yet it can't be thrown out – it's still food. Fruit flies come and it rots, starting to stink. But it could be eaten to survive.
Intent: Not wasting, conservation, thrift, making sure needs are met.
New Visual: A child tasting food. Some foods it likes, some it spits all over the place. These may be perfectly good foods, but not what the child's body needs at the time. It may be wasteful, but the child's body and health are more important.
Note: Before the above visual, two other images came up, one of a merry-go-round, and one of a painter, neither of which seemed to “fit”. Then I “rang the bell” (explained below) and got this.
Discovery: Blocks to seeing / perceiving / sensing while tracking can be overcome by “ringing” the bell of love (it's word / thought / feeling / intent / consciousness) in the consciousness repeatedly while doing the tracking. This will clear out and drive away any hindrances that may present themselves. Also, re-emphasizing desire to remove blockage and maintaining a state of humility, supplication, dependency, and appreciation for assistance from guides (God/Goddess/Spirit, angels, other beings).
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Issue: Weak Liver (5 Hd's)
6/13/09-Hd1-L3-2G (m)
Visual: A banana is on the ground and it gets stepped on, squashing. Someone finds it and not wanting to waste it, scoops it up and lays it on the counter. It just sits there. It isn't eaten because, well, it's kind of messy and gross. Yet it can't be thrown out – it's still food. Fruit flies come and it rots, starting to stink. But it could be eaten to survive.
Intent: Not wasting, conservation, thrift, making sure needs are met.
New Visual: A child tasting food. Some foods it likes, some it spits all over the place. These may be perfectly good foods, but not what the child's body needs at the time. It may be wasteful, but the child's body and health are more important.
Note: Before the above visual, two other images came up, one of a merry-go-round, and one of a painter, neither of which seemed to “fit”. Then I “rang the bell” (explained below) and got this.
Discovery: Blocks to seeing / perceiving / sensing while tracking can be overcome by “ringing” the bell of love (it's word / thought / feeling / intent / consciousness) in the consciousness repeatedly while doing the tracking. This will clear out and drive away any hindrances that may present themselves. Also, re-emphasizing desire to remove blockage and maintaining a state of humility, supplication, dependency, and appreciation for assistance from guides (God/Goddess/Spirit, angels, other beings).
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Liver and Anger
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh and D.V.
Issue: Liver (related to anger / revenge) (15 Hd)
6/18-19/09-Hd4-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: Train on tracks runs out of coal out in the middle of nowhere and stops on the tracks. Another train comes along, derailing it and knocking it off the tracks as it goes, then keeps going. The engineer is pissed. Now both out of fuel and derailed. Particularly pissed at the other train. He wants revenge but won't get it because he has no way of finding who did it. He will simply be angry his whole life.
Intent: Protection (against the unkindness of others). Justification (in this case by shifting blame).
Relation to Liver: Liver is the center of metabolism. Life may offer some unpleasant realities which we refuse to accept (and would rather blame) or “metabolize”. These disempower us in that by not accepting responsibility for unpleasant outcomes, we are likely to see them repeat. We need to accept and process all that comes down the pipe. For after all, we swallowed it.
New Visual: A seal trying to balance a ball. After a time, it falls off and he catches it with his flipper, after many attempts with the same result, he tries balancing again and falls backward into a pool of water. He gets out and tries again.
Relation: Life is like a ball we try to balance. No one else is ultimately responsible besides us. We must accept full responsibility and full ownership for the outcome. We are certain to fail at times, but that is OK, it's a learning process, just go back at it again. We may even fall big time, but the worst thing that can happen is that our egos get drenched. Get back up! (BTW it's all just a circus! Don't take it too seriously!)
Transform? Yes.
Result: About one hour of many scenes, lastly a skeleton that wished to be evil. But it could find no acts of evil that it could commit sustainably and comfortably without it coming back and hurting itself in some way. It did many atrocious things, but whether killing off its servants (resulting in it having to do all the work now) or sneaking into homes and shooting children (resulting in increasingly stepped up security so it couldn't access them) or going to Africa and killing (resulting in having to live in the bush), none turned out to be sustainable. It gave up trying to be evil and took off a mask to reveal a person (above possibly a cathartic). Eventually it became the seal only this time, the ball stayed perfectly balanced, and in one spot, while the seal underneath moved back and forth, keeping it perfectly balanced. (1 hr +)
Note: The above took a substantial amount of time, but wasn't nearly as agonizing as the last “long” one. Possibly due to an adjusting. It would appear much like biking to Cottonwood – the very first trip is the hardest you will ever make!
Note 2: Interestingly, I no longer feel angry at a particular person (or anyone) anymore!
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Take 100% responsibility and you'll never have any one to blame!
Feelings: I'm free! No longer bound by anger and no longer a victim of anyone! No one controls me!!
Issue: Liver (related to anger / revenge) (15 Hd)
6/18-19/09-Hd4-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: Train on tracks runs out of coal out in the middle of nowhere and stops on the tracks. Another train comes along, derailing it and knocking it off the tracks as it goes, then keeps going. The engineer is pissed. Now both out of fuel and derailed. Particularly pissed at the other train. He wants revenge but won't get it because he has no way of finding who did it. He will simply be angry his whole life.
Intent: Protection (against the unkindness of others). Justification (in this case by shifting blame).
Relation to Liver: Liver is the center of metabolism. Life may offer some unpleasant realities which we refuse to accept (and would rather blame) or “metabolize”. These disempower us in that by not accepting responsibility for unpleasant outcomes, we are likely to see them repeat. We need to accept and process all that comes down the pipe. For after all, we swallowed it.
New Visual: A seal trying to balance a ball. After a time, it falls off and he catches it with his flipper, after many attempts with the same result, he tries balancing again and falls backward into a pool of water. He gets out and tries again.
Relation: Life is like a ball we try to balance. No one else is ultimately responsible besides us. We must accept full responsibility and full ownership for the outcome. We are certain to fail at times, but that is OK, it's a learning process, just go back at it again. We may even fall big time, but the worst thing that can happen is that our egos get drenched. Get back up! (BTW it's all just a circus! Don't take it too seriously!)
Transform? Yes.
Result: About one hour of many scenes, lastly a skeleton that wished to be evil. But it could find no acts of evil that it could commit sustainably and comfortably without it coming back and hurting itself in some way. It did many atrocious things, but whether killing off its servants (resulting in it having to do all the work now) or sneaking into homes and shooting children (resulting in increasingly stepped up security so it couldn't access them) or going to Africa and killing (resulting in having to live in the bush), none turned out to be sustainable. It gave up trying to be evil and took off a mask to reveal a person (above possibly a cathartic). Eventually it became the seal only this time, the ball stayed perfectly balanced, and in one spot, while the seal underneath moved back and forth, keeping it perfectly balanced. (1 hr +)
Note: The above took a substantial amount of time, but wasn't nearly as agonizing as the last “long” one. Possibly due to an adjusting. It would appear much like biking to Cottonwood – the very first trip is the hardest you will ever make!
Note 2: Interestingly, I no longer feel angry at a particular person (or anyone) anymore!
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Take 100% responsibility and you'll never have any one to blame!
Feelings: I'm free! No longer bound by anger and no longer a victim of anyone! No one controls me!!
Misconceptions of Food
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: The belief that I (and my body) require food to exist (7 Hd's)
6/14/09-Hd1-L2-28G(m,m,d,d...)
Visual: A train powered by coal, which is shoveled in to keep it going.
Intent: Work, progress, energization, service
New Visual: A miniature golf track having multiple holes on the first part which all connect underneath and come out the same hole on the other side. You get the same result, regardless of the hole you hit into.
Significance: There are multiple ways to achieve one end. There is no single track fueled by one source, but many tracks fueled by many sources (i. e. many “holes” into body through which nourishment can come, not just the mouth).
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: When “one” (way) enters your mind, replace with “multiple” (ways).
6/14/09-Hd2-L2-12G(d,m,d,m...)
Visual: I saw fins at first, then a diver with them that started swimming. They propelled him through the water. [supplemental info: the fins propelled the diver into shark infested waters, which chomped him up].
Significance: The diver thought it needed fins
Intent: Progress, movement, speed, effectiveness
New Visual: A man stands at a deli, looking at dishes and food items on display for sale. He points to a cookie, buys it, goes and sits down and after the first bit spits it out – it has gone bad. He returns and gets his money back, now sick to his stomach. (WARNING Hd)
Significance: Advertisement, popularity, market appeal, mass belief, and common perception don't ensure value. The masses are being slowly poisoned. What you think you need may not only be unnecessary, but to your detriment. Look inwardly to determine need, not outwardly. Seeking happiness and value from the outside will only result in disappointment. We already have everything we need.
Relation: You don't need food just because other people say so.
Transform? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Every time you feel you must eat because the world says so, remember the guy who is puking.
6/14/09-Hd3-L2-14G(d,d,m,m...)
Visual: A hungry seagull scavenging for food, waiting until safe to collect
Intent: Survival, meeting its needs
New Visual: A jump rope being whorled around different ways (and jumped).
Meaning: We don't exist for ourselves, but for God. It is His responsibility to “power” us. We just surrender to the cause. He will take care of His “equipment”.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Not quite. The person jumping the rope hops out, yet the jump rope keeps spinning. The jump rope is powering itself!
Q1: Yes. Q2: “Hold still” (it comes and surrounds me). Q3,4: Yes. Q5: I'm here for you!
6/14/09-Hd4-L2-14G(m,m,d,d...)
Visual: A gentle little panda eating bamboo peacefully become a huge panda with ferocious teeth that growls.
Intent: To become strong and powerful
Relation: Food will make you strong (belief)
New Visual: A mask with a Pharaoh's mask made of gold, which spins off into the distance.
Meaning: The body (like the mask) only represents us, it is not us, and no matter how magnificent we make it, it will one day vanish. It is relatively insignificant in comparison to the us inside. Don't overvalue the external. Let go of it. Forget about it. Focus on who you really are! Let the body follow in the path blazed by the Spirit and not the Spirit follow the body.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Let God be your food.
6/14/09-Hd5-L2-3G(d,d)
Visual: A guy is being pulled on a wake board behind a boat. After several carves he hits the wake and attempts a flip, biffing it hard. The same thing repeats, attempting a different stunt. Then again.
Intent: Mastery, achievement, the top
Belief: Mastery requires many attempts and many failures, including much pain.
Relation: You cannot be an inediate without immense work and suffering.
New Visual: A beautiful gorgeous girl, the envy of all, who did nothing to be beautiful but was simply born that way.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Living without food is not a feat achieved but an inheritance discovered – you don't became an inediate, you are an indiate.
6/14/09-Hd6-L2-8G(d,m,d,d...)
Visual: An analog clock is ticking. A cockoo bird comes out at random: “cockoo . . . cockoo . . . cockoo,” and the clock ticks a bit and then it comes out again cockooing. It is not synchronized to the time.
Intent: To serve as an important signal
Why? For the well-being of the owner
Meaning: Hunger (the bird) is an indicator of need superseding all other indicators and criteria (the bird is always rights, regardless of what the clock says, i. e. even if I feel as though I have a lot of energy, or just ate, if I am hungry, I must need food!).
Representing: Allegiance to a single indicator
New Visual: An iron (warm), moving in a circular motion (ironing clothes).
Significance? Hunger signals are sometimes the product of an imperfect environment which has imposed (imprinted / wrinkled) itself upon us. These hunger signals, like wrinkles can be placed in the wrong spot and may need ironed out by reminding them that they are out of place. Let the iron of truth determine the creases and no the external environment.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: 23 minutes of craziness. Finally it settled into the form of the iron.
Q1-4: Yes (all quick and easy as if not necessary to ask – possibly already integrated during transformation).
Q5: (a) Iron out the creases of hunger with the truth (b) I will help you
Note: Some “false” images came to me from the outside (forced) during transformation (usually non-moving) but these were distinguishable from the true, of internal origin (gentle).
6/14/09-Hd7-L2-8G(d,m,d,d...)
Visual: HUGE yellow and orange daffodils and other flowers grow bigger, then zip by on the left side.
Intent: Growth and beauty, joy, life
Meaning: Enjoy wonderful things while you can because they will soon pass away. Goodness is transient, wonderful things temporary.
Relation: Your life is transient, you are a temporary mortal being. You are not eternal, you are no self-existent, great as you are, you will one day pass away.
Fundamental flaw: Identification with the body rather then the spirit, leading the spirit to take on the qualities of the body (death) rather then the body to take on the qualities of the spirit (life).
New Visual: A water wheel (with water pouring over it as it turns).
Meaning: Wheel = the self, Water=The life current (God), Turning=living
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: I am here for you.
7/23/09 - Update: Immediately upon completion of these adjustments I did a four day fast, the longest I have ever done. While usually I will notice weight loss the first day (particularly since I'm so skinny and their isn't much to lose), I noticed no appreciable loss over all four days. For the three weeks following this tracking I averaged about 950 calories a day compared to the usual 1800 (again with no loss in weight or energy). I have since gone up just a bit from that, but my guess is that it is likely due to the fact that I am surrounded by others that are constantly eating. I notice that I am very affected by other people. This is a holodyne I need to work on . . .
Issue: The belief that I (and my body) require food to exist (7 Hd's)
6/14/09-Hd1-L2-28G(m,m,d,d...)
Visual: A train powered by coal, which is shoveled in to keep it going.
Intent: Work, progress, energization, service
New Visual: A miniature golf track having multiple holes on the first part which all connect underneath and come out the same hole on the other side. You get the same result, regardless of the hole you hit into.
Significance: There are multiple ways to achieve one end. There is no single track fueled by one source, but many tracks fueled by many sources (i. e. many “holes” into body through which nourishment can come, not just the mouth).
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: When “one” (way) enters your mind, replace with “multiple” (ways).
6/14/09-Hd2-L2-12G(d,m,d,m...)
Visual: I saw fins at first, then a diver with them that started swimming. They propelled him through the water. [supplemental info: the fins propelled the diver into shark infested waters, which chomped him up].
Significance: The diver thought it needed fins
Intent: Progress, movement, speed, effectiveness
New Visual: A man stands at a deli, looking at dishes and food items on display for sale. He points to a cookie, buys it, goes and sits down and after the first bit spits it out – it has gone bad. He returns and gets his money back, now sick to his stomach. (WARNING Hd)
Significance: Advertisement, popularity, market appeal, mass belief, and common perception don't ensure value. The masses are being slowly poisoned. What you think you need may not only be unnecessary, but to your detriment. Look inwardly to determine need, not outwardly. Seeking happiness and value from the outside will only result in disappointment. We already have everything we need.
Relation: You don't need food just because other people say so.
Transform? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Every time you feel you must eat because the world says so, remember the guy who is puking.
6/14/09-Hd3-L2-14G(d,d,m,m...)
Visual: A hungry seagull scavenging for food, waiting until safe to collect
Intent: Survival, meeting its needs
New Visual: A jump rope being whorled around different ways (and jumped).
Meaning: We don't exist for ourselves, but for God. It is His responsibility to “power” us. We just surrender to the cause. He will take care of His “equipment”.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Not quite. The person jumping the rope hops out, yet the jump rope keeps spinning. The jump rope is powering itself!
Q1: Yes. Q2: “Hold still” (it comes and surrounds me). Q3,4: Yes. Q5: I'm here for you!
6/14/09-Hd4-L2-14G(m,m,d,d...)
Visual: A gentle little panda eating bamboo peacefully become a huge panda with ferocious teeth that growls.
Intent: To become strong and powerful
Relation: Food will make you strong (belief)
New Visual: A mask with a Pharaoh's mask made of gold, which spins off into the distance.
Meaning: The body (like the mask) only represents us, it is not us, and no matter how magnificent we make it, it will one day vanish. It is relatively insignificant in comparison to the us inside. Don't overvalue the external. Let go of it. Forget about it. Focus on who you really are! Let the body follow in the path blazed by the Spirit and not the Spirit follow the body.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Let God be your food.
6/14/09-Hd5-L2-3G(d,d)
Visual: A guy is being pulled on a wake board behind a boat. After several carves he hits the wake and attempts a flip, biffing it hard. The same thing repeats, attempting a different stunt. Then again.
Intent: Mastery, achievement, the top
Belief: Mastery requires many attempts and many failures, including much pain.
Relation: You cannot be an inediate without immense work and suffering.
New Visual: A beautiful gorgeous girl, the envy of all, who did nothing to be beautiful but was simply born that way.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Living without food is not a feat achieved but an inheritance discovered – you don't became an inediate, you are an indiate.
6/14/09-Hd6-L2-8G(d,m,d,d...)
Visual: An analog clock is ticking. A cockoo bird comes out at random: “cockoo . . . cockoo . . . cockoo,” and the clock ticks a bit and then it comes out again cockooing. It is not synchronized to the time.
Intent: To serve as an important signal
Why? For the well-being of the owner
Meaning: Hunger (the bird) is an indicator of need superseding all other indicators and criteria (the bird is always rights, regardless of what the clock says, i. e. even if I feel as though I have a lot of energy, or just ate, if I am hungry, I must need food!).
Representing: Allegiance to a single indicator
New Visual: An iron (warm), moving in a circular motion (ironing clothes).
Significance? Hunger signals are sometimes the product of an imperfect environment which has imposed (imprinted / wrinkled) itself upon us. These hunger signals, like wrinkles can be placed in the wrong spot and may need ironed out by reminding them that they are out of place. Let the iron of truth determine the creases and no the external environment.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: 23 minutes of craziness. Finally it settled into the form of the iron.
Q1-4: Yes (all quick and easy as if not necessary to ask – possibly already integrated during transformation).
Q5: (a) Iron out the creases of hunger with the truth (b) I will help you
Note: Some “false” images came to me from the outside (forced) during transformation (usually non-moving) but these were distinguishable from the true, of internal origin (gentle).
6/14/09-Hd7-L2-8G(d,m,d,d...)
Visual: HUGE yellow and orange daffodils and other flowers grow bigger, then zip by on the left side.
Intent: Growth and beauty, joy, life
Meaning: Enjoy wonderful things while you can because they will soon pass away. Goodness is transient, wonderful things temporary.
Relation: Your life is transient, you are a temporary mortal being. You are not eternal, you are no self-existent, great as you are, you will one day pass away.
Fundamental flaw: Identification with the body rather then the spirit, leading the spirit to take on the qualities of the body (death) rather then the body to take on the qualities of the spirit (life).
New Visual: A water wheel (with water pouring over it as it turns).
Meaning: Wheel = the self, Water=The life current (God), Turning=living
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: I am here for you.
7/23/09 - Update: Immediately upon completion of these adjustments I did a four day fast, the longest I have ever done. While usually I will notice weight loss the first day (particularly since I'm so skinny and their isn't much to lose), I noticed no appreciable loss over all four days. For the three weeks following this tracking I averaged about 950 calories a day compared to the usual 1800 (again with no loss in weight or energy). I have since gone up just a bit from that, but my guess is that it is likely due to the fact that I am surrounded by others that are constantly eating. I notice that I am very affected by other people. This is a holodyne I need to work on . . .
Requireing Lots of Sleep
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Requiring lots (9 hrs.) of sleep (8 Hd's)
6/17/09-Hd1-L2-5G(d,m,d,m)
Visual: A boat (that looks like a small Ark)
Intention: Safety, protection
Significance: Sleep may be my escape from the world, a barrier to the outside that I can hide in. For nine whole hours the “outside” cannot touch me.
New Visual: A saw blade which spins and as it does, becomes a harmless snow flake, which gently lands on the ground.
Meaning: The world is harmless. It may have the appearance of danger, but in reality, it is but a gentle snowflake!
Transform? “I guess so”
Result: Ark sprouted toddler legs (symbolic of my youth?), got up and walked, then became toddler which jumped rope (freedom?) which became a hand which reached up and grabbed something very high up (chocolate easter egg) and put it in its mouth (treats were kept up on the fridge out of reach, symbolic of a world which kept good things from me? A world which limited my happiness?). After eating, became a huge smile, a mature man in an 1800's suit coat, stomping in pleasure, which freezes (plastic like), shrinks and disappears on horizon. Comes back as a big sunshine with a toothy grin (missing one) then it matures and adds sunglasses and becomes orange with a great satisfied smile, then it spins, becoming a kaleidescope of colors (largely orange) and shapes, fireworks go off, a big mushroom with a red top comes on the scene, 30 ft. tall, which shoots out spirals which become a galaxy, which flips to become a white ball (of tape), which all kinds of cartoon insects pop out of, more stuff, Ark with child again which spins and becomes saw blade which starts spinning around the inside of a pipe, I end up on top of it going in circles within circles, now reverse, they “pop” into separate pieces, then dissolve into a blank screen which becomes a circular saw blade whizzing at top speed, industrial like size (10 ft.), not something to mess with this is powerful! Becomes star shape, begins to float, flips horizontal and drifts back and forth to ground. Upon touching, goes “boink” and becomes a harmless little snowflake. (7 minutes)
Complete? Yes
Q1: No response (can't communicate, is inanimate and harmless). Sensed a yes.
Q2-4: Same as above. Q5: Remember, they are but fragile snow flakes! All of them! Assignments: Remember.
6/17/09-Hd2-L2-5G(d,m,d,m)
Visual: A ferris wheel
Feeling: A little uneasiness, is this safe? Could these come off? (I mainly get on because everyone else is – largely how I view / viewed life, which after the first few rounds gets boring. No compelling attraction – slow and repetitive)
Intention: To enjoy the experience, but safely
Relation: Uneasiness with life, escape from that by sleeping . . . (possibly a reason I was so particular in making my bed when younger – held in high regard)
New Visual: A 5 inch blade knife with a good bulky handle, gleaming and glistening sharp.
Meaning: Nothing is inherently unsafe in life, but rather, your own actions determine how things play out . . . (A knife can safely be used for cutting veggies or it can be used to kill someone)
Transform? Yes
***Revelation: Many events in life can embed themselves in a holodyne, reinforcing it. The transformation process unravels these events and unpacks them, letting them express themselves on the way in order to allow new interpretation and expression at the holodynamic level. These are largely what you “see” or are symbolic of these events and impressions – thus not necessarily consciously (or logically) understood, yet making the necessary subconscious impression (i. e. reprogramming).***
Result: Saw among many things cartoons of Tom and Jerry at “Grandma” Dawses house and Tweety and Silvester and Bugs and Fudd, more then I see myself listen to mom and dad then after sensing a small tension, run into my room and jump on my bed – MY bed and place of safety and comfort. It is soft and offers its leisureness. There are monsters under it. Maybe I should sleep till mom and dad are awake to ensure protection. I don't want to get out of bed with them under there. I love sleep, I can escape to a world of my own making. Maybe I will go to Disney Land! Maybe I will see Mickey Mouse! I don't like school. The sooner I wake up, the sooner I have to think about going! I'd rather sleep all day. (why don't I like school? I sit all day at a desk indoors, surrounded by kids that I don't really like and that don't really like me, studying subjects that to me are largely worthless and irrelevant. I'm not free, I'm a prisoner. My own choices and wishes are not respected. I'm considered an inferior to adults who tell me what do to, even though my ability to observe and sense the nature of reality is equal to theirs.) Again, visions of me on my bed dreaming from childhood even day-dreaming. My place to escape to imagination. My place to create the world I wanted. Pictures of being pulled under water and held under (water park?), riding a bike to escape danger, a giant (like Jack and the Bean Stalk) chasing and trying to squash me, then they turn, and after getting punched I become a kind of Rambo (though not killing, then saw mouse (Jerry) who is invincible, pictures of someone marching up plank of ship (from Greece?), somebody throws stuff over board, goes and sleeps, has visions of beautiful country (Greece?). G. afraid of dad, can't be bothered when asleep (pretends), more, more . . . . . . . Knife after being violently thrown into ground (multiple times) ends up finally tucked into a drawer beside a bed, safely enclosed, but not out of reach. (1 Hr. 50 Minutes!!!!!)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Don't be afraid to live – you determine the outcome!
Revelation: Better to transform immature holodynes that are creating problems then dwell on mature ones that counteract them. The former is a one time process, whereas the latter is eternal!
6/17/09-Hd3-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A sewing machine (running and threading clothing)
Perspective: A negative view, industries, but dangerous
Intent: Safety, non-attachment to danger
Significance: A world view – the world might get a lot done, but it is still dangerous. Better to not take par and retreat to something unproductive, but safe (sleep).
New Visual: A starfish
Significance: A starfish rests safely, but within that safe resting place still performs all the necessary activities.
Transform? Yes
Result: Many things . . . beavers being shot by loggers, Bill Cosby conversion with Claire about marriage (he didn't want to) and finally a star fish! (5 min)
Q1: Yes. Q2: (a) Old situation – Remind in mornings that I can be safe in my own little world and be productive – waking up to the world of my making. (b) Become one? - “What does that mean?” That you give me your perspective and remind me that I can be both safe and productive. I let go of “danger” as a reason for not awakening early. I let the image of you rest in my subconscious. I let go of the idea of resting occurring only during sleep to something that includes an attitude that pervades the whole life – night and day. Q3,4: Yes. Q5: Work and rest are one!
6/18/09-Hd4-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A dump truck tilts its bed, unloading a big load of gravel
Intention: Releasing a burden
Relation: Using sleep as a means of dumping and forgetting cares, concerns, worries, problems – a release.
New Visual: A fisherman is lazily out fishing and gets a catch. He reels it in and takes a look – not the fish he's trying to catch. He tosses it out and tries again.
Meaning: You don't have to carry any burden you don't want to. Pick the ones you want and consciously toss the rest back. You are in control.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Many stages finally resulting in solitary fisher, catching some, tossing others back. Laid back on the grass with a straw hat and a straw in his mouth, waiting for the line to show something. Says “hey partner, this is the easy life!” (8 min)
Q1: Course man! You betcha! Q2: Yes. Q3: Does it involve work? :) You just come look at me and you'll know the answer! Sure. Q4: Oh yeah! No more stressin! You just toss back what you don't want! Q5: What you worrin' about? Toss those worries right back upon the person that gave them to ya!
Assignment: Any time you have a problem, I don't want you going to sleep till you've “tossed it back”!
6/18/09-Hd5-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A steamship billowing along
Intent: Service, carry passengers, but with effort
Understanding? Service is important, but takes great effort. Take a break every once in a while – you deserve it! (a little nap will recharge you for the duties ahead!)
New Visual: A race car, hitting pit stops just long enough to get the critical needs met, but not wanting to waste a second more, lest in the process, it not achieve its ultimate goal.
Transform? Yes
Result: Did so very quickly (10 seconds)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: “Not really – You know what you need to do . . .” Assignments: “Hop on the car and watch me ride!!”
6/18/09-Hd6-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A grasshopper (not moving)
Intention: Contentedness (yet a bit lazy)
New Visual: A wood-pecker
Significance: Very peaceful and content, no worries or cares, yet working non-stop all the while . . . Peck peck . . . peck peck peck peck
Transform? “Do you think I can?” Yes just be willing. Transformed.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Be productive – it will give you contentment!
Assignment: Go to the store, be productive and remember me along the way!
Realization: If I could be content while working (like the wood-pecker) maybe I'd be willing to work more!
6/18/09-Hd5-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A rubber duck, floating and bobbing in water
Intent: Peace, restfulness, easygoingness
Relation: Go with the flow, wherever your feeling take you (the water). Let your feeling guide life.
Problem: Feelings are often determined by circumstances which are the result of our actions, therefore, action can determine feelings. If we want right feelings we must act objectively apart from them – otherwise, we could act wrong, resulting in bad feelings, which are worse then the “good” feeling we initially based our decision on.
New Visual: A cowboy riding a horse. He's in the middle of a gun fight. As he rides and shoots, his hat falls off. His favorite hat. Oh how he loves that hat. He jumps off to get it and as he does, his horse runs away. Gone forever. He would have felt terrible to lose that hat but not as terrible as he now feels about losing his horse! Now he has to fight without it! But he's learned a valuable lesson! (WARNING Hd)
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Remember what's most important (and it's not always your present feelings) and you will feel the best overall that you possibly can!
6/18/09-Hd8-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A US flag is playing with fire (a flame). It jumps over it once, untouched, but the second time catches fire and is partly (25%) burned.
Understanding: The majority of people take unnecessary and dangerous risks. They may get away with them sometimes, but not always. Better to play it safe.
Relation to sleep: Anytime you are awake, your risk factor goes up. Living is a risk. Minimize it by sleeping.
New Visual: A parrot. It flies a little, then rests, flies a little, then rests again, always on the lookout, but enjoying itself all the while.
Significance: Most danger is avoidable if one pays attention, and the pleasure to be gained is worth the minuscule risk (and effort).
Transform? Yes. Complete.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Go on, go on, go on . . .
7/23/09 - Update: Immediately after this tracking, I found myself needing only six hours of sleep (as opposed to the usual 9-10). The affect seemed to fade somewhat, however, with time. I'm not sure if it simply wasn't integrated thoroughly or other factors have come to play as I am surrounded by other people's circadian rhythms which could be affecting me. I still need substantially less sleep then I used to need (1-2 hours less). I suspect there are multiple factors at play here. I will post as new insight and information comes.
Issue: Requiring lots (9 hrs.) of sleep (8 Hd's)
6/17/09-Hd1-L2-5G(d,m,d,m)
Visual: A boat (that looks like a small Ark)
Intention: Safety, protection
Significance: Sleep may be my escape from the world, a barrier to the outside that I can hide in. For nine whole hours the “outside” cannot touch me.
New Visual: A saw blade which spins and as it does, becomes a harmless snow flake, which gently lands on the ground.
Meaning: The world is harmless. It may have the appearance of danger, but in reality, it is but a gentle snowflake!
Transform? “I guess so”
Result: Ark sprouted toddler legs (symbolic of my youth?), got up and walked, then became toddler which jumped rope (freedom?) which became a hand which reached up and grabbed something very high up (chocolate easter egg) and put it in its mouth (treats were kept up on the fridge out of reach, symbolic of a world which kept good things from me? A world which limited my happiness?). After eating, became a huge smile, a mature man in an 1800's suit coat, stomping in pleasure, which freezes (plastic like), shrinks and disappears on horizon. Comes back as a big sunshine with a toothy grin (missing one) then it matures and adds sunglasses and becomes orange with a great satisfied smile, then it spins, becoming a kaleidescope of colors (largely orange) and shapes, fireworks go off, a big mushroom with a red top comes on the scene, 30 ft. tall, which shoots out spirals which become a galaxy, which flips to become a white ball (of tape), which all kinds of cartoon insects pop out of, more stuff, Ark with child again which spins and becomes saw blade which starts spinning around the inside of a pipe, I end up on top of it going in circles within circles, now reverse, they “pop” into separate pieces, then dissolve into a blank screen which becomes a circular saw blade whizzing at top speed, industrial like size (10 ft.), not something to mess with this is powerful! Becomes star shape, begins to float, flips horizontal and drifts back and forth to ground. Upon touching, goes “boink” and becomes a harmless little snowflake. (7 minutes)
Complete? Yes
Q1: No response (can't communicate, is inanimate and harmless). Sensed a yes.
Q2-4: Same as above. Q5: Remember, they are but fragile snow flakes! All of them! Assignments: Remember.
6/17/09-Hd2-L2-5G(d,m,d,m)
Visual: A ferris wheel
Feeling: A little uneasiness, is this safe? Could these come off? (I mainly get on because everyone else is – largely how I view / viewed life, which after the first few rounds gets boring. No compelling attraction – slow and repetitive)
Intention: To enjoy the experience, but safely
Relation: Uneasiness with life, escape from that by sleeping . . . (possibly a reason I was so particular in making my bed when younger – held in high regard)
New Visual: A 5 inch blade knife with a good bulky handle, gleaming and glistening sharp.
Meaning: Nothing is inherently unsafe in life, but rather, your own actions determine how things play out . . . (A knife can safely be used for cutting veggies or it can be used to kill someone)
Transform? Yes
***Revelation: Many events in life can embed themselves in a holodyne, reinforcing it. The transformation process unravels these events and unpacks them, letting them express themselves on the way in order to allow new interpretation and expression at the holodynamic level. These are largely what you “see” or are symbolic of these events and impressions – thus not necessarily consciously (or logically) understood, yet making the necessary subconscious impression (i. e. reprogramming).***
Result: Saw among many things cartoons of Tom and Jerry at “Grandma” Dawses house and Tweety and Silvester and Bugs and Fudd, more then I see myself listen to mom and dad then after sensing a small tension, run into my room and jump on my bed – MY bed and place of safety and comfort. It is soft and offers its leisureness. There are monsters under it. Maybe I should sleep till mom and dad are awake to ensure protection. I don't want to get out of bed with them under there. I love sleep, I can escape to a world of my own making. Maybe I will go to Disney Land! Maybe I will see Mickey Mouse! I don't like school. The sooner I wake up, the sooner I have to think about going! I'd rather sleep all day. (why don't I like school? I sit all day at a desk indoors, surrounded by kids that I don't really like and that don't really like me, studying subjects that to me are largely worthless and irrelevant. I'm not free, I'm a prisoner. My own choices and wishes are not respected. I'm considered an inferior to adults who tell me what do to, even though my ability to observe and sense the nature of reality is equal to theirs.) Again, visions of me on my bed dreaming from childhood even day-dreaming. My place to escape to imagination. My place to create the world I wanted. Pictures of being pulled under water and held under (water park?), riding a bike to escape danger, a giant (like Jack and the Bean Stalk) chasing and trying to squash me, then they turn, and after getting punched I become a kind of Rambo (though not killing, then saw mouse (Jerry) who is invincible, pictures of someone marching up plank of ship (from Greece?), somebody throws stuff over board, goes and sleeps, has visions of beautiful country (Greece?). G. afraid of dad, can't be bothered when asleep (pretends), more, more . . . . . . . Knife after being violently thrown into ground (multiple times) ends up finally tucked into a drawer beside a bed, safely enclosed, but not out of reach. (1 Hr. 50 Minutes!!!!!)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Don't be afraid to live – you determine the outcome!
Revelation: Better to transform immature holodynes that are creating problems then dwell on mature ones that counteract them. The former is a one time process, whereas the latter is eternal!
6/17/09-Hd3-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A sewing machine (running and threading clothing)
Perspective: A negative view, industries, but dangerous
Intent: Safety, non-attachment to danger
Significance: A world view – the world might get a lot done, but it is still dangerous. Better to not take par and retreat to something unproductive, but safe (sleep).
New Visual: A starfish
Significance: A starfish rests safely, but within that safe resting place still performs all the necessary activities.
Transform? Yes
Result: Many things . . . beavers being shot by loggers, Bill Cosby conversion with Claire about marriage (he didn't want to) and finally a star fish! (5 min)
Q1: Yes. Q2: (a) Old situation – Remind in mornings that I can be safe in my own little world and be productive – waking up to the world of my making. (b) Become one? - “What does that mean?” That you give me your perspective and remind me that I can be both safe and productive. I let go of “danger” as a reason for not awakening early. I let the image of you rest in my subconscious. I let go of the idea of resting occurring only during sleep to something that includes an attitude that pervades the whole life – night and day. Q3,4: Yes. Q5: Work and rest are one!
6/18/09-Hd4-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A dump truck tilts its bed, unloading a big load of gravel
Intention: Releasing a burden
Relation: Using sleep as a means of dumping and forgetting cares, concerns, worries, problems – a release.
New Visual: A fisherman is lazily out fishing and gets a catch. He reels it in and takes a look – not the fish he's trying to catch. He tosses it out and tries again.
Meaning: You don't have to carry any burden you don't want to. Pick the ones you want and consciously toss the rest back. You are in control.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Many stages finally resulting in solitary fisher, catching some, tossing others back. Laid back on the grass with a straw hat and a straw in his mouth, waiting for the line to show something. Says “hey partner, this is the easy life!” (8 min)
Q1: Course man! You betcha! Q2: Yes. Q3: Does it involve work? :) You just come look at me and you'll know the answer! Sure. Q4: Oh yeah! No more stressin! You just toss back what you don't want! Q5: What you worrin' about? Toss those worries right back upon the person that gave them to ya!
Assignment: Any time you have a problem, I don't want you going to sleep till you've “tossed it back”!
6/18/09-Hd5-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A steamship billowing along
Intent: Service, carry passengers, but with effort
Understanding? Service is important, but takes great effort. Take a break every once in a while – you deserve it! (a little nap will recharge you for the duties ahead!)
New Visual: A race car, hitting pit stops just long enough to get the critical needs met, but not wanting to waste a second more, lest in the process, it not achieve its ultimate goal.
Transform? Yes
Result: Did so very quickly (10 seconds)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: “Not really – You know what you need to do . . .” Assignments: “Hop on the car and watch me ride!!”
6/18/09-Hd6-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A grasshopper (not moving)
Intention: Contentedness (yet a bit lazy)
New Visual: A wood-pecker
Significance: Very peaceful and content, no worries or cares, yet working non-stop all the while . . . Peck peck . . . peck peck peck peck
Transform? “Do you think I can?” Yes just be willing. Transformed.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Be productive – it will give you contentment!
Assignment: Go to the store, be productive and remember me along the way!
Realization: If I could be content while working (like the wood-pecker) maybe I'd be willing to work more!
6/18/09-Hd5-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A rubber duck, floating and bobbing in water
Intent: Peace, restfulness, easygoingness
Relation: Go with the flow, wherever your feeling take you (the water). Let your feeling guide life.
Problem: Feelings are often determined by circumstances which are the result of our actions, therefore, action can determine feelings. If we want right feelings we must act objectively apart from them – otherwise, we could act wrong, resulting in bad feelings, which are worse then the “good” feeling we initially based our decision on.
New Visual: A cowboy riding a horse. He's in the middle of a gun fight. As he rides and shoots, his hat falls off. His favorite hat. Oh how he loves that hat. He jumps off to get it and as he does, his horse runs away. Gone forever. He would have felt terrible to lose that hat but not as terrible as he now feels about losing his horse! Now he has to fight without it! But he's learned a valuable lesson! (WARNING Hd)
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Remember what's most important (and it's not always your present feelings) and you will feel the best overall that you possibly can!
6/18/09-Hd8-L2-3G(d,m)
Visual: A US flag is playing with fire (a flame). It jumps over it once, untouched, but the second time catches fire and is partly (25%) burned.
Understanding: The majority of people take unnecessary and dangerous risks. They may get away with them sometimes, but not always. Better to play it safe.
Relation to sleep: Anytime you are awake, your risk factor goes up. Living is a risk. Minimize it by sleeping.
New Visual: A parrot. It flies a little, then rests, flies a little, then rests again, always on the lookout, but enjoying itself all the while.
Significance: Most danger is avoidable if one pays attention, and the pleasure to be gained is worth the minuscule risk (and effort).
Transform? Yes. Complete.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Go on, go on, go on . . .
7/23/09 - Update: Immediately after this tracking, I found myself needing only six hours of sleep (as opposed to the usual 9-10). The affect seemed to fade somewhat, however, with time. I'm not sure if it simply wasn't integrated thoroughly or other factors have come to play as I am surrounded by other people's circadian rhythms which could be affecting me. I still need substantially less sleep then I used to need (1-2 hours less). I suspect there are multiple factors at play here. I will post as new insight and information comes.
Seeing Most People as Inherently Evil
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Seeing most people as inherently evil, thus creating a wall between me and them before I even meet or know them (and possibly fueling ego).
6/13/09-Hd1-L3-1G
I'm including another foil for reference sake:
Misguided Visual: A school bus full of noisy, boisterous obnoxious kids. It stops and the stop sign comes out with the red blinking lights. Some kids get off.
Again, not only did the above not seem to fit the situation (or only partially fit), but there was a distinct absence of positive feelings.
Genuine Visual: A black helicopter
Intention: To seek and destroy evil
Why? It wants a universe that has no evil – that is perfect – all is love. It must assume it is everywhere – until proven otherwise, lest any escape.
New Visual: A big, bright, beautiful, vivid, full spectrum rainbow
Meaning: Just as gloomy rain provides a medium for light to manifest its brilliance, so the darkness of "sin" provides a medium for the beauty of love to make itself vividly manifest. (e. g. the cross of Christ – one of the both darkest and brightest moments in history).
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Became rocket spewing rainbow exhaust out its tail and whizzing around the universe, then a circular saw blade spitting a rainbow off its edges, then a floating glass ball, then a moon, then a predatory rainbow fish, then a wolf, squirrel, tornado, hot air balloon (which sprinkled out rainbow dust, then became rainbow colors, then became a rainbow with a bouncing castle in front of it, then a rainbow with musical notes bouncing in front of it, then finally a solid piece rainbow with cloud on either end and very distinct solid coloring. (5 minutes)
Complete? Yes
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situations - “Darkness is an opportunity for light to shine through.” Yes. Q3,4: Yes (a little hesitance on “every day” until I visualized my days in the future and it helping me). Q5: The world is full of dark clouds and rain. Stop calling it evil. Call it an opportunity for light to make manifest its brilliance.
Issue: Seeing most people as inherently evil, thus creating a wall between me and them before I even meet or know them (and possibly fueling ego).
6/13/09-Hd1-L3-1G
I'm including another foil for reference sake:
Misguided Visual: A school bus full of noisy, boisterous obnoxious kids. It stops and the stop sign comes out with the red blinking lights. Some kids get off.
Again, not only did the above not seem to fit the situation (or only partially fit), but there was a distinct absence of positive feelings.
Genuine Visual: A black helicopter
Intention: To seek and destroy evil
Why? It wants a universe that has no evil – that is perfect – all is love. It must assume it is everywhere – until proven otherwise, lest any escape.
New Visual: A big, bright, beautiful, vivid, full spectrum rainbow
Meaning: Just as gloomy rain provides a medium for light to manifest its brilliance, so the darkness of "sin" provides a medium for the beauty of love to make itself vividly manifest. (e. g. the cross of Christ – one of the both darkest and brightest moments in history).
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Became rocket spewing rainbow exhaust out its tail and whizzing around the universe, then a circular saw blade spitting a rainbow off its edges, then a floating glass ball, then a moon, then a predatory rainbow fish, then a wolf, squirrel, tornado, hot air balloon (which sprinkled out rainbow dust, then became rainbow colors, then became a rainbow with a bouncing castle in front of it, then a rainbow with musical notes bouncing in front of it, then finally a solid piece rainbow with cloud on either end and very distinct solid coloring. (5 minutes)
Complete? Yes
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situations - “Darkness is an opportunity for light to shine through.” Yes. Q3,4: Yes (a little hesitance on “every day” until I visualized my days in the future and it helping me). Q5: The world is full of dark clouds and rain. Stop calling it evil. Call it an opportunity for light to make manifest its brilliance.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Fear of Giving Love
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Fear of giving love or showing love to people for fear of spending energy and effort on something that won't come back or be returned by them. I might run out! (1 Hd)
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-1G
I've noticed that while usually the images pop up quickly and make sense readily, there are times on occasion where the images just don't seem to fit the situation no matter how long I spend trying to see how they could. There is a distinct difference in how these act, however. First of all, they often feel forced, as if being pushed on me from the the outside, rather than me simply “seeing what is” on the inside. There is also a lack of positive feelings, and sometimes my ego may be involved. The images usually are simple images, with no movement, or little movement. I call these a “foil” and usually catch them immediately. The following one I didn't catch however until several minutes afterward. I have come to understand these as originating with unseen entities and beings that are seeking to thwart the process. I include this, along with my attempted explanation as an example of a foil. It is quite apparent that it doesn't fit the issue, particularly when compared with the genuine.
Misguided Visual: A person standing on a ladder. They slowly (after a long time) take a step up on run, then they go back down a rung.
Relation to issue: The person is afraid, they don't want to go to the top, nor do they want to go back down. They are paralyzed and useless (interestingly, how I felt while trying to conduct). In order for love to “move” there is some risk, going up and down the ladder.
6/13/09
Genuine Visual: A cloud in the sky – a rain cloud that is afraid to give off water, lest it run out and not get recharged. Maybe it should save its water for a really dry location and not expend it on a place that is already wet . . . how does it know? In limbo . . .
Intention: Conservation, adequate supply, self-preservation, maximum usage and appreciation, maximum effectiveness, sustainability.
New Visual: A heart beating different color/shades of red
Meaning: A heart both pumps and sucks an infinite supply of blood – it can never run out. Also, just like the body, the universe is a closed system, so nothing can ever be lost or “wasted”. It will always come back around eventually (though i may travel many miles and take possibly millennia to do so). Giving creates a vacancy for receiving that will always be filled.
Willing to transform? Yes. Result: Transformed.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: (a) Dwell on me. (b) When you meet people it is a question of how you can show them love, not if you will show them love.
Issue: Fear of giving love or showing love to people for fear of spending energy and effort on something that won't come back or be returned by them. I might run out! (1 Hd)
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-1G
I've noticed that while usually the images pop up quickly and make sense readily, there are times on occasion where the images just don't seem to fit the situation no matter how long I spend trying to see how they could. There is a distinct difference in how these act, however. First of all, they often feel forced, as if being pushed on me from the the outside, rather than me simply “seeing what is” on the inside. There is also a lack of positive feelings, and sometimes my ego may be involved. The images usually are simple images, with no movement, or little movement. I call these a “foil” and usually catch them immediately. The following one I didn't catch however until several minutes afterward. I have come to understand these as originating with unseen entities and beings that are seeking to thwart the process. I include this, along with my attempted explanation as an example of a foil. It is quite apparent that it doesn't fit the issue, particularly when compared with the genuine.
Misguided Visual: A person standing on a ladder. They slowly (after a long time) take a step up on run, then they go back down a rung.
Relation to issue: The person is afraid, they don't want to go to the top, nor do they want to go back down. They are paralyzed and useless (interestingly, how I felt while trying to conduct). In order for love to “move” there is some risk, going up and down the ladder.
6/13/09
Genuine Visual: A cloud in the sky – a rain cloud that is afraid to give off water, lest it run out and not get recharged. Maybe it should save its water for a really dry location and not expend it on a place that is already wet . . . how does it know? In limbo . . .
Intention: Conservation, adequate supply, self-preservation, maximum usage and appreciation, maximum effectiveness, sustainability.
New Visual: A heart beating different color/shades of red
Meaning: A heart both pumps and sucks an infinite supply of blood – it can never run out. Also, just like the body, the universe is a closed system, so nothing can ever be lost or “wasted”. It will always come back around eventually (though i may travel many miles and take possibly millennia to do so). Giving creates a vacancy for receiving that will always be filled.
Willing to transform? Yes. Result: Transformed.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: (a) Dwell on me. (b) When you meet people it is a question of how you can show them love, not if you will show them love.
Fear of Others Judgment
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Fear of others judgment (maybe due to personal judgmentalism), resulting in a defensive attitude upon meeting rather then an offensive love)
6/12/09-Hd-L3-1G
Graphic: A frowning, upset, angry Buddha
Intent: To inform of sin / wrong-doing
New Visual: A sad clown
Meaning: It's OK to feel sorrow for others actions, but over-identification with them i sboth out of place for you and not fitting with you you are, You're nature is the same, you will always be a clown! (and who is a clown to judge)(and does a clown fear judgment?) Voluntarily become the biggest food possible and people's insults will be weightless. Try to maintain a “God” status and you will have much defending to do. God has no ego to keep Him from playing a clown or a fool. In fact people love and listen to a clown more than a self-proclaimed prophet.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: It did and the clown turned out to be sorrowing over a flower which was perky but then wilted. A deep sense of concern and sorrow, as if it itself were suffering and dying. A tear welled up in its eye and dropped to the ground. Then it snapped out of it and began putting on its funny show.
Complete? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Go be a fool!
Issue: Fear of others judgment (maybe due to personal judgmentalism), resulting in a defensive attitude upon meeting rather then an offensive love)
6/12/09-Hd-L3-1G
Graphic: A frowning, upset, angry Buddha
Intent: To inform of sin / wrong-doing
New Visual: A sad clown
Meaning: It's OK to feel sorrow for others actions, but over-identification with them i sboth out of place for you and not fitting with you you are, You're nature is the same, you will always be a clown! (and who is a clown to judge)(and does a clown fear judgment?) Voluntarily become the biggest food possible and people's insults will be weightless. Try to maintain a “God” status and you will have much defending to do. God has no ego to keep Him from playing a clown or a fool. In fact people love and listen to a clown more than a self-proclaimed prophet.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: It did and the clown turned out to be sorrowing over a flower which was perky but then wilted. A deep sense of concern and sorrow, as if it itself were suffering and dying. A tear welled up in its eye and dropped to the ground. Then it snapped out of it and began putting on its funny show.
Complete? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Go be a fool!
Nagative View of Others
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Seeing other people as objects of destruction rather then immature beings of light
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A stone face with a see through sword overlaying it.
Intention: Recognize sin / destructiveness, recognize the fallen nature of humanity, maintain high standards of how one “should be”.
So then, the real blockage is letting other people be “standard bearers” i. e. wanting to depend on them as the standard of right/wrong, thinking of them as the “law” (as symbolized by the stone).
New Visual: And early bicycle (the ones with a huge front wheel that you sat up high on), a man gets on rides it, then hits a bump and topples off.
Meaning: Humanity is evolving (like the bike) and is currently not in its most effective state. In fact, it is somewhat dangerous in this state. Nevertheless, this intermediary stage is necessary to reach an effective and safer state, which in the end is better then no process (the mature bike is an improvement on walking, though the first one invented (immature) may not have been).
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Give 'em a break
Issue: Seeing other people as objects of destruction rather then immature beings of light
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A stone face with a see through sword overlaying it.
Intention: Recognize sin / destructiveness, recognize the fallen nature of humanity, maintain high standards of how one “should be”.
So then, the real blockage is letting other people be “standard bearers” i. e. wanting to depend on them as the standard of right/wrong, thinking of them as the “law” (as symbolized by the stone).
New Visual: And early bicycle (the ones with a huge front wheel that you sat up high on), a man gets on rides it, then hits a bump and topples off.
Meaning: Humanity is evolving (like the bike) and is currently not in its most effective state. In fact, it is somewhat dangerous in this state. Nevertheless, this intermediary stage is necessary to reach an effective and safer state, which in the end is better then no process (the mature bike is an improvement on walking, though the first one invented (immature) may not have been).
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Give 'em a break
Fear of Death
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Fear of death (1 Hd)
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-5G (m,m,m,m)
Visual: A skeleton key opens an iron gate, which swings open to reveal utter blackness and darkness (symbolizing the “other side”). A voice says “enter”. I approach with hesitancy and fear / apprehensiveness.
Intention: Self-existence, preservation
New Visual: A jack-o-lantern smiling with a light inside, which shines out. The light is supernatural and eternal.
Meaning: Though the pumpkin rot or get smashed, this is immaterial as the important part is preserved and indestructible. A new pumpkin can always be carved, though the light is always the same and the pumpkin is for the benefit of those looking from the outside, not for the benefit of the light. It is fun, but not necessary.
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Don't forget, YOU are the light in the pumpkin!
Issue: Fear of death (1 Hd)
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-5G (m,m,m,m)
Visual: A skeleton key opens an iron gate, which swings open to reveal utter blackness and darkness (symbolizing the “other side”). A voice says “enter”. I approach with hesitancy and fear / apprehensiveness.
Intention: Self-existence, preservation
New Visual: A jack-o-lantern smiling with a light inside, which shines out. The light is supernatural and eternal.
Meaning: Though the pumpkin rot or get smashed, this is immaterial as the important part is preserved and indestructible. A new pumpkin can always be carved, though the light is always the same and the pumpkin is for the benefit of those looking from the outside, not for the benefit of the light. It is fun, but not necessary.
Willing to transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Don't forget, YOU are the light in the pumpkin!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Paranoia
This one I found quite interesting. I decided to do this for this person because they were stalking / monitoring me and I thought it might resolve the problem. As you read on, you will see why I was hesitant to continue the adjustment. In the end I decided that I wanted to do what was best for them, based on the idea that what helps one helps all.
Name: Cornville Resident (proxy)
Issue: Paranoia (28 Hd's) <----!!
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: One eye (with huge lashes) is always open and is bloodshot and has bags under it and is puffy and tired and miserable looking, but it must always stay open to “keep watch,” while the other eye is normal and looks fine, and sleeps and rests part time while functioning normal the rest of the time.
Intent: To protect, safety
New Visual: A tiger (which sleeps but no on wants to awaken – rather then a passive fear, it is aggressive toward threats such that the threats disappear)
Willing to transform? Yes (thanked it for efforts and let it know this was an upgrade)
Result: Eyes became tiger eyes, though one remained tired and blackened. It hopped around a bit, then leaped, then growled, then chased a bunch of animals off which fled, then lay down peacefully and closed its eyes, the dark one now healed and normal.
When I realized that there were 28 holodynes involved, I gave up the notion of this fixing the situation, but if this person had actually listened to the new holodyne, he would have come and addressed me specifically and realized that I was no threat to him rather then hiding in the shadows and watching me.
Name: Cornville Resident (proxy)
Issue: Paranoia (28 Hd's) <----!!
6/12/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: One eye (with huge lashes) is always open and is bloodshot and has bags under it and is puffy and tired and miserable looking, but it must always stay open to “keep watch,” while the other eye is normal and looks fine, and sleeps and rests part time while functioning normal the rest of the time.
Intent: To protect, safety
New Visual: A tiger (which sleeps but no on wants to awaken – rather then a passive fear, it is aggressive toward threats such that the threats disappear)
Willing to transform? Yes (thanked it for efforts and let it know this was an upgrade)
Result: Eyes became tiger eyes, though one remained tired and blackened. It hopped around a bit, then leaped, then growled, then chased a bunch of animals off which fled, then lay down peacefully and closed its eyes, the dark one now healed and normal.
When I realized that there were 28 holodynes involved, I gave up the notion of this fixing the situation, but if this person had actually listened to the new holodyne, he would have come and addressed me specifically and realized that I was no threat to him rather then hiding in the shadows and watching me.
Hot Flashes
Name: P.V. (proxy)
Issue: Hot flashes (5 Hd's)
6/11/09-Hd1-L4-1G
Visual: A wagon wheel, which is alone and still, standing then it rolls around as if searching and falls over and just lays there.
Intention: Needs cause and purpose, searching for one, needs connected to something else (like a wagon) to be able to serve. Can't find, gives up and falls over alone. No reason to exist. Useless.
Relation to issue: A way of getting attention, letting people know she exists, like a flashing sign outside a business.
New Visual: A donkey – can serve if it is needed, but is also happy to run around wild by itself and just enjoy life, if it isn't. It can have tremendous fun all be itself.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Went through 25 minutes of transformations (with music*), mostly very rapid, trains, stage shows, animals, cartoon-type characters, show biz type stuff, some violence, all very showy, ending finally with a donkey. The donkey was very quite and tame, willing to help and serve humbly. When it was told it was not needed for a while, it sauntered off, nibbled some grass and went out of sight. Then it slapped its ass with its tale, wiggled its butt and started dancing. It was free!
* A first for me
Issue: Hot flashes (5 Hd's)
6/11/09-Hd1-L4-1G
Visual: A wagon wheel, which is alone and still, standing then it rolls around as if searching and falls over and just lays there.
Intention: Needs cause and purpose, searching for one, needs connected to something else (like a wagon) to be able to serve. Can't find, gives up and falls over alone. No reason to exist. Useless.
Relation to issue: A way of getting attention, letting people know she exists, like a flashing sign outside a business.
New Visual: A donkey – can serve if it is needed, but is also happy to run around wild by itself and just enjoy life, if it isn't. It can have tremendous fun all be itself.
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Went through 25 minutes of transformations (with music*), mostly very rapid, trains, stage shows, animals, cartoon-type characters, show biz type stuff, some violence, all very showy, ending finally with a donkey. The donkey was very quite and tame, willing to help and serve humbly. When it was told it was not needed for a while, it sauntered off, nibbled some grass and went out of sight. Then it slapped its ass with its tale, wiggled its butt and started dancing. It was free!
* A first for me
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Heart Pain
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Pain in heart (throbbing dull/sharp at times)(6 Hd's)
6/10/09-Hd1-L2-1G
Visual: Dear with antlers
Intent: Wanting to live in peace, but slight annoying underlying fear, could die at any moment (hunter, mountain lion, etc).
New Visual: Penguin – peaceful, but carefree (think Happy Feet!)
Transform? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Have fun!
Note: This was an experiment I did, asking outside help (God/Angels) not to help just so I could compare and see if I could do it on my own and just how much they were helping. It turns out I can somewhat do a tracking and adjusting on my own, but it took substantially more time, effort, and I didn't feel as immense of a shift afterward, nor did the visuals come across as strong and clear. I would say they were doing at least 80% of the work in the preceding adjustments. The image that came to mind representing this was me pushing a car and trying to steer by myself as compared with 4-5 other people helping – it can be done, but is tough and impossible if you come to an uphill slope. Yet even with their help, I am still the driver and guiding the process . . . though they may assist even with that (like power-steering).
My guess is that God is doing around 60%, the angels 17%, other benevolent beings about 3% and me about 20%. I always like to welcome their assistance, thank them for it, and recognize throughout the process and in the recording their contribution. On virtually every occasion that I've worked with other people, they didn't see any picture, just color, until I reminded them that there was outside help available, and that maybe they should invite it.
Hd2-L3-1G
Visual: A metal chain
Intention: Strength
Action: The chain is under tremendous tension, not snapping, but feeling as though it could at any given moment.
What is causing the pressure? People, it is like a tug-of-war.
How does it relate? Wanting to please everybody, yet unable, creating a strain in the heart.
New Visual: An umbrella. It is raining but just bouncing off. People's opinions really don't affect me.
Transform: Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Don't listen to anything that you don't want to hear (i. e. you don't have to). You don't have to consider an invalid opinion valid just to be polite. Let invalid views and opinions bounce off you like water off an umbrella.
Hd3-L3-1G
Visual: A giraffe
Intention: To live happy and undisturbed.
Action: Poachers are chasing it and it has nowhere to hide.
New Visual: A zebra, camouflaged so no one can see it. It does as it pleases and poachers are driving all around it but don't notice it. It lazes in the tall grasses, nibbling here and there.
Transform? Yes, but on one condition: “I must be guaranteed I won't die” (be shot by hunters, etc). OK guaranteed. “By whom?” God. “OK.” The zebra is eternal.
Result: Transforms. Decides to test and yells to hunters, they shoot bullets which he never feels or notices. “It must be true!”
Complete? No. “Can I kill myself?” Not your true self only your false self.
Complete? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: No.
Hd4-L3-1G
Visual: Race car with huge back wheels
Intention: Speed, movement
Why? That is its task, to fulfill its duty, meet goal
How does this relate to issue? It is always having to stop to do things and slamming on brakes because it passes them by it is going so fast. Much tension always breaking, can't ever get going or build momentum.
What is it stopping for? To pick people up
Why? They need a ride
Is that part of its duty? Yes
New Visual: An airplane – it only takes people from A to B, no stopping along the way. If they can't get to the airport, tough luck. This may seem unfair, but it's not fair to waste other passengers' time with inordinate stops.
Key point: Focus on providing the passenger you have with the best flight possible and you won't have to look for passengers, they will come to you.
Willing to transform? Yes, but doesn't think it can . . . too expensive, no resources, etc.
The resources will come, all it has to do is be willing. “Yes, on one condition: I can go back to the car if I don't like the airplane.”
Why would you? You get everything you want and better – top speed and maximum passengers.
“OK”
Complete? Yes
Q10-14: Yes. Q15: Love me
3/25/09-Hd5-L3-1G
Visual: A hot air balloon
Action: Low on fuel, just barely staying above ground being pushed by wind, just missing trees.
Relation? Barely able to survive financially. Always a little tension, apprehension, “What if I hit a down draft? How long will fuel last? When it runs out will we crash?”
Positive Intent: Survival, economy, selflessness, (doesn't want to be greedy and take more fuel then it needs), trust
New Visual: A beach ball (big, blow-up, multicolor)
Significance: Don't worry, go with the flow, no matter where you bounce, you'll be alright (this ball is puncture proof). Just enjoy the ride, wherever it takes you. A beach ball can't worry nor does it need to. It exists to serve.
Transform? Yes, but on one condition. That God will take care of me. “God will you watch over the beach ball, no matter where it goes, and guide it and take care of it as your own beach ball forever?” “Of course my son!” “OK”
Result: Transformed into a happy carefree beach ball.
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: Trust, don't forget purpose – service.
3/25/09-Hd6-L3-1G
Visual: A cross with a shadow (I can sense personal involvement – cruelty toward me)
Meaning: I am a victim of others' cruelty
Positive intention: Non-violence, “turn the other cheek,” compassion, selflessness, peace
New Visual: A monster truck, other people are the cars that get crushed. Very loud motor. HUGE! It pounces cars to pieces. (actually that is what it could do, that doesn't mean that it does - “I could call a thousand angels to defend me” - Jesus).
Willing to transform? Some thoughts:
Yes, willing to transform.
Result: Became two swirling tornadoes, then a tank reflecting bullets and exploding objects around it. (takes 15 minutes – found a way to speed up- flash images of what it is supposed to be and remind it – evidently it can forget and lose sight of). Becomes monster truck – all the cars start running from it, and it starts chasing them like a lion after a herd of dear.
Complete? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Hesitant on 3, then I said “I am inviting you to, will you?” and it said yes. Q5: Watch Gladiator – You are the Gladiator! Don't forget it.
Update: As of 7/9 I still feel a very faint pain in the heart, but it has been so faint that I completely forgot about it. The last time I remember consciously feeling it was a week ago. So it's basically been disappearing, little by little since the adjustment (at which time it was very sharp). I'm guessing in another week or two it will be completely unnoticeable.
You will notice that in this photo taken 7/3 there is still a substantial marking on my tongue in the heart section, so the problem is far from resolved, but the fact that the pain is disappearing tells me it's on the mend. For more info on this, I'd highly recommend Walter Kacera's book "Ayurvedic Tongue Diagnosis" or you can see the chart here.
BTW, you can't see it very well, but the back of the tongue is completely clear of the gunk that used to hang out on it. OK, there is still a touch but over 85% is gone. A bit returns if I eat a bunch of food late at night, but it's nothing like the residual gunk that was there. This of course is the intestinal area. Check out my first two blog posts for more info.
Issue: Pain in heart (throbbing dull/sharp at times)(6 Hd's)
6/10/09-Hd1-L2-1G
Visual: Dear with antlers
Intent: Wanting to live in peace, but slight annoying underlying fear, could die at any moment (hunter, mountain lion, etc).
New Visual: Penguin – peaceful, but carefree (think Happy Feet!)
Transform? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Have fun!
Note: This was an experiment I did, asking outside help (God/Angels) not to help just so I could compare and see if I could do it on my own and just how much they were helping. It turns out I can somewhat do a tracking and adjusting on my own, but it took substantially more time, effort, and I didn't feel as immense of a shift afterward, nor did the visuals come across as strong and clear. I would say they were doing at least 80% of the work in the preceding adjustments. The image that came to mind representing this was me pushing a car and trying to steer by myself as compared with 4-5 other people helping – it can be done, but is tough and impossible if you come to an uphill slope. Yet even with their help, I am still the driver and guiding the process . . . though they may assist even with that (like power-steering).
My guess is that God is doing around 60%, the angels 17%, other benevolent beings about 3% and me about 20%. I always like to welcome their assistance, thank them for it, and recognize throughout the process and in the recording their contribution. On virtually every occasion that I've worked with other people, they didn't see any picture, just color, until I reminded them that there was outside help available, and that maybe they should invite it.
Hd2-L3-1G
Visual: A metal chain
Intention: Strength
Action: The chain is under tremendous tension, not snapping, but feeling as though it could at any given moment.
What is causing the pressure? People, it is like a tug-of-war.
How does it relate? Wanting to please everybody, yet unable, creating a strain in the heart.
New Visual: An umbrella. It is raining but just bouncing off. People's opinions really don't affect me.
Transform: Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Don't listen to anything that you don't want to hear (i. e. you don't have to). You don't have to consider an invalid opinion valid just to be polite. Let invalid views and opinions bounce off you like water off an umbrella.
Hd3-L3-1G
Visual: A giraffe
Intention: To live happy and undisturbed.
Action: Poachers are chasing it and it has nowhere to hide.
New Visual: A zebra, camouflaged so no one can see it. It does as it pleases and poachers are driving all around it but don't notice it. It lazes in the tall grasses, nibbling here and there.
Transform? Yes, but on one condition: “I must be guaranteed I won't die” (be shot by hunters, etc). OK guaranteed. “By whom?” God. “OK.” The zebra is eternal.
Result: Transforms. Decides to test and yells to hunters, they shoot bullets which he never feels or notices. “It must be true!”
Complete? No. “Can I kill myself?” Not your true self only your false self.
Complete? Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: No.
Hd4-L3-1G
Visual: Race car with huge back wheels
Intention: Speed, movement
Why? That is its task, to fulfill its duty, meet goal
How does this relate to issue? It is always having to stop to do things and slamming on brakes because it passes them by it is going so fast. Much tension always breaking, can't ever get going or build momentum.
What is it stopping for? To pick people up
Why? They need a ride
Is that part of its duty? Yes
New Visual: An airplane – it only takes people from A to B, no stopping along the way. If they can't get to the airport, tough luck. This may seem unfair, but it's not fair to waste other passengers' time with inordinate stops.
Key point: Focus on providing the passenger you have with the best flight possible and you won't have to look for passengers, they will come to you.
Willing to transform? Yes, but doesn't think it can . . . too expensive, no resources, etc.
The resources will come, all it has to do is be willing. “Yes, on one condition: I can go back to the car if I don't like the airplane.”
Why would you? You get everything you want and better – top speed and maximum passengers.
“OK”
Complete? Yes
Q10-14: Yes. Q15: Love me
3/25/09-Hd5-L3-1G
Visual: A hot air balloon
Action: Low on fuel, just barely staying above ground being pushed by wind, just missing trees.
Relation? Barely able to survive financially. Always a little tension, apprehension, “What if I hit a down draft? How long will fuel last? When it runs out will we crash?”
Positive Intent: Survival, economy, selflessness, (doesn't want to be greedy and take more fuel then it needs), trust
New Visual: A beach ball (big, blow-up, multicolor)
Significance: Don't worry, go with the flow, no matter where you bounce, you'll be alright (this ball is puncture proof). Just enjoy the ride, wherever it takes you. A beach ball can't worry nor does it need to. It exists to serve.
Transform? Yes, but on one condition. That God will take care of me. “God will you watch over the beach ball, no matter where it goes, and guide it and take care of it as your own beach ball forever?” “Of course my son!” “OK”
Result: Transformed into a happy carefree beach ball.
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: Trust, don't forget purpose – service.
3/25/09-Hd6-L3-1G
Visual: A cross with a shadow (I can sense personal involvement – cruelty toward me)
Meaning: I am a victim of others' cruelty
Positive intention: Non-violence, “turn the other cheek,” compassion, selflessness, peace
New Visual: A monster truck, other people are the cars that get crushed. Very loud motor. HUGE! It pounces cars to pieces. (actually that is what it could do, that doesn't mean that it does - “I could call a thousand angels to defend me” - Jesus).
Willing to transform? Some thoughts:
- Non-violence is sometimes not an option. There will be, it is just a question of upon you or upon them.
- Peace can be maintained in your heart if you do it in clear conscience.
- You should be willing to turn the other cheek, but there is a “time to kill”.
- You can have compassion even upon those whom you slaughter.
- Selflessness can still be exhibited if you execute out of justice and not self-dense or revenge.
Yes, willing to transform.
Result: Became two swirling tornadoes, then a tank reflecting bullets and exploding objects around it. (takes 15 minutes – found a way to speed up- flash images of what it is supposed to be and remind it – evidently it can forget and lose sight of). Becomes monster truck – all the cars start running from it, and it starts chasing them like a lion after a herd of dear.
Complete? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Hesitant on 3, then I said “I am inviting you to, will you?” and it said yes. Q5: Watch Gladiator – You are the Gladiator! Don't forget it.
Update: As of 7/9 I still feel a very faint pain in the heart, but it has been so faint that I completely forgot about it. The last time I remember consciously feeling it was a week ago. So it's basically been disappearing, little by little since the adjustment (at which time it was very sharp). I'm guessing in another week or two it will be completely unnoticeable.
You will notice that in this photo taken 7/3 there is still a substantial marking on my tongue in the heart section, so the problem is far from resolved, but the fact that the pain is disappearing tells me it's on the mend. For more info on this, I'd highly recommend Walter Kacera's book "Ayurvedic Tongue Diagnosis" or you can see the chart here.
BTW, you can't see it very well, but the back of the tongue is completely clear of the gunk that used to hang out on it. OK, there is still a touch but over 85% is gone. A bit returns if I eat a bunch of food late at night, but it's nothing like the residual gunk that was there. This of course is the intestinal area. Check out my first two blog posts for more info.
Beauty and Vulnerability
Name: J.V.
Issue: Being beautiful without being vulnerable (1 Hd)
6/9/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A white flower with black bugs crawling all over it and eating it
Intention: beauty, yet unable to rid unsightly bugs
New Visual: A pyramid, beautiful, but untouchable, even over the centuries. Strong, permanent. Not vulnerable.
Transform? Yes
Result: Became giant “bungee” type monster (made out of stone), which became pyramid.
Complete? Not quite. Something is lacking. Needs more then cold hard stone. What if the spirit of Aphrodite was to live in it? That would work. She does. Complete.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Remember I'm alive!
Issue: Being beautiful without being vulnerable (1 Hd)
6/9/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A white flower with black bugs crawling all over it and eating it
Intention: beauty, yet unable to rid unsightly bugs
New Visual: A pyramid, beautiful, but untouchable, even over the centuries. Strong, permanent. Not vulnerable.
Transform? Yes
Result: Became giant “bungee” type monster (made out of stone), which became pyramid.
Complete? Not quite. Something is lacking. Needs more then cold hard stone. What if the spirit of Aphrodite was to live in it? That would work. She does. Complete.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Remember I'm alive!
Creative Block
Name: Brian Wilson (proxy)
Issue: Creative block (8 Hd's)
6/9/09-Hd1-L5-1G
Visual: A skateboard (representing freedom and expression), not moving – He doesn't want to ride it because it is dangerous, ridden before and got hurt.
Positive intent: Freedom and expression without hurt or injury
New Visual: A surfboard (can't get hurt if falls off, just water)
Result: Took a little work for Brian to get back into his groove and have confidence, but it's coming.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Yes, if you crash don't worry, just get back on and try again. Eventually you'll get it! Q3,4: Yes. Q5: Have fun!!
Issue: Creative block (8 Hd's)
6/9/09-Hd1-L5-1G
Visual: A skateboard (representing freedom and expression), not moving – He doesn't want to ride it because it is dangerous, ridden before and got hurt.
Positive intent: Freedom and expression without hurt or injury
New Visual: A surfboard (can't get hurt if falls off, just water)
Result: Took a little work for Brian to get back into his groove and have confidence, but it's coming.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Yes, if you crash don't worry, just get back on and try again. Eventually you'll get it! Q3,4: Yes. Q5: Have fun!!
Relationship Trouble
Name: George Clooney (proxy)
Issue: Relationship trouble – letting other people validate / invalidate (4 Hd's)
6/8/09-Hd1-L4-2G(m)
Visual: Baseball smashing through a window
Intention: Being sensitive to others (but getting hurt in the process)
New Visual: George is ironing his own nice white shirt. Rather then letting others iron and being vulnerable to their “creases” or wrinkling – self–empowered. Still sensitive – can still be wrinkled or creased by others, but now has ability to fix – just iron's out again himself, no biggie.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: (forgot)
Issue: Relationship trouble – letting other people validate / invalidate (4 Hd's)
6/8/09-Hd1-L4-2G(m)
Visual: Baseball smashing through a window
Intention: Being sensitive to others (but getting hurt in the process)
New Visual: George is ironing his own nice white shirt. Rather then letting others iron and being vulnerable to their “creases” or wrinkling – self–empowered. Still sensitive – can still be wrinkled or creased by others, but now has ability to fix – just iron's out again himself, no biggie.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: (forgot)
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Note on Transforming Holodynes
For any one issue, there can be multiple holodynes associated. Some may be stronger then others, but until every related holodyne is transformed, the problem will not be completely solved. Sometimes we may address and transform the most powerful holodyne, but then repeatedly empower immature holodynes, rather then the muture one, thus we experience an initial improvement, followed by the problem being renewed. Thus, the effectiveness of holodynamics can only truly be measured by transforming ALL related holodynes. This may mean one, it may mean twenty five.
Tracking and Informing Holodynes: Consciously shifting consciousness
Tracking and Informing Holodynes: Consciously shifting consciousness
Stagnating Life
Name: J. W. (proxy)
Issue: Non-movement, stagnation (1 Hd)
6/8/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A rope with knots in it (intended for climbing)
Action: Rope goes infinitely high and no matter how high J. climbs, there is always more rope and he never reaches the top. He's continually working and climbing, but by all appearance, going no where. So he give up and decides to just make himself comfortable on one spot on the rope. Progress goes to infinity, so why bother trying? (as sat there, becomes lazy and fat and depressed).
Intention: Wants progress but also wants tangible results. Wants satisfaction with life.
New Visual: A roller-coaster – it's not the destination that matters, it's the ride that counts. (even if you just go in a circle!). Think of life as a circle – even though you don't go anywhere, it's irrelevant if you are enjoying it!
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Let's get movin'!
Update: On June 30, I was talking with J. and he said that about a month ago he felt like he has "woken up to life". I had completely forgotten I had done this tracking, then it clicked. I realized that the timing didn't coincide exactly, so enquired if he knew the date. He said he wasn't sure but that it could have been early June. I sent the above to him and here was his reply:
"Dude, that is freakin weird. I was in stagnation! And have totally
woken up to it. Wicked cool!!!
Thanks bro!"
Issue: Non-movement, stagnation (1 Hd)
6/8/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A rope with knots in it (intended for climbing)
Action: Rope goes infinitely high and no matter how high J. climbs, there is always more rope and he never reaches the top. He's continually working and climbing, but by all appearance, going no where. So he give up and decides to just make himself comfortable on one spot on the rope. Progress goes to infinity, so why bother trying? (as sat there, becomes lazy and fat and depressed).
Intention: Wants progress but also wants tangible results. Wants satisfaction with life.
New Visual: A roller-coaster – it's not the destination that matters, it's the ride that counts. (even if you just go in a circle!). Think of life as a circle – even though you don't go anywhere, it's irrelevant if you are enjoying it!
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Let's get movin'!
Update: On June 30, I was talking with J. and he said that about a month ago he felt like he has "woken up to life". I had completely forgotten I had done this tracking, then it clicked. I realized that the timing didn't coincide exactly, so enquired if he knew the date. He said he wasn't sure but that it could have been early June. I sent the above to him and here was his reply:
"Dude, that is freakin weird. I was in stagnation! And have totally
woken up to it. Wicked cool!!!
Thanks bro!"
Sexual Validation
WOW! Zero desire to even masturbate after this adjustment!
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Failure to recognize own divinity – seeking female validation (i. e. if a Goddess has sex with me, I must be God)
6/8/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A rubber stamp used to approve
Intention: Validation, approval, legitimization
New Visual: Rocket taking off (no one's opinion can change or affect it, it is powerful and it is what it is – it needs no approval)
Result: Stamp didn't want to transform, had to remind it what it really wanted was not validation, but to know it was divine. Rocket knows, so it's getting what it wants.
Transformed.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Yes – I am a rocket and a woman cannot change who and what I am. Q3-4: Yes. Q5: Remember me
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Failure to recognize own divinity – seeking female validation (i. e. if a Goddess has sex with me, I must be God)
6/8/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A rubber stamp used to approve
Intention: Validation, approval, legitimization
New Visual: Rocket taking off (no one's opinion can change or affect it, it is powerful and it is what it is – it needs no approval)
Result: Stamp didn't want to transform, had to remind it what it really wanted was not validation, but to know it was divine. Rocket knows, so it's getting what it wants.
Transformed.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Yes – I am a rocket and a woman cannot change who and what I am. Q3-4: Yes. Q5: Remember me
Scowl
I noticed the affect of this one immediately, and have had no deep permanent scowl since.
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Scowl (4 Hd's)
6/6/09
Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A golf club which is anticipating to swing, and aiming, and hoping and concerned (yet not actually hitting the ball)
Intention: To hit the ball perfectly
Why? It is concerned about what others think. It wants to be well thought of.
Why? It is insecure in its identity. It identifies itself largely with outside performance.
Why? It has forgotton its inward identity – True Self.
New Visual: An underwater missile cruising carelessly and peacefully through the water (it doesn't care where it goes, nothing will want to touch or disturb it, very powerful). Outwardly calm, inwardly potent. Perfect already!!
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Dwell on me for 1 hr.
Hd2-L3-1G
Visual: Blue hard plastic tennis racket / paddle
Action: Effort, trying, doing its best not to miss the ball, concerned about judgment, running hither and thither as though if it misses the world will fall apart. Tension and stress.
What does it want? Success
Why? To both be accepted and so it can feel good about itself – it has achieved something.
New Visual: A starfish (red)
About: It is content in itself, it just simply is, whether seen and admired by others or not, it will just be itself, beautiful and at peace. It is very happy with itself, with no desire or need to become something different. It need not go anywhere or do anything. Everything necessary comes to it.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: BE
Hd3-L3.5-1G
Visual: Baseball and bat
Intension: Respect, success
About: Tension, trying to hit ball, pressure – everyone watching, stress, as if salvation was dependent on it.
New Visual: Eel swimming through ocean peacefully and gracefully, no care or concern.
Transform? Yes
Action: Bat becomes aggressive and doesn't want to change, but surrounded with love and let it know that the eel possessed everything it wanted (us as respect – only it possessed it, it needn't need to prove it or earn it). Became eel, aggressive at first, but once it realized it didn't need to prove itself to anyone, simply being an eel was all anough, it was content and became peaceful.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation baseball batting – It steps to the plate and hits the ball based on who and what it is – it doesn't care what that is – it is there ony to express itself and the best of what who it is, the result is irrelevant. Who it is cannot be changed so why stress about it? If that ends up being a pop fly, a bunt, or a strike out, so be it. It will make the game more interesting, and that's what people care about, not a home run from every player every hit every game (i. e. boring).
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: I gotchyo back man
Hd4-L4-1G
Visual: Thunderstorm, electric storm, lightning
Meaning: Massive conflict, tension, upsetness, anger, stress, largely unseen energies colliding and conflicting.
Intention: To express itself, make itself known – doing so creates outward conflict, not doing so creates inward conflict.
Why does it want to express itself? For validation
More effective: self-validation (or God validation)
New Visual: A big plump juicy red tomato. HUUUGE
Transform? It is thundering that self recognition is not enough, it wants recognition from the world.
Why? “To confirm and affirm who I am”
So then you don't know who you are . . .
“I am intense, powerful, fair, just, responsible, peace-loving, intelligent, righteousness loving, sin hating, striver for excellence, achieving”
Willing to stand before God and base eternity on fact? “Yes”
Did so. God affirmed.
Tried to become tomato, entered, then exploded out (shattering tomato)
“God cannot limit Himself to a tomato!”
So then you want to express all those attributes as well?
“Yes”
Why? “Because I love them and want them to live. They are not alive if they do not express themselves.
Are these not eternal qualities? Can they die?
"Yes. No."
Then what does it matter? “People need to see them."
Should they be forced upon them? "No"
When should they see them? "When they want to and are ready"
Can you then be content to contain yourself till that time? (a true sign of strength and self-control) "Yes"
Then you are willing to become a tomato?
"Yes"
Result: Becomes tomato, lightening and storm sucks itself into it. Internal anxiety. Decides it would be happier to let go of thunder and lightening desires and just be a simple tomato. The biggest and best tasting ever.
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: I'm here for you, always
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Scowl (4 Hd's)
6/6/09
Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A golf club which is anticipating to swing, and aiming, and hoping and concerned (yet not actually hitting the ball)
Intention: To hit the ball perfectly
Why? It is concerned about what others think. It wants to be well thought of.
Why? It is insecure in its identity. It identifies itself largely with outside performance.
Why? It has forgotton its inward identity – True Self.
New Visual: An underwater missile cruising carelessly and peacefully through the water (it doesn't care where it goes, nothing will want to touch or disturb it, very powerful). Outwardly calm, inwardly potent. Perfect already!!
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Dwell on me for 1 hr.
Hd2-L3-1G
Visual: Blue hard plastic tennis racket / paddle
Action: Effort, trying, doing its best not to miss the ball, concerned about judgment, running hither and thither as though if it misses the world will fall apart. Tension and stress.
What does it want? Success
Why? To both be accepted and so it can feel good about itself – it has achieved something.
New Visual: A starfish (red)
About: It is content in itself, it just simply is, whether seen and admired by others or not, it will just be itself, beautiful and at peace. It is very happy with itself, with no desire or need to become something different. It need not go anywhere or do anything. Everything necessary comes to it.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: BE
Hd3-L3.5-1G
Visual: Baseball and bat
Intension: Respect, success
About: Tension, trying to hit ball, pressure – everyone watching, stress, as if salvation was dependent on it.
New Visual: Eel swimming through ocean peacefully and gracefully, no care or concern.
Transform? Yes
Action: Bat becomes aggressive and doesn't want to change, but surrounded with love and let it know that the eel possessed everything it wanted (us as respect – only it possessed it, it needn't need to prove it or earn it). Became eel, aggressive at first, but once it realized it didn't need to prove itself to anyone, simply being an eel was all anough, it was content and became peaceful.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation baseball batting – It steps to the plate and hits the ball based on who and what it is – it doesn't care what that is – it is there ony to express itself and the best of what who it is, the result is irrelevant. Who it is cannot be changed so why stress about it? If that ends up being a pop fly, a bunt, or a strike out, so be it. It will make the game more interesting, and that's what people care about, not a home run from every player every hit every game (i. e. boring).
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: I gotchyo back man
Hd4-L4-1G
Visual: Thunderstorm, electric storm, lightning
Meaning: Massive conflict, tension, upsetness, anger, stress, largely unseen energies colliding and conflicting.
Intention: To express itself, make itself known – doing so creates outward conflict, not doing so creates inward conflict.
Why does it want to express itself? For validation
More effective: self-validation (or God validation)
New Visual: A big plump juicy red tomato. HUUUGE
Transform? It is thundering that self recognition is not enough, it wants recognition from the world.
Why? “To confirm and affirm who I am”
So then you don't know who you are . . .
“I am intense, powerful, fair, just, responsible, peace-loving, intelligent, righteousness loving, sin hating, striver for excellence, achieving”
Willing to stand before God and base eternity on fact? “Yes”
Did so. God affirmed.
Tried to become tomato, entered, then exploded out (shattering tomato)
“God cannot limit Himself to a tomato!”
So then you want to express all those attributes as well?
“Yes”
Why? “Because I love them and want them to live. They are not alive if they do not express themselves.
Are these not eternal qualities? Can they die?
"Yes. No."
Then what does it matter? “People need to see them."
Should they be forced upon them? "No"
When should they see them? "When they want to and are ready"
Can you then be content to contain yourself till that time? (a true sign of strength and self-control) "Yes"
Then you are willing to become a tomato?
"Yes"
Result: Becomes tomato, lightening and storm sucks itself into it. Internal anxiety. Decides it would be happier to let go of thunder and lightening desires and just be a simple tomato. The biggest and best tasting ever.
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: I'm here for you, always
Easily Breaking Blood Vessels
Name: P. V. (proxy)
Issue: Easily broken blood vessels (3 Hd's)
6/4/09-L2-1G
Visual: Circular saw blade
Intention: To cut. What? Flesh. Why? To remove disease.
How does this relate to blood vessels breaking? The body doesn't wish to expend resourced to support healthy blood vessels to a body part that is diseased – it would rather pull the life support, cut off the resources. It would rather push away the problem then deal with it. So the ultimate intention is health? Yes.
New Visual: A caring doctor / healer (someone willing to examine/diagnose the disease and treat it with compassion – take responsibility)
Willing to transform? “Easier to just cut” - realize more pain and more damage though - “Yes”.
Result: Violent transformation, but became heart which entered doctor.
Q1-4: Yes, Q15: Love me
Issue: Easily broken blood vessels (3 Hd's)
6/4/09-L2-1G
Visual: Circular saw blade
Intention: To cut. What? Flesh. Why? To remove disease.
How does this relate to blood vessels breaking? The body doesn't wish to expend resourced to support healthy blood vessels to a body part that is diseased – it would rather pull the life support, cut off the resources. It would rather push away the problem then deal with it. So the ultimate intention is health? Yes.
New Visual: A caring doctor / healer (someone willing to examine/diagnose the disease and treat it with compassion – take responsibility)
Willing to transform? “Easier to just cut” - realize more pain and more damage though - “Yes”.
Result: Violent transformation, but became heart which entered doctor.
Q1-4: Yes, Q15: Love me
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Time Management
Name: D.V. (proxy)
Issue: Poor time management (1 Hd)
6/4/09-Hd1-L4-2G(m)
Visual: Soup ladle
Intention: To give each person a portion
Why? To be fair
But does everyone deserve to have the soup? No, there is only so much soup
How then should it be measured out? To those you are most important first, lest the bum on the street be filled while your mother goes hungry.
What kind of holodyne then is needed? One that prioritizes
New Visual: An escalator, moving things and sorting them at the same time – the most important are being moved up, while the lesser important are falling and rolling back down. A constant sorting is taking place.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1,2,4: Yes. Q3: “Don't know if it will help every day. I'm sure it will, but I might forget to utilize it.” Remember, you are asking it to be one with you and integrate so it will be working for you automatically. “Oh, OK. Yes.” Q5: I love you
Issue: Poor time management (1 Hd)
6/4/09-Hd1-L4-2G(m)
Visual: Soup ladle
Intention: To give each person a portion
Why? To be fair
But does everyone deserve to have the soup? No, there is only so much soup
How then should it be measured out? To those you are most important first, lest the bum on the street be filled while your mother goes hungry.
What kind of holodyne then is needed? One that prioritizes
New Visual: An escalator, moving things and sorting them at the same time – the most important are being moved up, while the lesser important are falling and rolling back down. A constant sorting is taking place.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1,2,4: Yes. Q3: “Don't know if it will help every day. I'm sure it will, but I might forget to utilize it.” Remember, you are asking it to be one with you and integrate so it will be working for you automatically. “Oh, OK. Yes.” Q5: I love you
Video Interview with Founder
I just came across this link the other day. An excellent overview and history of holodynamics:
http://www.consciousmedianetwork.com/members/vwoolf.htm
http://www.consciousmedianetwork.com/members/vwoolf.htm
Stess and Sickness
Name: C.G. (proxy)
Issue: Stress, resulting in sickness (5 Hd's)
6/4/09-L5-2G (m)
Visual: A ladybug
Intention: To simply be (peaceful and happy)
Why is there stress? Ladybug can't keep up with what is being demanded of it.
Understanding: One cannot “simply be” while involved in activity and while fulfilling duties.
New Visual: A person walking a tight rope
Meaning: Peace and stillness through movement – maintaining inner calm while under stress.
Willing to transform? Said yes readily, but in actuality had a hard time making the transition for fear that a gymnast couldn't maintain the qualities of a ladybug. Didn't believe possible for ladybug to became gymnast, but wanted to. Reminded that the only thing necessary was desire – not money, time or talent, just desire. That seemed to somewhat liberate the doubts. Needed to go through intermediate transition steps / stages to develop confidence. Eventually walked high tight rope effortlessly and fearlessly. Performed a seris of very difficult stunts as if second nature. (took 13 minutes)
Q1-4: A little prodding, but yes. Q5: Activate me!
Note: It was difficult for me to perform this tracking in that in order to appreciate (surround with field of love) the immature holodyne of a ladybug, one must have those qualities (which I am to some degree lacking), making clear that one can more quickly and easily perform a tracking for one whom they readily identify with. On the other hand, having worked through this, I did experience more personal growth than an “easy” one.
Issue: Stress, resulting in sickness (5 Hd's)
6/4/09-L5-2G (m)
Visual: A ladybug
Intention: To simply be (peaceful and happy)
Why is there stress? Ladybug can't keep up with what is being demanded of it.
Understanding: One cannot “simply be” while involved in activity and while fulfilling duties.
New Visual: A person walking a tight rope
Meaning: Peace and stillness through movement – maintaining inner calm while under stress.
Willing to transform? Said yes readily, but in actuality had a hard time making the transition for fear that a gymnast couldn't maintain the qualities of a ladybug. Didn't believe possible for ladybug to became gymnast, but wanted to. Reminded that the only thing necessary was desire – not money, time or talent, just desire. That seemed to somewhat liberate the doubts. Needed to go through intermediate transition steps / stages to develop confidence. Eventually walked high tight rope effortlessly and fearlessly. Performed a seris of very difficult stunts as if second nature. (took 13 minutes)
Q1-4: A little prodding, but yes. Q5: Activate me!
Note: It was difficult for me to perform this tracking in that in order to appreciate (surround with field of love) the immature holodyne of a ladybug, one must have those qualities (which I am to some degree lacking), making clear that one can more quickly and easily perform a tracking for one whom they readily identify with. On the other hand, having worked through this, I did experience more personal growth than an “easy” one.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Unsatisfying Romantic Life
Name: P.B. (proxy)
Issue: Unsatisfying romantic life, unrealistically high standards for marriage partner, unwillingness to commit to a good relationship always hoping for better, but never finding, surviving not thriving (35 Hds)
6/4/09-L4-1G
Visual: Wagon wheel (not moving)
Intent: To move, carry goods from on place to another, mission
Why? To serve
Who? Humanity
What is going on? P. needs to sense how his relationship with E. serves humanity, until he does, it won't move.
Understanding needed: P. needs to see how in serving E. and developing a good relationship with her, he is in fact serving humanity, in that as she becomes a better person, she will make the world a better place. His example will inspire her.
New Visual: A powerful king bowing before a powerless queen.
Willing to transform? Yes but what if queen doesn't appreciate gesture and turns around and cuts the kings head off?
Remember: POWERFUL king, powerless queen – the queen can do no harm to the king A) God would not permit it unless it was best for the king B) The king is an eternal being that cannot be killed C) Any suffering that is inflicted is chosen by the king as his act of service (much like Christ - “No man takes my life, I lay it down willingly”). Think of wife as the humanity you have come to serve.
Result: Wheel transformed through various stages to a frog with a chefs hat. Eventually it became a king in armor, wielding a sword which gave him great pleasure and a feeling of power, but he was reminded that he was here to serve, not be served, here to express his divine self, through providing the world with guidance and wisdom. His sword was to execute justice, not take vengeance. He was hesitant to bow before the queen, an act he considered humiliating. Then he was reminded that the queen represented the humanity he had come to serve. He bowed before the queen. The queen was delighted and gladly and joyfully became a loyal subject.
When asked if the transformation was complete: Not quite. As the king bowed, the queen decided to test the king and slapped the king. The king didn't so much much as flinch, but said, “I've come here to serve you” with a gleam of sparkle in the eye. The queen slapped the king again, still with the same response. The queen spit on the king. He couldn't have seemed to care less, but bowed with the same response and divine sparkle in the eye. This revealed more than anything that the king was truly divine. Earthly insults could not shake or rattle his cosmic existence.
Q1-4: Yes
Q5: Love me
Issue: Unsatisfying romantic life, unrealistically high standards for marriage partner, unwillingness to commit to a good relationship always hoping for better, but never finding, surviving not thriving (35 Hds)
6/4/09-L4-1G
Visual: Wagon wheel (not moving)
Intent: To move, carry goods from on place to another, mission
Why? To serve
Who? Humanity
What is going on? P. needs to sense how his relationship with E. serves humanity, until he does, it won't move.
Understanding needed: P. needs to see how in serving E. and developing a good relationship with her, he is in fact serving humanity, in that as she becomes a better person, she will make the world a better place. His example will inspire her.
New Visual: A powerful king bowing before a powerless queen.
Willing to transform? Yes but what if queen doesn't appreciate gesture and turns around and cuts the kings head off?
Remember: POWERFUL king, powerless queen – the queen can do no harm to the king A) God would not permit it unless it was best for the king B) The king is an eternal being that cannot be killed C) Any suffering that is inflicted is chosen by the king as his act of service (much like Christ - “No man takes my life, I lay it down willingly”). Think of wife as the humanity you have come to serve.
Result: Wheel transformed through various stages to a frog with a chefs hat. Eventually it became a king in armor, wielding a sword which gave him great pleasure and a feeling of power, but he was reminded that he was here to serve, not be served, here to express his divine self, through providing the world with guidance and wisdom. His sword was to execute justice, not take vengeance. He was hesitant to bow before the queen, an act he considered humiliating. Then he was reminded that the queen represented the humanity he had come to serve. He bowed before the queen. The queen was delighted and gladly and joyfully became a loyal subject.
When asked if the transformation was complete: Not quite. As the king bowed, the queen decided to test the king and slapped the king. The king didn't so much much as flinch, but said, “I've come here to serve you” with a gleam of sparkle in the eye. The queen slapped the king again, still with the same response. The queen spit on the king. He couldn't have seemed to care less, but bowed with the same response and divine sparkle in the eye. This revealed more than anything that the king was truly divine. Earthly insults could not shake or rattle his cosmic existence.
Q1-4: Yes
Q5: Love me
Foot Pain - Part 1
Name: P.V. (proxy)
Issue: Pain in lower arch of foot (4 Hd's)
6/3/09-Hd1-L4-1G
Visual: Fork
Intent: Protection
What is it doing? Creating physical pain to protect from feeling emotional pain
Why is there emotional pain? A different holodyne
Issue: Emotional Pain (12 Hd's)
Hd1-L6-2G (d)
Visual: Many shapes always changing form, largely orange.
Willing to take a single form? Yes
Single form: A HUGE single block of ice as big as a city lot (a crushing load)
Intent: To comprehend the magnitude of sin
Why? To overcome it
Intent then? Overcome sin
New Visual: A pool of water with someone effortlessly diving in it and sliding smoothly through (representing victory and mastery over it).
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Diver did triple front flip and landed smoothly and perfectly into water – much ease and comfort – perfect mastery.
Issue: Pain in lower arch of foot (4 Hd's)
6/3/09-Hd1-L4-1G
Visual: Fork
Intent: Protection
What is it doing? Creating physical pain to protect from feeling emotional pain
Why is there emotional pain? A different holodyne
Issue: Emotional Pain (12 Hd's)
Hd1-L6-2G (d)
Visual: Many shapes always changing form, largely orange.
Willing to take a single form? Yes
Single form: A HUGE single block of ice as big as a city lot (a crushing load)
Intent: To comprehend the magnitude of sin
Why? To overcome it
Intent then? Overcome sin
New Visual: A pool of water with someone effortlessly diving in it and sliding smoothly through (representing victory and mastery over it).
Willing to transform? Yes
Result: Diver did triple front flip and landed smoothly and perfectly into water – much ease and comfort – perfect mastery.