New Trackings

OK, so these aren't exactly "new" but I haven't published them yet, so here ya go! :)

This actually includes some "journal" notes:

August 27, 2009 9:00PM

I've stated in previous posts that our lives are governed or driven by holodynes. I've also stated that we each have a full potential self (FPS) that is seeking expression through our bodies and that immature holodynes can block this from happening. So the question is, why? And what is the relation between the two? Is the FPS limited by holodynes? Can it only work with in the framework of these? If we are governed by holodynes, where is the freedom of choice? Do we always listen to our holodynes?

The more I do this, the more clear it is becoming to me that the FPS is much more important and powerful then holodynes. The FPS is like the internet, while our holodynes are comparable to the software on our computer. If we have access to the internet – all the information – what purpose is there in our little batch of information? Well, because often times, we don't trust the information that comes to us – how do we know it isn't faulty or flawed? After all, it contradicts _____ (fill in the blank). You see, our full potential self is connected to all information and has precomputed every possible outcome and handed us the best option. Yet with our limited mind and understanding, this may not make sense. We trust our holodynes, because you've either accepted them from someone we trust, or created them ourselves, and had plenty of time to see their results in action. They make logical and emotional sense to us (even if they might be somewhat immature). Our FPS is another story. First of all, many of us haven't been listening to or taking advice from our FPS, so there is no track record to trust. Thus to fully connect with and live out our FPS either takes a great amount of faith, or a very long and gradual growing trust, based on the few times we don listen over many years. Alternatively, we can transform holodynes that block the FPS and in so doing bring our mind and emotions into harmony with it, such that what it says does make sense to us. This is a kind of middle route between the two. It does take time, but we can accelerate this through our own actions to transform them. And this can happen pretty quickly if we really want it to. But it's a lot of work.

So the point here is that ideally we all just have an immense amount of faith in our FPS and completely ignore our holodynes, completely ignore our mind, and completely ignore our feelings. And as we establish a strong relationship with our FPS, these will eventually come into alignment.

But while saying this is easy, doing so is like jumping off a bridge blindfolded, with not idea as to how you will land, only with a philosophical notion in your head that it will all work out for the best somehow.

Are you ready to do that?

Fortunately, we can take baby stops. Give yourself an amount of time, whether an hour, a minute, or a day and say, I am going to listen only to my FPS. No consulting holodynes, no consulting logic or feelings. I will for this time only listen to and live out my FPS. I will not calculate outcome – my FPS has already done so. I will simply LIVE out the dictates of my FPS.

See what happens. And enter a new level of existence.

(BTW – The strange thing is that we can live a mixture of FPS, holodynes, mind and emotion. One might think that because they sense a partial living out of the of the FPS that they are doing so fully. Likely not the case. If you catch yourself thinking, analyzing, feeling or in any other way seeking to determine actions before acting, this mean the FPS is not fully engaged. Now that doesn't mean these don't have a place, because they do, but they are to be servant to the FPS, not usurp it as master. On the other hand, just because you may not be conscious of thought or feeling that might drive action, this doesn't mean the FPS is fully engaged either. There must be an entire surrender – a non-will of the mind and emotions present. You must know that you are connected.
Also, don't mistake FPS for intuition. This is simply another (albeit superior) sense, like the mind an feeling. FPS is of entirely external origin (i. e. hyperspace). A better word for FPS would be inspiration.
And yes, it is possible for the holodynes to limit the FPS, just as it is possible for the body to limit eh mind (like not getting enough sleep or exercise, taking drugs, etc.) Therefore, while the FPS connection is primary, we must continue to work on all aspects of the being simultaneously (i. e. the body, mind, feeling, holodynes), starting at the top and working our way down until we hit a block, if we want to th fastest results. These can also serve as a means of keeping us connected to the FPS, thus not taking the place of aiding.)


UPDATE: (September 30, 2009 at 4:35pm)

I now refer to Holodynes as "place holders" for the FPS, much like the edges of a fort. As the edges are expanded out you can fit a larger army inside. As the holodynes become more mature, they create more space for the FPS to express itself freely and uninhibited.


Issue: Hydration (10 Hd's)

7/21/09-Hd6-L2.3-1G
Visual: An ice cube sits. It begins spinning. As is does so, it melts, the water spreading out and then evaporating. Nothing is left. This repeats.
Representing: Giving your all to something only to have the results evaporate.
Intent: Service, giving, activity, sacrifice, tangible results

New Visual: A duck quietly sits in a pond paddling gently. Something noisy comes along and the duck flies up over to a quite place, paddling gently again.
Meaning: Find an environment that works for you. If one place doesn't, go elsewhere.

Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1 min)

Q1: Yes. FP? Meaning? Whi I feel my efforts are evaporation you remind me and help me find a place that they are appreciated – I don't have to stay anywhere I don't like it. Yes.
Q2: Yes. One with? Meaning? You automatically help me find the best places where I can be the most productive. Yes.
Q3-Q4: Yes
Q5: Fly. Flap your wings and fly!


Hd7-L2.3-2G(m)
Visual: A set of dice
Meaning: Life is random and unpredictable, what it give you is at the mercy of the dice.
Intent: Truth/fact/reality, goodness

New Visual: A beautiful peacock, with plumes outstretched.
Meaning: There is an inherently beautiful design in life that could never come about through simple randomness.

Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (2 min)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Remember me. Assignment

Total Time: 15 minutes


Hd8-L2.2-1G
Visual: A cement sidewalk with rocks here and there popping up through it.
Meaning: Some things in life are set- they are what they are – live with it, work around it, but don't expect change. It will never happen.
Intent: Perfection, power

New Visual: A tree that is pruned to the shape of a heart
Meaning: The laws of nature are set, but you can work within these to create anything you want.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1 minute)

Q1: Yes. Q2: Old sit? Meaning? When I come up to an apparently insurmountable obstacle I ask if it is a law of the universe. If not, you remind me that it is malleable – I can change it. Q3-4: Yes
Q5: You are the master, create whatever you wish.
Anything this can help with now? Any “impossible” barrier? Finances. New understanding: Finances will not be a barrier to getting what you want.

Total Time: 12 Minutes


Issue: Teeth / decisiveness

7/21/09-Hd7-L2.3-1G
Visual: Two gay guys walking down the street holding hands. On occasion one wants to go one way and wants the other to follow, but the more he goes that way, the more the other goes the other way. They kiss to make up. Something comes up again and the one guy wants to go one way and the other goes the other way. This time he gets angry and punches him! Then the mirror shatters and he discovers that the other guy is not another guy at all but a mirror image of himself. At first he is shocked, then overjoyed. He is free!

Meaning? Your idea of God is nothing but a grand projection of yourself. Don't be fooled. God is far bigger then your comprehension. The box you put Him/Her in will only enslave you.
Relation: I am unwilling to settle on a definition of God (i. e. indecisive), thus in all reality having no God.
Intent: Not to limit God, not lower God

New Visual: Caesar sits on his throne, looking over scrolls and making judgments.
Meaning: The world needs an ultimate authority. That authority may not be perfect, but if it is the best authority possible, it is better then none at all.

Transform? Yes.
Result: After asking myself if I would rather have Caesar as a father or no father and deciding Caesar, I checked and it had already transformed.

Q1: Yes. Q2: Old sit? Meaning? Where I don't see God, I seek to sense who He/She is and accept the understanding that appears, albeit incomplete, it is all I need for that moment. I let go of the idea that I must choose between an old God cast in stone and an unknown, incomprehensible God and recognize that God shape shifts to meet my current needs and desires. I can accept the new image as true, albeit only one aspect of His/Her nature.
Q3-4: Yes
Q5: I AM


Insight: The secret to an “automatically” acting holodyne is to imprint it into the future. Otherwise, a new holodyne will likely fade in intensity. As much help as you visualize it giving you, you will get . .. Since it takes 21 days for a habit to form, it is ideal to visualize it helping you at least this many days. This may take an additional 10-20 minutes]
to perform, but this deep integration will be 2-3x more effective.


August 29, 2009 at 9:30pm
Holy Crap!!!

Every time I transformed a holodyne in the past I would notice an immediate shift and the new holodyne and its understanding would be very present in my consciousness and actions. And while I would often notice the affects working gradually over the course of time it seemed like the power and intensity of the holodyne would fade over time. For instance, I might transform a level three holodyne and notice level three affects immediately but several days later it might be down to a level one. Now all the negatives would stay of course and there would still be slight positives whose affect would continue to accumulate and serve me, but the intensity of the action would fade. I noticed this repeatedly. Repeatedly. I originally figured this was because I didn't repeatedly consult the holodyne, which I'm sure was the case, but I don't have time to be consulting Hd's all day so I just hoped that by transforming other immature holodynes, that might be overriding them they would rise to power again. Meanwhile I also sensed that the integration process wasn't as thorough as it could be. I made a few modifications which seemed to make it more though; then I by chance decided to instead of saying “every day” which I didn't feel was genuinely working say “today, tomorrow, the next day”, etc.), I really wanted to be specific and nail it down. But I also sensed resistance ever time I added “and the next day” which was proof that I really needed to keep asking. It is understood that 21 days is necessary to form a habit so I decided to go to 21. WOW!!! When I finally got there (and it took some real time and work), I felt as though this integration was the deepest I'd ever done TIMES FIVE! It felt overwhelmingly complete.

I can't wait to see how this one goes, but can't help but know it will be immensely more intense and active. I'm now thinking I should go back and re-integrate the other holodynes with this understanding.

Also, it seems that “are you willing to help me everyday” is a bit vague. The answer may be “yes” but how much? It seems like we may be able to add that to the question as well. Are you willing to help me at a level ___ intensity every day?



Issue: Teeth / indecisiveness

7/21/09-Hd8-L2.2-1G

Visual: A king in royal white and purple robes, with crown and scepter walks down the aisle out of a church as the subjects watch. He looks neither to the right, nor to the left. All eyes are upon him.
Meaning: The world is full of nothing but peasants. Pay them no attention, they have nothing of value to offer.
Relation to teeth / decisiveness: The king feels divided between seeking a relationship with the subjects and staying aloof. He senses a relationship would prove draining, yet he is alone and bored otherwise.
Intent: Maintain high status, maintain identity, maintain personal pureness and holiness, preserve the self and internal energy.

New Visual: A star shining its light
Meaning: You can keep a distance, but let the light of your love be seen and let it fall on all those that surround you. Give indiscriminately to all and you won't be always caught between trying to decide who is worthy. You then won't have to worry about how your choice reflects on you because you aren't choosing who to love, you are simply choosing to love. Your actions will then attract those who like your light rather then you trying to choose whose light you find attractive and who will appreciate your light. Even a faint light is enough. You needn't consume yourself in a a moment. Give a little trickle over time all the time and those who are ready and worthy will be attracted who you can give more to or rather, the closer they come to you, the brighter the light will get . . .

Transform? Yes
Result: Already did

Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation? How? When feeling aloof you help me let out a trickle of love. Remind me it doesn't have to be an all or nothing. Everyday? At L1.5 (can turn “volume” up or down later). Yes to all 21 days. Q4: Yes. Q5: Meter out the light to all. Assignment? Same.


Issue: Food Alignment

8/14-15/09-L3.3-Hd1-1G

I noted after nearly two months of improvement to the point that my feet where nearly straight (from a previous 45 degree angle out each way) that they started coming back in again. Fortunately, I caught it in time before it got too far. After some examination, I found that the original holodyne had reverted due to a more powerful hd that had arisen and reverted it. I again facilitated its transformation back, but first, I addressed this new holodyne.

Visual: A crab that pinches someone and gets scolded
Meaning: It is wrong to cause people pain

New Visual: A perfect virgin bride who someone tries to defile. She slaps them.
Meaning: Some people NEED pain to tell them they are in the wrong

Q1-4: Yes Q5: Slap those bitches!

Insight: You will notice I took a long break from doing trackings due to the intense nature of them. I discovered, however, that really all that is necessary to make them a success is being willing to show up and give what you have, even if that is just 5%. The universe will make up the difference. It is desire only that matters, not ability

Update: It is now 9/30 and my feet have pretty much stayed at the slightly outward state. If I had time each day or even week to "encourage" these hd's I'm sure they would be perfectly straight, but I have had higher priorities . . . Still this one has lasted pretty long and well for virtually no work since . . .



Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)

8/15/09-Hd1-L2.4-1G

Visual: A pumkin sits. A knife out of nowhere chops it in half forcefully. The knife is used as a spoon and the contents eaten (by whoever has the knife).
Meaning: There are times of starvation and lack which necessitate ding grotesque things.
Relation: Hardship and lack are more a part of life than ease and abundance - there is more cold in the universe than heat.

New: A woman (pretty and with hair to back in pony tail) wearing a camouflaged hat steps into a jeep and wields a gun to the driver.
Meaning: A broad character can handle any situation, even if it means being tough.

Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes

Modification:

At this point, I discovered the importance of asking an Hd if it would stay in its mature state and not revert (as per the previous post), and so added a question for that. I also was wanting to up the intensity of this Hd since I was cold and wanting heat. This was a landmark discovery, that I have also now added to the standard questions. These are now asked as follows (and take the place of Q3):

"Are you willing to work in harmony and symphony with the other mature holodynes at the direction of my FPS and raise to level 10 intensity or lower to level 0 intensity based on what the situation demands and FPS requests?"

"Are you willing to stay in this mature state forever and never revert back to your immature state?"

Insight: Some Hd's consume energy (like digestion), taking it away from other processes, and some add energy (alternative food). Thus you want some at L10 all the time (almost) and some at a lower level to meet circumstances. The FPS is the "master mixer".

Update: As I look over this tracking on 9/30 I can't really recall it well and in fact it really doesn't even make sense to me, though I know it did at the time. BUT I did remember to use it though I forgot the visual. I would just say "heat holodyne what is your distance and volume" at which point I would ask it to come closer (if it was far away) and then up the volume if I needed warmer. On top of volume, distance appears to also be a factor. Usually they will drift 3-12 feet away and I will ask them gradually to come closer bit by bit. Once they hit zero I will raise them bit by bit. If you try to do it too much too fast, the mind doesn't have time to adjust and will largely block it from happening. Gradually allows it to adjust. If It isn't wanting to raise the volume, it is often my mind holding a pattern. I will go blank and ask it to just let me know what it would "feel like" at that volume. Once I sense it, I then ask if it will stay at that.



Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)

After freezing my ass all night, I decided to get out of bed at about 3:00AM and do a tracking to stay warm. Turns out there were three holodynes. As I did each one, and upped the volume, I could feel my body temp rising. By the time I had finished the last one, I was perfectly warm without the blanket that I had previously been freezing with!

9/30/09-Hd4-L4.3-2G (d)

Visual: A giant stalagmite of ice
Positive Intent: Strength
Meaning: I equated coldness with strength and power (i.e. independent of others)

New Visual: A tractor that is powered by a warm engine. The warmth makes it stronger!
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: Power up!

Hd5-L2.2-1G

Visual: An axle with two wheels, driving and turning here and there
Positive Intent: Maneuverability
Meaning: I related warmth and connection with something that would tie me to people and keep me from "maneuvering" in life.

New Visual: A surf board carving on the water
Meaning: The water represents people. People and relationships will propel me.
Q5: Have fun!

Hd6-L1.4-2G (m)

Visual: A single tooth
Positive Intent: Protection
Meaning: I used coldness as a barrier to people to keep them at a distance and "protect" myself.

New Visual: A jet that everyone loves piloted by a hero. It is kind to everyone and only uses bombs on those that need it rather then on everyone "just in case" (i.e. like the tooth).