Monday, February 8, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
New Trackings - Part 3
Circa 8/13/09
Seeing the Holodyne: Not a matter of looking.
All you have to do is hold the intention that you want to see it, and that intention will attract the image to you. It will spontaneously come into your conscience. Its like you've made the bird call and you are just waiting for you bird to come to you. You don't know what kind of bird will show up, or when, but you just keep waiting for it anyway.
Issue: FUN! Comedy, goofing off (HD3)
8/14/09
So I arrived in Studio City today and called a friend of mine that is a notorious partier. Maybe it's the energy of LA, or maybe it was thinking about this friend, but a realization came to me that I was SOO focused on business, that I was totally ignoring having any fun. What is the point of life if you don't enjoy it? Certainly there is a place for fun. I know I had a block. As I had looked in the mirror over the last five months, I noticed a face at peace, a face that had some inner joy, certainty, love, I could go on, but I also saw that it was missing something. I blamed it on not having people to associate with, which wasn't my fault because there weren't any people like me. Well, now I pegged the real it behind it. I WAS AFRAID OF HAVING FUN! So I jumped right on it and it became even more clear to me. I immediately noticed that, YES, this is what I had been missing! And it was also why my consulting had seemed to come to a standstill. Who wants to associate with a spartan prick? Humor is the first ingredient to anything good, and what wins peoples confidence that you care about them. I had been acting like a drill sergeant. No wonder my calls weren't getting returned!! But this was about me too! What about my own happiness! Ah, yes, this HAD to change. So here we go . . .
Hd1-L2.5-1G
Visual: Waterfall
New Visual: Fountain
Hd2-L2.0-1G
Visual: Peacock
New Visual: Passengers riding an elephant
Hd3-L1.5-1G
Visual: Cross
New Visual: Cross to resurrection dancing the whole way
After completing this, I had a bunch of papers that flipped out all over the place. I got mad. See, this is what happens when you take your focus off of business and start having fun. Then I realized I had all the info on my computer and that paper was too big anyway and falling apart, it needed replaced. It was in the end a good thing to lose!
Issue: Not Acquiring Wealth (3 Hd's)
9/23/09-Hd1-L4.2-1G
Visual: Tweetie and Sylvester
Meaning: Tweetie represents innocents and purity, simplicity and generosity. Sylvester represents great, pride, ego, the conquerer out to claim the widows mite. This was my dichotomy and would view wealth as intimately and inseparably bound to these undesirable characteristics.
New Visual: A cool bird with stylin' sunglasses and tremendous wealth. He had personality, character, spirit all the desirable qualities AND was RICH!
Transformation: Saw myself as an embryo then as a sperm. Sensed the intention which was involved at my conception. Guilt and fear of acceptance kept the aggressive sperm from making it. (15 min)
Hd2-L2.5-1G
Visual: A dark witch-type being
Meaning: The desire for money is evil
New Visual: An Owl with a full and wealthy vest of feathers
Meaning: It is not wrong to desire that which is necessary for your comfort and convenience. Even if that means killing and eating mice. A naked owl would freeze through the winter. Meeting and satisfying your needs is proper, especially the more evolved you are. It is acceptable for a mouse to die to feed and owl, but not an owl to feed a mouse.
Transformed (5 min)
Hd3-L2.1-1G
Visual: A Horse which is in a simple outline-type stencil
Meaning: Simplicity. Better to have little and live simply. Money only complicates life.
New Visual: Many gears, all very simple, but working in a complex and harmonious way
Meaning: With proper organization and management, you can have many resources involved and at work and under your disposal, yet maintain simplicity and effectiveness.
Transformed (instant)
Note: Wow! I can really sense a shift in my perceptions! I LOVE this. Can't wait to put them to work!!
Issue: Not pro actively and aggressively pursuing clients (1Hd)
9/24/09-Hd1-L4.1-1G
Visual: A hard hat construction worker talks over a hand held radio. He waits for people to call. On stand by.
Meaning: This was kind of how I would operate my business. Unfortunately, people didn't know the channel, have a radio or even have an understanding why they should contact me. Sure, I was ready and waiting to talk to anyone that contacted me, but for the most part, I was just waiting and hoping.
New Visual: A half rainbow becomes clear, distinct, bright, sharp, and vivid - solid colors. I then see a big pot of gold appear at the end, plump and gratifying.
Meaning: Focus on people's beauty and that will lead to rewards.
Insight: Interestingly, i just realized that I was focusing on people's problems and trying to highlight why they needed holodynamics. This would drive them away because my focus on their problems would create the idea that I saw them as having problems, which no one wants people do to because this has an entrenching affect. Better for me to focus on positives and let them bring up the negatives. I need to see people as perfect already.
Insight 2: In talking with people, spend 2x as much time talking about what is right ("honey to help medicine go down"). This will be beneficial to your own psyche as well! If nothing else, do it for your own sake!
Result: Transformed (already)
Note: Interestingly, this was a large one but it transformed quickly! My guess is that since I already new the importance of focusing on positive, law of attraction, etc. this was more a matter of making a connection than a transformation. Or, rather, the connection made the transformation.
Note 2: I'm now so familiar with the Q1-4 that in some instances, I just have to say "will you help me with Q1-4" and I instantly get a yes.
Issue: "Needing" food to survive, have energy, live (5 Hd's)
Insight: I already did what I thought were all the holodynes for food. So why more? Well, what I'm discovering is that this is a lot like archeology. On the surface you have one layer of holodynes, which can be levels 1-10, then on the next layer, you have another set of holodynes which can be any level (1-10), then another layer. You can't really see or work with those on a deeper level till you address the ones on the upper levels. Once you have dealt with those, the next ones become apparent. So that actually helps, because even after completing all the past ones on food I was still needing some (albeit a LOT less - 850 calories vs. 1350). So now what, will this put me to 350? We'll see!
Hd1-L4.5-1.5G (m) (half inherited, half self-made)
Visual: A swirling pattern turns into a whirlpool that turns into a cyclone that turns into a black hole.
Meaning: My existence depends on continual sucking in of resources. If this flow stop, I vanish.
New Visual: A sword which starts spinning. It then maneuvers through space while spinning, going here and there.
Meaning: You are a self-propelled offensive force.
Result: Transformed (already!)
Insight: How did this one transform so fast! It is likely that these holodynes overlap the previous ones and since those have been transformed there is little resistance. I may also be sensing deeper and thus transforming faster.
Q1-4: Yes
Hd2-L2.4-1G
Visual: An apple, ripe, sweet, and delicious. A few bites are taken. MmmmMMM
Meaning: Food offers a pleasure and gratification which you can get no where else.
New Visual: A carved pumpkin with a light inside
Meaning: Gratification is an inner experience. It is based on what is inside, not what is outside.
Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)
(It appears the order and numbering on some of these got mixed up)
Hd2-L2.3-1G
Visual: A skier goes off a jump and does a flip twist but somehow gets stuck in the move spinning and moving back and forth forever.
Meaning: Be careful about the moves you mae - you will forever pay the consequences (such as a broken bone or neck).
Relation: Take the conservative route - tried, true, and proven (a block to visualizing and creating a new experience - such as self-heating).
New: Same, except skier completes and remains forever in a perfect land
Meaning: It is true, but if you make the right moves you will forever enjoy the reward
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes (very quickly to all) Q5: Go for it!
Hd3-L2.3-1G (also hydration)
Visual: A steamboat with a chopper on it that keeps trying to lift off but can't seem to get more then a little up in the air and then it lands again. Th last time it does only to have something major go wrong. It gets stuck in this position.
Meaning: Effort doesn't always bring success
Relation: Give up your efforst are wastd on tying to create heat
New Visual: Someone golfing. If you try enough times eventually you will get a hole-in-one (aka law of attraction)
Result: Transformed (20 seconds)
Q1-4: Yes Q5: Assignment: Google "I am Me" and see what comes up
8/16/09
Hd4-L2.3-1G (also nails)
Visual: A crow, flying and stopping
Intent: To exist, find food, be happy
Feelings: Lonely, unfulfilled
Relation: Life is cold and empty
New Visual: A red lollipop being sucked by a child
Feelings: Joy satisfaction
Result: Transformed (5 sec)
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: No
12 day integration
Hd5-L2.2-1G (also air)
Visual: A bird next with 5 eggs. One hatches. It sees it is all alone and goes and listens to the others, warming them with its body heat. That egg hatches. The two go to the next egg and the same happens for all three more.
Meaning: The world is cold. You need warmth from an outside source to come to life.
Intent: Life and health, well-being
Second Visual: A cow not letting anyone touch her warm utters.
Meaning: Warmth and nourishment are hard to come by.
New: A well insulated underground cave home
Meaning: Heat may be hard to come by, but if you conserve what you have and rotect from the outside, you will have more then plenty.
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: No
Insight: Don't feed passive images - they may simply be from the imagination. the real will not pass but as you watch become clearer and more focused. You cannot ignore it, it stays and grown. Feed your energy to that.
Hd6-L2.1-1G (also air)
Visual: Native America drum with feathers on it
Meaning: If you want something, much praer, effort, begging and pleading is necesarry. Hope but no certainty.
Intent: Getting needs met
New Visual: A cowboy standing by a horse. He hops on "gidyup!". Has a "can-do-anything" attitude. Anything you want, it just takes work. Confidence.
Result: Already transformed.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Assignment: "Be Me" (says cowboy)
Insight: Your job - keep your eyes on the stage - not conduct the play, not walk out of the theater and expect to receive benefit, to be present and observant. Don't let eyes wander off stage. Imagine stage and curtains. You buy the ticket and sit in the right theater by setting the intention.
Hd7-L2.1-1G (also nails and teeth)
Visual: A skeleton key hanging down (by a string?). Suddenly it starts spinnin very rapidly. It kees spinning.
Meaning: represents unobtainable nature of important things. They are locked away and the key remains tantalizingly out of reach.
New Visual: A fire breathing dragon
Meaning: You are powerful and you are magical - you need nothing outside yourself.
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes Q5: "Be Me"
Issue: Procrastination
Note: I thought that I was over this but I noticed a consistent pattern in my life where I would always get money to pay bills JUST before they were do. I had blamed the universe for trying to teach me faith and trust, but as it turns out, I wasn't really LOOKING for help until it was needed and that's when it would come.
Visual: An orange pyramid
Meaning: Strength, efficiency, non-superficiality, non-waste
Relation: I would not address financial issues (or otherwise) in advance because I wasn't sure that they would even be an issue when the "due date" rolled around. Who knows, maybe I would get a check in the mail in between now and then. Don't worry until the date arrives.
New: A fire with a pile of logs beside it
Meaning: Thinking ahead. You know that you will need wood, so getting extra in advance is not a waste of time. In fact, it saves time. If you wait until the first is down to a flicker it will take MORE work to get it back to normal.
Result: Started with a screen and zippers and trying to keep ants out. No matter what kind of blocks and putty was put there the ants would eat through. It was annoying, like they couldn't be stopped. This appeared to represent my hope that my financial worries would disappear, and I would just ignore them, or try to patch them up, but not address them specifically. Eventually, I decided to use the ants as a positive force, and proactively created a sugar path for them where I wanted a trail made, which they followed, chewing all the vegetation to the sides creating a trail. I thus turned the "financial naggings" into a creative force.
(Took 15 minutes)
Seeing the Holodyne: Not a matter of looking.
All you have to do is hold the intention that you want to see it, and that intention will attract the image to you. It will spontaneously come into your conscience. Its like you've made the bird call and you are just waiting for you bird to come to you. You don't know what kind of bird will show up, or when, but you just keep waiting for it anyway.
Issue: FUN! Comedy, goofing off (HD3)
8/14/09
So I arrived in Studio City today and called a friend of mine that is a notorious partier. Maybe it's the energy of LA, or maybe it was thinking about this friend, but a realization came to me that I was SOO focused on business, that I was totally ignoring having any fun. What is the point of life if you don't enjoy it? Certainly there is a place for fun. I know I had a block. As I had looked in the mirror over the last five months, I noticed a face at peace, a face that had some inner joy, certainty, love, I could go on, but I also saw that it was missing something. I blamed it on not having people to associate with, which wasn't my fault because there weren't any people like me. Well, now I pegged the real it behind it. I WAS AFRAID OF HAVING FUN! So I jumped right on it and it became even more clear to me. I immediately noticed that, YES, this is what I had been missing! And it was also why my consulting had seemed to come to a standstill. Who wants to associate with a spartan prick? Humor is the first ingredient to anything good, and what wins peoples confidence that you care about them. I had been acting like a drill sergeant. No wonder my calls weren't getting returned!! But this was about me too! What about my own happiness! Ah, yes, this HAD to change. So here we go . . .
Hd1-L2.5-1G
Visual: Waterfall
New Visual: Fountain
Hd2-L2.0-1G
Visual: Peacock
New Visual: Passengers riding an elephant
Hd3-L1.5-1G
Visual: Cross
New Visual: Cross to resurrection dancing the whole way
After completing this, I had a bunch of papers that flipped out all over the place. I got mad. See, this is what happens when you take your focus off of business and start having fun. Then I realized I had all the info on my computer and that paper was too big anyway and falling apart, it needed replaced. It was in the end a good thing to lose!
Issue: Not Acquiring Wealth (3 Hd's)
9/23/09-Hd1-L4.2-1G
Visual: Tweetie and Sylvester
Meaning: Tweetie represents innocents and purity, simplicity and generosity. Sylvester represents great, pride, ego, the conquerer out to claim the widows mite. This was my dichotomy and would view wealth as intimately and inseparably bound to these undesirable characteristics.
New Visual: A cool bird with stylin' sunglasses and tremendous wealth. He had personality, character, spirit all the desirable qualities AND was RICH!
Transformation: Saw myself as an embryo then as a sperm. Sensed the intention which was involved at my conception. Guilt and fear of acceptance kept the aggressive sperm from making it. (15 min)
Hd2-L2.5-1G
Visual: A dark witch-type being
Meaning: The desire for money is evil
New Visual: An Owl with a full and wealthy vest of feathers
Meaning: It is not wrong to desire that which is necessary for your comfort and convenience. Even if that means killing and eating mice. A naked owl would freeze through the winter. Meeting and satisfying your needs is proper, especially the more evolved you are. It is acceptable for a mouse to die to feed and owl, but not an owl to feed a mouse.
Transformed (5 min)
Hd3-L2.1-1G
Visual: A Horse which is in a simple outline-type stencil
Meaning: Simplicity. Better to have little and live simply. Money only complicates life.
New Visual: Many gears, all very simple, but working in a complex and harmonious way
Meaning: With proper organization and management, you can have many resources involved and at work and under your disposal, yet maintain simplicity and effectiveness.
Transformed (instant)
Note: Wow! I can really sense a shift in my perceptions! I LOVE this. Can't wait to put them to work!!
Issue: Not pro actively and aggressively pursuing clients (1Hd)
9/24/09-Hd1-L4.1-1G
Visual: A hard hat construction worker talks over a hand held radio. He waits for people to call. On stand by.
Meaning: This was kind of how I would operate my business. Unfortunately, people didn't know the channel, have a radio or even have an understanding why they should contact me. Sure, I was ready and waiting to talk to anyone that contacted me, but for the most part, I was just waiting and hoping.
New Visual: A half rainbow becomes clear, distinct, bright, sharp, and vivid - solid colors. I then see a big pot of gold appear at the end, plump and gratifying.
Meaning: Focus on people's beauty and that will lead to rewards.
Insight: Interestingly, i just realized that I was focusing on people's problems and trying to highlight why they needed holodynamics. This would drive them away because my focus on their problems would create the idea that I saw them as having problems, which no one wants people do to because this has an entrenching affect. Better for me to focus on positives and let them bring up the negatives. I need to see people as perfect already.
Insight 2: In talking with people, spend 2x as much time talking about what is right ("honey to help medicine go down"). This will be beneficial to your own psyche as well! If nothing else, do it for your own sake!
Result: Transformed (already)
Note: Interestingly, this was a large one but it transformed quickly! My guess is that since I already new the importance of focusing on positive, law of attraction, etc. this was more a matter of making a connection than a transformation. Or, rather, the connection made the transformation.
Note 2: I'm now so familiar with the Q1-4 that in some instances, I just have to say "will you help me with Q1-4" and I instantly get a yes.
Issue: "Needing" food to survive, have energy, live (5 Hd's)
Insight: I already did what I thought were all the holodynes for food. So why more? Well, what I'm discovering is that this is a lot like archeology. On the surface you have one layer of holodynes, which can be levels 1-10, then on the next layer, you have another set of holodynes which can be any level (1-10), then another layer. You can't really see or work with those on a deeper level till you address the ones on the upper levels. Once you have dealt with those, the next ones become apparent. So that actually helps, because even after completing all the past ones on food I was still needing some (albeit a LOT less - 850 calories vs. 1350). So now what, will this put me to 350? We'll see!
Hd1-L4.5-1.5G (m) (half inherited, half self-made)
Visual: A swirling pattern turns into a whirlpool that turns into a cyclone that turns into a black hole.
Meaning: My existence depends on continual sucking in of resources. If this flow stop, I vanish.
New Visual: A sword which starts spinning. It then maneuvers through space while spinning, going here and there.
Meaning: You are a self-propelled offensive force.
Result: Transformed (already!)
Insight: How did this one transform so fast! It is likely that these holodynes overlap the previous ones and since those have been transformed there is little resistance. I may also be sensing deeper and thus transforming faster.
Q1-4: Yes
Hd2-L2.4-1G
Visual: An apple, ripe, sweet, and delicious. A few bites are taken. MmmmMMM
Meaning: Food offers a pleasure and gratification which you can get no where else.
New Visual: A carved pumpkin with a light inside
Meaning: Gratification is an inner experience. It is based on what is inside, not what is outside.
Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)
(It appears the order and numbering on some of these got mixed up)
Hd2-L2.3-1G
Visual: A skier goes off a jump and does a flip twist but somehow gets stuck in the move spinning and moving back and forth forever.
Meaning: Be careful about the moves you mae - you will forever pay the consequences (such as a broken bone or neck).
Relation: Take the conservative route - tried, true, and proven (a block to visualizing and creating a new experience - such as self-heating).
New: Same, except skier completes and remains forever in a perfect land
Meaning: It is true, but if you make the right moves you will forever enjoy the reward
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes (very quickly to all) Q5: Go for it!
Hd3-L2.3-1G (also hydration)
Visual: A steamboat with a chopper on it that keeps trying to lift off but can't seem to get more then a little up in the air and then it lands again. Th last time it does only to have something major go wrong. It gets stuck in this position.
Meaning: Effort doesn't always bring success
Relation: Give up your efforst are wastd on tying to create heat
New Visual: Someone golfing. If you try enough times eventually you will get a hole-in-one (aka law of attraction)
Result: Transformed (20 seconds)
Q1-4: Yes Q5: Assignment: Google "I am Me" and see what comes up
8/16/09
Hd4-L2.3-1G (also nails)
Visual: A crow, flying and stopping
Intent: To exist, find food, be happy
Feelings: Lonely, unfulfilled
Relation: Life is cold and empty
New Visual: A red lollipop being sucked by a child
Feelings: Joy satisfaction
Result: Transformed (5 sec)
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: No
12 day integration
Hd5-L2.2-1G (also air)
Visual: A bird next with 5 eggs. One hatches. It sees it is all alone and goes and listens to the others, warming them with its body heat. That egg hatches. The two go to the next egg and the same happens for all three more.
Meaning: The world is cold. You need warmth from an outside source to come to life.
Intent: Life and health, well-being
Second Visual: A cow not letting anyone touch her warm utters.
Meaning: Warmth and nourishment are hard to come by.
New: A well insulated underground cave home
Meaning: Heat may be hard to come by, but if you conserve what you have and rotect from the outside, you will have more then plenty.
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: No
Insight: Don't feed passive images - they may simply be from the imagination. the real will not pass but as you watch become clearer and more focused. You cannot ignore it, it stays and grown. Feed your energy to that.
Hd6-L2.1-1G (also air)
Visual: Native America drum with feathers on it
Meaning: If you want something, much praer, effort, begging and pleading is necesarry. Hope but no certainty.
Intent: Getting needs met
New Visual: A cowboy standing by a horse. He hops on "gidyup!". Has a "can-do-anything" attitude. Anything you want, it just takes work. Confidence.
Result: Already transformed.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Assignment: "Be Me" (says cowboy)
Insight: Your job - keep your eyes on the stage - not conduct the play, not walk out of the theater and expect to receive benefit, to be present and observant. Don't let eyes wander off stage. Imagine stage and curtains. You buy the ticket and sit in the right theater by setting the intention.
Hd7-L2.1-1G (also nails and teeth)
Visual: A skeleton key hanging down (by a string?). Suddenly it starts spinnin very rapidly. It kees spinning.
Meaning: represents unobtainable nature of important things. They are locked away and the key remains tantalizingly out of reach.
New Visual: A fire breathing dragon
Meaning: You are powerful and you are magical - you need nothing outside yourself.
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes Q5: "Be Me"
Issue: Procrastination
Note: I thought that I was over this but I noticed a consistent pattern in my life where I would always get money to pay bills JUST before they were do. I had blamed the universe for trying to teach me faith and trust, but as it turns out, I wasn't really LOOKING for help until it was needed and that's when it would come.
Visual: An orange pyramid
Meaning: Strength, efficiency, non-superficiality, non-waste
Relation: I would not address financial issues (or otherwise) in advance because I wasn't sure that they would even be an issue when the "due date" rolled around. Who knows, maybe I would get a check in the mail in between now and then. Don't worry until the date arrives.
New: A fire with a pile of logs beside it
Meaning: Thinking ahead. You know that you will need wood, so getting extra in advance is not a waste of time. In fact, it saves time. If you wait until the first is down to a flicker it will take MORE work to get it back to normal.
Result: Started with a screen and zippers and trying to keep ants out. No matter what kind of blocks and putty was put there the ants would eat through. It was annoying, like they couldn't be stopped. This appeared to represent my hope that my financial worries would disappear, and I would just ignore them, or try to patch them up, but not address them specifically. Eventually, I decided to use the ants as a positive force, and proactively created a sugar path for them where I wanted a trail made, which they followed, chewing all the vegetation to the sides creating a trail. I thus turned the "financial naggings" into a creative force.
(Took 15 minutes)
New Trackings - Part 2
More "new" trackings:
Issue: Because my needs aren't met the way I want (mainly recognition), I don't care about others needs
9/5/09-Hd1-L5.5-1G
Visual: Tricycle (representing a little unrecognized kid)
New Visual: A rocket that goes up big, then splits into three flares that go out and come down to earth again. It repeats, going less high each time. The last time it is just a little "pop", but I feel OK with it as if it is just as powerful as the first one. It just didn't get as far but the same potential is behind it.
Meaning: Whether people see and recognize or don't see and recognize doesn't change who you are.
Integration: Completed
Issue: Distraction, not staying focused, thinking everything is important
9/6/09-Hd1-L5-1G
Visual: A wagon wheel
Representing: Me at the center, the spokes various streams of information and activities
Meaning: I am supported by variety, whatever surrounds me is good for me
New Visual: A brownie. A person eats it. Then spit it out. It is filled with glass.
Meaning: Some ingredients are good, some aren't. Everything has its place. Some things out of place are harmful.
Integration: Partial
Issue: Staying Focused
9/8/09-Hd1-L5.5-1G
Visual: A waterwheel
Meaning: As water flows over the wheal, it turns it. The waterwheel has no choice as to what water flows over it and what water doesn't. It is run by an external force. It has no control over itself.
New Visual: A sprocket is spinning of it's own accord and balls from outer space are randomly pinging it. It a ball matches the speed it is spinning and hits the run place, it can enter inside. Otherwise it is bounced back to space.
Meaning: You pick and decide what content you let inside you. It it isn't appropriate, fire it back and don't even let it enter your mind. If you must reject some people, don't feel bad, it's their fault they didn't make it in for not aiming well.
Transform? Yes. Result, mainly an image of a stearing wheal on a ship that I didn't want to really control. Too much work and hell, just kind of go with it! I ended up hitting into the antarctic and was about to turn myself and the crew into popsicle. I put my butt in gear and steered out of there, but it was a lot of work. VERY close call. Then I saw myself sailing agian doing the route, but this time I decided the wind wasn't just a neutral force, but a negative force I needed to fight. I wouldn't let it push me this time. It took a lot of work to keep the ship on course, but as I keep holding the wheel strait, it eventually (over 25 minutes) got easier . . .
Integration: Completed
WOW! Right after I finished this, I felt inspired to go to me email program and delete emails that had been clutering it and distracting me. I hadn't done this in years. But most surprisingly, I actually started itching. Now, I had previously figured the relation to health on this would be that I would't hang on to heavy metals or toxins, but would be better at putting them off. But I didn't think it would be immediate. In fact, I completely forgot about it until the itching got SO bad I said, WTF?? I starting trying to figure out what it could be, then remembered a detox I had had in the past after eating a bunch of shit. I thought, hmmm, then I remembered I'd just done a tracking related to this!!
As I think about it, I actually starting itching as I was doing this tracking, and it built up little by little until now it's really bad!!
Issue: Trying to get something out of people, having an agenda
9/8/09-Hd1-L4.5-1G
Note: I was trying to "up" the volume on my people holodyne of seeing them as "the goal" rather then objects to get the goal, but couldn't turn the volume above a five. I just didn't want to budge. There as some massive mental resistance so I knew it was a holodyne, but it hadn't been there before, so I knew it must have been pretty weak. It was: 1.4. So how did this happen? Well, I traced it to what someone "paid" (donated) for a tracking that I had done. As soon as I noticed money in my inbox I had foreboding. Now I know why. I'm amazed that in just about a day it could appear this fast. I didn't bother me this morning, but now that I think about it, I did tell someone about it later in the day. That must of been where it turned up its volume.
Visual: Darth Vader stands with a sword, then throws it at a person. It's a kill!
Meaning: People are objects to be tracked down for their prize. Focus on getting something out of them.
New Visual:
1) A pig with bones wrapped around its mouth so it can't be piggish
2) A king, with a funny hat on begging
3) A which with a funny rainbow swirl party hat on
4) A hammer which bangs a tile and it doesn't break. It bangs again and it does.
This is the first time I've had multiple new visuals, much less FOUR! But they all mean something!
Meaning:
1) Don't be a pig
2) It is fitting for a king to look funny and beg. It is medicinal for him. And they people already respect him and know he is rich, so for him to do this voluntarily will win their admiration.
3) Party it up! Have fun! What agenda could be better then that?
4) Everyone has a breaking point, give them some punch, but don't overdo it!
Result: It's already transformed!!
Integration: Complete
Note: I was immediately able to up the other "people" holodyne to a seven within 30 seconds! (It had taken me minutes just to get it from a 4 to a 5)
Issue: Because my needs aren't met the way I want (mainly recognition), I don't care about others needs
9/5/09-Hd1-L5.5-1G
Visual: Tricycle (representing a little unrecognized kid)
New Visual: A rocket that goes up big, then splits into three flares that go out and come down to earth again. It repeats, going less high each time. The last time it is just a little "pop", but I feel OK with it as if it is just as powerful as the first one. It just didn't get as far but the same potential is behind it.
Meaning: Whether people see and recognize or don't see and recognize doesn't change who you are.
Integration: Completed
Issue: Distraction, not staying focused, thinking everything is important
9/6/09-Hd1-L5-1G
Visual: A wagon wheel
Representing: Me at the center, the spokes various streams of information and activities
Meaning: I am supported by variety, whatever surrounds me is good for me
New Visual: A brownie. A person eats it. Then spit it out. It is filled with glass.
Meaning: Some ingredients are good, some aren't. Everything has its place. Some things out of place are harmful.
Integration: Partial
Issue: Staying Focused
9/8/09-Hd1-L5.5-1G
Visual: A waterwheel
Meaning: As water flows over the wheal, it turns it. The waterwheel has no choice as to what water flows over it and what water doesn't. It is run by an external force. It has no control over itself.
New Visual: A sprocket is spinning of it's own accord and balls from outer space are randomly pinging it. It a ball matches the speed it is spinning and hits the run place, it can enter inside. Otherwise it is bounced back to space.
Meaning: You pick and decide what content you let inside you. It it isn't appropriate, fire it back and don't even let it enter your mind. If you must reject some people, don't feel bad, it's their fault they didn't make it in for not aiming well.
Transform? Yes. Result, mainly an image of a stearing wheal on a ship that I didn't want to really control. Too much work and hell, just kind of go with it! I ended up hitting into the antarctic and was about to turn myself and the crew into popsicle. I put my butt in gear and steered out of there, but it was a lot of work. VERY close call. Then I saw myself sailing agian doing the route, but this time I decided the wind wasn't just a neutral force, but a negative force I needed to fight. I wouldn't let it push me this time. It took a lot of work to keep the ship on course, but as I keep holding the wheel strait, it eventually (over 25 minutes) got easier . . .
Integration: Completed
WOW! Right after I finished this, I felt inspired to go to me email program and delete emails that had been clutering it and distracting me. I hadn't done this in years. But most surprisingly, I actually started itching. Now, I had previously figured the relation to health on this would be that I would't hang on to heavy metals or toxins, but would be better at putting them off. But I didn't think it would be immediate. In fact, I completely forgot about it until the itching got SO bad I said, WTF?? I starting trying to figure out what it could be, then remembered a detox I had had in the past after eating a bunch of shit. I thought, hmmm, then I remembered I'd just done a tracking related to this!!
As I think about it, I actually starting itching as I was doing this tracking, and it built up little by little until now it's really bad!!
Issue: Trying to get something out of people, having an agenda
9/8/09-Hd1-L4.5-1G
Note: I was trying to "up" the volume on my people holodyne of seeing them as "the goal" rather then objects to get the goal, but couldn't turn the volume above a five. I just didn't want to budge. There as some massive mental resistance so I knew it was a holodyne, but it hadn't been there before, so I knew it must have been pretty weak. It was: 1.4. So how did this happen? Well, I traced it to what someone "paid" (donated) for a tracking that I had done. As soon as I noticed money in my inbox I had foreboding. Now I know why. I'm amazed that in just about a day it could appear this fast. I didn't bother me this morning, but now that I think about it, I did tell someone about it later in the day. That must of been where it turned up its volume.
Visual: Darth Vader stands with a sword, then throws it at a person. It's a kill!
Meaning: People are objects to be tracked down for their prize. Focus on getting something out of them.
New Visual:
1) A pig with bones wrapped around its mouth so it can't be piggish
2) A king, with a funny hat on begging
3) A which with a funny rainbow swirl party hat on
4) A hammer which bangs a tile and it doesn't break. It bangs again and it does.
This is the first time I've had multiple new visuals, much less FOUR! But they all mean something!
Meaning:
1) Don't be a pig
2) It is fitting for a king to look funny and beg. It is medicinal for him. And they people already respect him and know he is rich, so for him to do this voluntarily will win their admiration.
3) Party it up! Have fun! What agenda could be better then that?
4) Everyone has a breaking point, give them some punch, but don't overdo it!
Result: It's already transformed!!
Integration: Complete
Note: I was immediately able to up the other "people" holodyne to a seven within 30 seconds! (It had taken me minutes just to get it from a 4 to a 5)
New Trackings
OK, so these aren't exactly "new" but I haven't published them yet, so here ya go! :)
This actually includes some "journal" notes:
August 27, 2009 9:00PM
I've stated in previous posts that our lives are governed or driven by holodynes. I've also stated that we each have a full potential self (FPS) that is seeking expression through our bodies and that immature holodynes can block this from happening. So the question is, why? And what is the relation between the two? Is the FPS limited by holodynes? Can it only work with in the framework of these? If we are governed by holodynes, where is the freedom of choice? Do we always listen to our holodynes?
The more I do this, the more clear it is becoming to me that the FPS is much more important and powerful then holodynes. The FPS is like the internet, while our holodynes are comparable to the software on our computer. If we have access to the internet – all the information – what purpose is there in our little batch of information? Well, because often times, we don't trust the information that comes to us – how do we know it isn't faulty or flawed? After all, it contradicts _____ (fill in the blank). You see, our full potential self is connected to all information and has precomputed every possible outcome and handed us the best option. Yet with our limited mind and understanding, this may not make sense. We trust our holodynes, because you've either accepted them from someone we trust, or created them ourselves, and had plenty of time to see their results in action. They make logical and emotional sense to us (even if they might be somewhat immature). Our FPS is another story. First of all, many of us haven't been listening to or taking advice from our FPS, so there is no track record to trust. Thus to fully connect with and live out our FPS either takes a great amount of faith, or a very long and gradual growing trust, based on the few times we don listen over many years. Alternatively, we can transform holodynes that block the FPS and in so doing bring our mind and emotions into harmony with it, such that what it says does make sense to us. This is a kind of middle route between the two. It does take time, but we can accelerate this through our own actions to transform them. And this can happen pretty quickly if we really want it to. But it's a lot of work.
So the point here is that ideally we all just have an immense amount of faith in our FPS and completely ignore our holodynes, completely ignore our mind, and completely ignore our feelings. And as we establish a strong relationship with our FPS, these will eventually come into alignment.
But while saying this is easy, doing so is like jumping off a bridge blindfolded, with not idea as to how you will land, only with a philosophical notion in your head that it will all work out for the best somehow.
Are you ready to do that?
Fortunately, we can take baby stops. Give yourself an amount of time, whether an hour, a minute, or a day and say, I am going to listen only to my FPS. No consulting holodynes, no consulting logic or feelings. I will for this time only listen to and live out my FPS. I will not calculate outcome – my FPS has already done so. I will simply LIVE out the dictates of my FPS.
See what happens. And enter a new level of existence.
(BTW – The strange thing is that we can live a mixture of FPS, holodynes, mind and emotion. One might think that because they sense a partial living out of the of the FPS that they are doing so fully. Likely not the case. If you catch yourself thinking, analyzing, feeling or in any other way seeking to determine actions before acting, this mean the FPS is not fully engaged. Now that doesn't mean these don't have a place, because they do, but they are to be servant to the FPS, not usurp it as master. On the other hand, just because you may not be conscious of thought or feeling that might drive action, this doesn't mean the FPS is fully engaged either. There must be an entire surrender – a non-will of the mind and emotions present. You must know that you are connected.
Also, don't mistake FPS for intuition. This is simply another (albeit superior) sense, like the mind an feeling. FPS is of entirely external origin (i. e. hyperspace). A better word for FPS would be inspiration.
And yes, it is possible for the holodynes to limit the FPS, just as it is possible for the body to limit eh mind (like not getting enough sleep or exercise, taking drugs, etc.) Therefore, while the FPS connection is primary, we must continue to work on all aspects of the being simultaneously (i. e. the body, mind, feeling, holodynes), starting at the top and working our way down until we hit a block, if we want to th fastest results. These can also serve as a means of keeping us connected to the FPS, thus not taking the place of aiding.)
UPDATE: (September 30, 2009 at 4:35pm)
I now refer to Holodynes as "place holders" for the FPS, much like the edges of a fort. As the edges are expanded out you can fit a larger army inside. As the holodynes become more mature, they create more space for the FPS to express itself freely and uninhibited.
Issue: Hydration (10 Hd's)
7/21/09-Hd6-L2.3-1G
Visual: An ice cube sits. It begins spinning. As is does so, it melts, the water spreading out and then evaporating. Nothing is left. This repeats.
Representing: Giving your all to something only to have the results evaporate.
Intent: Service, giving, activity, sacrifice, tangible results
New Visual: A duck quietly sits in a pond paddling gently. Something noisy comes along and the duck flies up over to a quite place, paddling gently again.
Meaning: Find an environment that works for you. If one place doesn't, go elsewhere.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1 min)
Q1: Yes. FP? Meaning? Whi I feel my efforts are evaporation you remind me and help me find a place that they are appreciated – I don't have to stay anywhere I don't like it. Yes.
Q2: Yes. One with? Meaning? You automatically help me find the best places where I can be the most productive. Yes.
Q3-Q4: Yes
Q5: Fly. Flap your wings and fly!
Hd7-L2.3-2G(m)
Visual: A set of dice
Meaning: Life is random and unpredictable, what it give you is at the mercy of the dice.
Intent: Truth/fact/reality, goodness
New Visual: A beautiful peacock, with plumes outstretched.
Meaning: There is an inherently beautiful design in life that could never come about through simple randomness.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (2 min)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Remember me. Assignment
Total Time: 15 minutes
Hd8-L2.2-1G
Visual: A cement sidewalk with rocks here and there popping up through it.
Meaning: Some things in life are set- they are what they are – live with it, work around it, but don't expect change. It will never happen.
Intent: Perfection, power
New Visual: A tree that is pruned to the shape of a heart
Meaning: The laws of nature are set, but you can work within these to create anything you want.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1 minute)
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old sit? Meaning? When I come up to an apparently insurmountable obstacle I ask if it is a law of the universe. If not, you remind me that it is malleable – I can change it. Q3-4: Yes
Q5: You are the master, create whatever you wish.
Anything this can help with now? Any “impossible” barrier? Finances. New understanding: Finances will not be a barrier to getting what you want.
Total Time: 12 Minutes
Issue: Teeth / decisiveness
7/21/09-Hd7-L2.3-1G
Visual: Two gay guys walking down the street holding hands. On occasion one wants to go one way and wants the other to follow, but the more he goes that way, the more the other goes the other way. They kiss to make up. Something comes up again and the one guy wants to go one way and the other goes the other way. This time he gets angry and punches him! Then the mirror shatters and he discovers that the other guy is not another guy at all but a mirror image of himself. At first he is shocked, then overjoyed. He is free!
Meaning? Your idea of God is nothing but a grand projection of yourself. Don't be fooled. God is far bigger then your comprehension. The box you put Him/Her in will only enslave you.
Relation: I am unwilling to settle on a definition of God (i. e. indecisive), thus in all reality having no God.
Intent: Not to limit God, not lower God
New Visual: Caesar sits on his throne, looking over scrolls and making judgments.
Meaning: The world needs an ultimate authority. That authority may not be perfect, but if it is the best authority possible, it is better then none at all.
Transform? Yes.
Result: After asking myself if I would rather have Caesar as a father or no father and deciding Caesar, I checked and it had already transformed.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old sit? Meaning? Where I don't see God, I seek to sense who He/She is and accept the understanding that appears, albeit incomplete, it is all I need for that moment. I let go of the idea that I must choose between an old God cast in stone and an unknown, incomprehensible God and recognize that God shape shifts to meet my current needs and desires. I can accept the new image as true, albeit only one aspect of His/Her nature.
Q3-4: Yes
Q5: I AM
Insight: The secret to an “automatically” acting holodyne is to imprint it into the future. Otherwise, a new holodyne will likely fade in intensity. As much help as you visualize it giving you, you will get . .. Since it takes 21 days for a habit to form, it is ideal to visualize it helping you at least this many days. This may take an additional 10-20 minutes]
to perform, but this deep integration will be 2-3x more effective.
August 29, 2009 at 9:30pm
Holy Crap!!!
Every time I transformed a holodyne in the past I would notice an immediate shift and the new holodyne and its understanding would be very present in my consciousness and actions. And while I would often notice the affects working gradually over the course of time it seemed like the power and intensity of the holodyne would fade over time. For instance, I might transform a level three holodyne and notice level three affects immediately but several days later it might be down to a level one. Now all the negatives would stay of course and there would still be slight positives whose affect would continue to accumulate and serve me, but the intensity of the action would fade. I noticed this repeatedly. Repeatedly. I originally figured this was because I didn't repeatedly consult the holodyne, which I'm sure was the case, but I don't have time to be consulting Hd's all day so I just hoped that by transforming other immature holodynes, that might be overriding them they would rise to power again. Meanwhile I also sensed that the integration process wasn't as thorough as it could be. I made a few modifications which seemed to make it more though; then I by chance decided to instead of saying “every day” which I didn't feel was genuinely working say “today, tomorrow, the next day”, etc.), I really wanted to be specific and nail it down. But I also sensed resistance ever time I added “and the next day” which was proof that I really needed to keep asking. It is understood that 21 days is necessary to form a habit so I decided to go to 21. WOW!!! When I finally got there (and it took some real time and work), I felt as though this integration was the deepest I'd ever done TIMES FIVE! It felt overwhelmingly complete.
I can't wait to see how this one goes, but can't help but know it will be immensely more intense and active. I'm now thinking I should go back and re-integrate the other holodynes with this understanding.
Also, it seems that “are you willing to help me everyday” is a bit vague. The answer may be “yes” but how much? It seems like we may be able to add that to the question as well. Are you willing to help me at a level ___ intensity every day?
Issue: Teeth / indecisiveness
7/21/09-Hd8-L2.2-1G
Visual: A king in royal white and purple robes, with crown and scepter walks down the aisle out of a church as the subjects watch. He looks neither to the right, nor to the left. All eyes are upon him.
Meaning: The world is full of nothing but peasants. Pay them no attention, they have nothing of value to offer.
Relation to teeth / decisiveness: The king feels divided between seeking a relationship with the subjects and staying aloof. He senses a relationship would prove draining, yet he is alone and bored otherwise.
Intent: Maintain high status, maintain identity, maintain personal pureness and holiness, preserve the self and internal energy.
New Visual: A star shining its light
Meaning: You can keep a distance, but let the light of your love be seen and let it fall on all those that surround you. Give indiscriminately to all and you won't be always caught between trying to decide who is worthy. You then won't have to worry about how your choice reflects on you because you aren't choosing who to love, you are simply choosing to love. Your actions will then attract those who like your light rather then you trying to choose whose light you find attractive and who will appreciate your light. Even a faint light is enough. You needn't consume yourself in a a moment. Give a little trickle over time all the time and those who are ready and worthy will be attracted who you can give more to or rather, the closer they come to you, the brighter the light will get . . .
Transform? Yes
Result: Already did
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation? How? When feeling aloof you help me let out a trickle of love. Remind me it doesn't have to be an all or nothing. Everyday? At L1.5 (can turn “volume” up or down later). Yes to all 21 days. Q4: Yes. Q5: Meter out the light to all. Assignment? Same.
Issue: Food Alignment
8/14-15/09-L3.3-Hd1-1G
I noted after nearly two months of improvement to the point that my feet where nearly straight (from a previous 45 degree angle out each way) that they started coming back in again. Fortunately, I caught it in time before it got too far. After some examination, I found that the original holodyne had reverted due to a more powerful hd that had arisen and reverted it. I again facilitated its transformation back, but first, I addressed this new holodyne.
Visual: A crab that pinches someone and gets scolded
Meaning: It is wrong to cause people pain
New Visual: A perfect virgin bride who someone tries to defile. She slaps them.
Meaning: Some people NEED pain to tell them they are in the wrong
Q1-4: Yes Q5: Slap those bitches!
Insight: You will notice I took a long break from doing trackings due to the intense nature of them. I discovered, however, that really all that is necessary to make them a success is being willing to show up and give what you have, even if that is just 5%. The universe will make up the difference. It is desire only that matters, not ability
Update: It is now 9/30 and my feet have pretty much stayed at the slightly outward state. If I had time each day or even week to "encourage" these hd's I'm sure they would be perfectly straight, but I have had higher priorities . . . Still this one has lasted pretty long and well for virtually no work since . . .
Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)
8/15/09-Hd1-L2.4-1G
Visual: A pumkin sits. A knife out of nowhere chops it in half forcefully. The knife is used as a spoon and the contents eaten (by whoever has the knife).
Meaning: There are times of starvation and lack which necessitate ding grotesque things.
Relation: Hardship and lack are more a part of life than ease and abundance - there is more cold in the universe than heat.
New: A woman (pretty and with hair to back in pony tail) wearing a camouflaged hat steps into a jeep and wields a gun to the driver.
Meaning: A broad character can handle any situation, even if it means being tough.
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes
Modification:
At this point, I discovered the importance of asking an Hd if it would stay in its mature state and not revert (as per the previous post), and so added a question for that. I also was wanting to up the intensity of this Hd since I was cold and wanting heat. This was a landmark discovery, that I have also now added to the standard questions. These are now asked as follows (and take the place of Q3):
"Are you willing to work in harmony and symphony with the other mature holodynes at the direction of my FPS and raise to level 10 intensity or lower to level 0 intensity based on what the situation demands and FPS requests?"
"Are you willing to stay in this mature state forever and never revert back to your immature state?"
Insight: Some Hd's consume energy (like digestion), taking it away from other processes, and some add energy (alternative food). Thus you want some at L10 all the time (almost) and some at a lower level to meet circumstances. The FPS is the "master mixer".
Update: As I look over this tracking on 9/30 I can't really recall it well and in fact it really doesn't even make sense to me, though I know it did at the time. BUT I did remember to use it though I forgot the visual. I would just say "heat holodyne what is your distance and volume" at which point I would ask it to come closer (if it was far away) and then up the volume if I needed warmer. On top of volume, distance appears to also be a factor. Usually they will drift 3-12 feet away and I will ask them gradually to come closer bit by bit. Once they hit zero I will raise them bit by bit. If you try to do it too much too fast, the mind doesn't have time to adjust and will largely block it from happening. Gradually allows it to adjust. If It isn't wanting to raise the volume, it is often my mind holding a pattern. I will go blank and ask it to just let me know what it would "feel like" at that volume. Once I sense it, I then ask if it will stay at that.
Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)
After freezing my ass all night, I decided to get out of bed at about 3:00AM and do a tracking to stay warm. Turns out there were three holodynes. As I did each one, and upped the volume, I could feel my body temp rising. By the time I had finished the last one, I was perfectly warm without the blanket that I had previously been freezing with!
9/30/09-Hd4-L4.3-2G (d)
Visual: A giant stalagmite of ice
Positive Intent: Strength
Meaning: I equated coldness with strength and power (i.e. independent of others)
New Visual: A tractor that is powered by a warm engine. The warmth makes it stronger!
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: Power up!
Hd5-L2.2-1G
Visual: An axle with two wheels, driving and turning here and there
Positive Intent: Maneuverability
Meaning: I related warmth and connection with something that would tie me to people and keep me from "maneuvering" in life.
New Visual: A surf board carving on the water
Meaning: The water represents people. People and relationships will propel me.
Q5: Have fun!
Hd6-L1.4-2G (m)
Visual: A single tooth
Positive Intent: Protection
Meaning: I used coldness as a barrier to people to keep them at a distance and "protect" myself.
New Visual: A jet that everyone loves piloted by a hero. It is kind to everyone and only uses bombs on those that need it rather then on everyone "just in case" (i.e. like the tooth).
This actually includes some "journal" notes:
August 27, 2009 9:00PM
I've stated in previous posts that our lives are governed or driven by holodynes. I've also stated that we each have a full potential self (FPS) that is seeking expression through our bodies and that immature holodynes can block this from happening. So the question is, why? And what is the relation between the two? Is the FPS limited by holodynes? Can it only work with in the framework of these? If we are governed by holodynes, where is the freedom of choice? Do we always listen to our holodynes?
The more I do this, the more clear it is becoming to me that the FPS is much more important and powerful then holodynes. The FPS is like the internet, while our holodynes are comparable to the software on our computer. If we have access to the internet – all the information – what purpose is there in our little batch of information? Well, because often times, we don't trust the information that comes to us – how do we know it isn't faulty or flawed? After all, it contradicts _____ (fill in the blank). You see, our full potential self is connected to all information and has precomputed every possible outcome and handed us the best option. Yet with our limited mind and understanding, this may not make sense. We trust our holodynes, because you've either accepted them from someone we trust, or created them ourselves, and had plenty of time to see their results in action. They make logical and emotional sense to us (even if they might be somewhat immature). Our FPS is another story. First of all, many of us haven't been listening to or taking advice from our FPS, so there is no track record to trust. Thus to fully connect with and live out our FPS either takes a great amount of faith, or a very long and gradual growing trust, based on the few times we don listen over many years. Alternatively, we can transform holodynes that block the FPS and in so doing bring our mind and emotions into harmony with it, such that what it says does make sense to us. This is a kind of middle route between the two. It does take time, but we can accelerate this through our own actions to transform them. And this can happen pretty quickly if we really want it to. But it's a lot of work.
So the point here is that ideally we all just have an immense amount of faith in our FPS and completely ignore our holodynes, completely ignore our mind, and completely ignore our feelings. And as we establish a strong relationship with our FPS, these will eventually come into alignment.
But while saying this is easy, doing so is like jumping off a bridge blindfolded, with not idea as to how you will land, only with a philosophical notion in your head that it will all work out for the best somehow.
Are you ready to do that?
Fortunately, we can take baby stops. Give yourself an amount of time, whether an hour, a minute, or a day and say, I am going to listen only to my FPS. No consulting holodynes, no consulting logic or feelings. I will for this time only listen to and live out my FPS. I will not calculate outcome – my FPS has already done so. I will simply LIVE out the dictates of my FPS.
See what happens. And enter a new level of existence.
(BTW – The strange thing is that we can live a mixture of FPS, holodynes, mind and emotion. One might think that because they sense a partial living out of the of the FPS that they are doing so fully. Likely not the case. If you catch yourself thinking, analyzing, feeling or in any other way seeking to determine actions before acting, this mean the FPS is not fully engaged. Now that doesn't mean these don't have a place, because they do, but they are to be servant to the FPS, not usurp it as master. On the other hand, just because you may not be conscious of thought or feeling that might drive action, this doesn't mean the FPS is fully engaged either. There must be an entire surrender – a non-will of the mind and emotions present. You must know that you are connected.
Also, don't mistake FPS for intuition. This is simply another (albeit superior) sense, like the mind an feeling. FPS is of entirely external origin (i. e. hyperspace). A better word for FPS would be inspiration.
And yes, it is possible for the holodynes to limit the FPS, just as it is possible for the body to limit eh mind (like not getting enough sleep or exercise, taking drugs, etc.) Therefore, while the FPS connection is primary, we must continue to work on all aspects of the being simultaneously (i. e. the body, mind, feeling, holodynes), starting at the top and working our way down until we hit a block, if we want to th fastest results. These can also serve as a means of keeping us connected to the FPS, thus not taking the place of aiding.)
UPDATE: (September 30, 2009 at 4:35pm)
I now refer to Holodynes as "place holders" for the FPS, much like the edges of a fort. As the edges are expanded out you can fit a larger army inside. As the holodynes become more mature, they create more space for the FPS to express itself freely and uninhibited.
Issue: Hydration (10 Hd's)
7/21/09-Hd6-L2.3-1G
Visual: An ice cube sits. It begins spinning. As is does so, it melts, the water spreading out and then evaporating. Nothing is left. This repeats.
Representing: Giving your all to something only to have the results evaporate.
Intent: Service, giving, activity, sacrifice, tangible results
New Visual: A duck quietly sits in a pond paddling gently. Something noisy comes along and the duck flies up over to a quite place, paddling gently again.
Meaning: Find an environment that works for you. If one place doesn't, go elsewhere.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1 min)
Q1: Yes. FP? Meaning? Whi I feel my efforts are evaporation you remind me and help me find a place that they are appreciated – I don't have to stay anywhere I don't like it. Yes.
Q2: Yes. One with? Meaning? You automatically help me find the best places where I can be the most productive. Yes.
Q3-Q4: Yes
Q5: Fly. Flap your wings and fly!
Hd7-L2.3-2G(m)
Visual: A set of dice
Meaning: Life is random and unpredictable, what it give you is at the mercy of the dice.
Intent: Truth/fact/reality, goodness
New Visual: A beautiful peacock, with plumes outstretched.
Meaning: There is an inherently beautiful design in life that could never come about through simple randomness.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (2 min)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Remember me. Assignment
Total Time: 15 minutes
Hd8-L2.2-1G
Visual: A cement sidewalk with rocks here and there popping up through it.
Meaning: Some things in life are set- they are what they are – live with it, work around it, but don't expect change. It will never happen.
Intent: Perfection, power
New Visual: A tree that is pruned to the shape of a heart
Meaning: The laws of nature are set, but you can work within these to create anything you want.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1 minute)
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old sit? Meaning? When I come up to an apparently insurmountable obstacle I ask if it is a law of the universe. If not, you remind me that it is malleable – I can change it. Q3-4: Yes
Q5: You are the master, create whatever you wish.
Anything this can help with now? Any “impossible” barrier? Finances. New understanding: Finances will not be a barrier to getting what you want.
Total Time: 12 Minutes
Issue: Teeth / decisiveness
7/21/09-Hd7-L2.3-1G
Visual: Two gay guys walking down the street holding hands. On occasion one wants to go one way and wants the other to follow, but the more he goes that way, the more the other goes the other way. They kiss to make up. Something comes up again and the one guy wants to go one way and the other goes the other way. This time he gets angry and punches him! Then the mirror shatters and he discovers that the other guy is not another guy at all but a mirror image of himself. At first he is shocked, then overjoyed. He is free!
Meaning? Your idea of God is nothing but a grand projection of yourself. Don't be fooled. God is far bigger then your comprehension. The box you put Him/Her in will only enslave you.
Relation: I am unwilling to settle on a definition of God (i. e. indecisive), thus in all reality having no God.
Intent: Not to limit God, not lower God
New Visual: Caesar sits on his throne, looking over scrolls and making judgments.
Meaning: The world needs an ultimate authority. That authority may not be perfect, but if it is the best authority possible, it is better then none at all.
Transform? Yes.
Result: After asking myself if I would rather have Caesar as a father or no father and deciding Caesar, I checked and it had already transformed.
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old sit? Meaning? Where I don't see God, I seek to sense who He/She is and accept the understanding that appears, albeit incomplete, it is all I need for that moment. I let go of the idea that I must choose between an old God cast in stone and an unknown, incomprehensible God and recognize that God shape shifts to meet my current needs and desires. I can accept the new image as true, albeit only one aspect of His/Her nature.
Q3-4: Yes
Q5: I AM
Insight: The secret to an “automatically” acting holodyne is to imprint it into the future. Otherwise, a new holodyne will likely fade in intensity. As much help as you visualize it giving you, you will get . .. Since it takes 21 days for a habit to form, it is ideal to visualize it helping you at least this many days. This may take an additional 10-20 minutes]
to perform, but this deep integration will be 2-3x more effective.
August 29, 2009 at 9:30pm
Holy Crap!!!
Every time I transformed a holodyne in the past I would notice an immediate shift and the new holodyne and its understanding would be very present in my consciousness and actions. And while I would often notice the affects working gradually over the course of time it seemed like the power and intensity of the holodyne would fade over time. For instance, I might transform a level three holodyne and notice level three affects immediately but several days later it might be down to a level one. Now all the negatives would stay of course and there would still be slight positives whose affect would continue to accumulate and serve me, but the intensity of the action would fade. I noticed this repeatedly. Repeatedly. I originally figured this was because I didn't repeatedly consult the holodyne, which I'm sure was the case, but I don't have time to be consulting Hd's all day so I just hoped that by transforming other immature holodynes, that might be overriding them they would rise to power again. Meanwhile I also sensed that the integration process wasn't as thorough as it could be. I made a few modifications which seemed to make it more though; then I by chance decided to instead of saying “every day” which I didn't feel was genuinely working say “today, tomorrow, the next day”, etc.), I really wanted to be specific and nail it down. But I also sensed resistance ever time I added “and the next day” which was proof that I really needed to keep asking. It is understood that 21 days is necessary to form a habit so I decided to go to 21. WOW!!! When I finally got there (and it took some real time and work), I felt as though this integration was the deepest I'd ever done TIMES FIVE! It felt overwhelmingly complete.
I can't wait to see how this one goes, but can't help but know it will be immensely more intense and active. I'm now thinking I should go back and re-integrate the other holodynes with this understanding.
Also, it seems that “are you willing to help me everyday” is a bit vague. The answer may be “yes” but how much? It seems like we may be able to add that to the question as well. Are you willing to help me at a level ___ intensity every day?
Issue: Teeth / indecisiveness
7/21/09-Hd8-L2.2-1G
Visual: A king in royal white and purple robes, with crown and scepter walks down the aisle out of a church as the subjects watch. He looks neither to the right, nor to the left. All eyes are upon him.
Meaning: The world is full of nothing but peasants. Pay them no attention, they have nothing of value to offer.
Relation to teeth / decisiveness: The king feels divided between seeking a relationship with the subjects and staying aloof. He senses a relationship would prove draining, yet he is alone and bored otherwise.
Intent: Maintain high status, maintain identity, maintain personal pureness and holiness, preserve the self and internal energy.
New Visual: A star shining its light
Meaning: You can keep a distance, but let the light of your love be seen and let it fall on all those that surround you. Give indiscriminately to all and you won't be always caught between trying to decide who is worthy. You then won't have to worry about how your choice reflects on you because you aren't choosing who to love, you are simply choosing to love. Your actions will then attract those who like your light rather then you trying to choose whose light you find attractive and who will appreciate your light. Even a faint light is enough. You needn't consume yourself in a a moment. Give a little trickle over time all the time and those who are ready and worthy will be attracted who you can give more to or rather, the closer they come to you, the brighter the light will get . . .
Transform? Yes
Result: Already did
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation? How? When feeling aloof you help me let out a trickle of love. Remind me it doesn't have to be an all or nothing. Everyday? At L1.5 (can turn “volume” up or down later). Yes to all 21 days. Q4: Yes. Q5: Meter out the light to all. Assignment? Same.
Issue: Food Alignment
8/14-15/09-L3.3-Hd1-1G
I noted after nearly two months of improvement to the point that my feet where nearly straight (from a previous 45 degree angle out each way) that they started coming back in again. Fortunately, I caught it in time before it got too far. After some examination, I found that the original holodyne had reverted due to a more powerful hd that had arisen and reverted it. I again facilitated its transformation back, but first, I addressed this new holodyne.
Visual: A crab that pinches someone and gets scolded
Meaning: It is wrong to cause people pain
New Visual: A perfect virgin bride who someone tries to defile. She slaps them.
Meaning: Some people NEED pain to tell them they are in the wrong
Q1-4: Yes Q5: Slap those bitches!
Insight: You will notice I took a long break from doing trackings due to the intense nature of them. I discovered, however, that really all that is necessary to make them a success is being willing to show up and give what you have, even if that is just 5%. The universe will make up the difference. It is desire only that matters, not ability
Update: It is now 9/30 and my feet have pretty much stayed at the slightly outward state. If I had time each day or even week to "encourage" these hd's I'm sure they would be perfectly straight, but I have had higher priorities . . . Still this one has lasted pretty long and well for virtually no work since . . .
Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)
8/15/09-Hd1-L2.4-1G
Visual: A pumkin sits. A knife out of nowhere chops it in half forcefully. The knife is used as a spoon and the contents eaten (by whoever has the knife).
Meaning: There are times of starvation and lack which necessitate ding grotesque things.
Relation: Hardship and lack are more a part of life than ease and abundance - there is more cold in the universe than heat.
New: A woman (pretty and with hair to back in pony tail) wearing a camouflaged hat steps into a jeep and wields a gun to the driver.
Meaning: A broad character can handle any situation, even if it means being tough.
Result: Already transformed
Q1-4: Yes
Modification:
At this point, I discovered the importance of asking an Hd if it would stay in its mature state and not revert (as per the previous post), and so added a question for that. I also was wanting to up the intensity of this Hd since I was cold and wanting heat. This was a landmark discovery, that I have also now added to the standard questions. These are now asked as follows (and take the place of Q3):
"Are you willing to work in harmony and symphony with the other mature holodynes at the direction of my FPS and raise to level 10 intensity or lower to level 0 intensity based on what the situation demands and FPS requests?"
"Are you willing to stay in this mature state forever and never revert back to your immature state?"
Insight: Some Hd's consume energy (like digestion), taking it away from other processes, and some add energy (alternative food). Thus you want some at L10 all the time (almost) and some at a lower level to meet circumstances. The FPS is the "master mixer".
Update: As I look over this tracking on 9/30 I can't really recall it well and in fact it really doesn't even make sense to me, though I know it did at the time. BUT I did remember to use it though I forgot the visual. I would just say "heat holodyne what is your distance and volume" at which point I would ask it to come closer (if it was far away) and then up the volume if I needed warmer. On top of volume, distance appears to also be a factor. Usually they will drift 3-12 feet away and I will ask them gradually to come closer bit by bit. Once they hit zero I will raise them bit by bit. If you try to do it too much too fast, the mind doesn't have time to adjust and will largely block it from happening. Gradually allows it to adjust. If It isn't wanting to raise the volume, it is often my mind holding a pattern. I will go blank and ask it to just let me know what it would "feel like" at that volume. Once I sense it, I then ask if it will stay at that.
Issue: Body Heat (12 Hd's)
After freezing my ass all night, I decided to get out of bed at about 3:00AM and do a tracking to stay warm. Turns out there were three holodynes. As I did each one, and upped the volume, I could feel my body temp rising. By the time I had finished the last one, I was perfectly warm without the blanket that I had previously been freezing with!
9/30/09-Hd4-L4.3-2G (d)
Visual: A giant stalagmite of ice
Positive Intent: Strength
Meaning: I equated coldness with strength and power (i.e. independent of others)
New Visual: A tractor that is powered by a warm engine. The warmth makes it stronger!
Q1-4: Yes, Q5: Power up!
Hd5-L2.2-1G
Visual: An axle with two wheels, driving and turning here and there
Positive Intent: Maneuverability
Meaning: I related warmth and connection with something that would tie me to people and keep me from "maneuvering" in life.
New Visual: A surf board carving on the water
Meaning: The water represents people. People and relationships will propel me.
Q5: Have fun!
Hd6-L1.4-2G (m)
Visual: A single tooth
Positive Intent: Protection
Meaning: I used coldness as a barrier to people to keep them at a distance and "protect" myself.
New Visual: A jet that everyone loves piloted by a hero. It is kind to everyone and only uses bombs on those that need it rather then on everyone "just in case" (i.e. like the tooth).
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Audio Interview MP3 (downloadable)
I am working with a friend in LA that has given me permission to share a recording of the first consultation session we did. This session is a great overview of the process and I explain a little as we go. Enjoy! (and download for iPod listening later if you'd like! Right click and "Save Link As . . .")
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Saturday, September 12, 2009
Future Posts
To allow for greater interaction and privacy, future posts will be made in a Ning forum. I may still update these posts as I am inspired!
And yes, I know that these need editing :) If someone would like to volunteer or do so in exchange for a consultation session, that would be marvelous!
May you reach your fullest potential!
-Ryan
And yes, I know that these need editing :) If someone would like to volunteer or do so in exchange for a consultation session, that would be marvelous!
May you reach your fullest potential!
-Ryan
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Holodynamics with Dr. Vernon Woolf
Interview of Dr. Woolf on the Broadband Learning Channel (Dec.1, 2005). For the full interview, click here
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Notice: Change of Integration Questions
From here on out, the "round table" question will be dropped (Q3), and the "help daily" (Q3) question will precede the "become one with" question.
Question 3 will instead take the first part of question 4 which is the personal aspect of assistance (physically) and expand it to include mentally, emotionally, and financially.
Thus:
Q1: Will you agree (1) to communicate openly with me and (2) help me achieve my full potential?
Q2: (1) Will you help me deal with old situations in more effective ways? (2) Will you help me daily? (3) Will you become one with me?
Q3: Will you help me physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and financially?
Q4: Will you help me in my relationships with others, socially and in the community? Will you help me maintain honesty and integrity? Will you help me universally to live in harmony with all live on the planet?
Q5: (1) Do you have any messages for me? (2) Any assignments? (3) Can you help me with ____ now?
Question 3 will instead take the first part of question 4 which is the personal aspect of assistance (physically) and expand it to include mentally, emotionally, and financially.
Thus:
Q1: Will you agree (1) to communicate openly with me and (2) help me achieve my full potential?
Q2: (1) Will you help me deal with old situations in more effective ways? (2) Will you help me daily? (3) Will you become one with me?
Q3: Will you help me physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and financially?
Q4: Will you help me in my relationships with others, socially and in the community? Will you help me maintain honesty and integrity? Will you help me universally to live in harmony with all live on the planet?
Q5: (1) Do you have any messages for me? (2) Any assignments? (3) Can you help me with ____ now?
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Foot Pain - Part 5
Name: P. V. (proxy)
Issue: Foot Pain (4 Hd's)
7/9,12/09-Hd5?-L4.3-1G
Visual: An astronaut is floating down in a parachute and lands (on the moon) and walks along in full moon gear and armor.
Meaning: The universe is a hostile place, you can survive it, but you must suit up in protective gear. You may at times even have to trudge the desolate moonscapes of life alone. Keep going.
Feelings: Sorrow, aloneness
Intent: Survival, protection
New Visual: A kayaker is floating down stream and comes to a waterfall. She sails over it gracefully and plunges into the water, popping up moments later unscathed.
Meaning: There are challenges in life, but these are easily maneuverable. Enjoy the journey and meet the challenges with grace. You are not alone, but a small part of a flowing universe.
Transform? One condition. That you love me (you, Ryan, love me, kayaker). Ryan: And if I say no you are going to continue to be miserable? Yes. Why would you do that? Why would you sabotage yourself because of my actions? Because I love you and when that love isn't reciprocated it hurts me. Why would I not reciprocate love? Do you think I'm inherently cruel? No. Then why not? I don't know. Well if it's not because I'm cruel, it must be because I don't understand, right? Maybe . . . What else could it be? I don't know. Well I don't either. Do you think there is a reason? Yes. We've named two, can you name a third? No. Is it possible that there is no third? Yes. If it was merely due to a misunderstanding, would you be sorry and sad? No. So then you really are sorry and sad for a reason that you are not even sure exists? Yes. Do you want to continue living that way? No . . . So then, will you transform whether I love you or not? Yes.
Result: Became diver with space suit, then a teddy bear who got suited in a wet suit and kayak and became P's guide on the river and went down waterfall first. Took some time for P to develop confidence, but eventually P became very confident in rapids. (15 min)
Q5: Swish it up!
Note: Pretty much all the trackings thus far have been strait forward, but this one still has me guessing. Since we didn't complete several, this could be a revisit on them, or it could be a new one that didn't make it into the initial count. At any rate, I didn't want to do all the work, so I had P. do one, but I wanted this as a backup in case nothing came up for her. Something did, but we never transformed it, so I went back and transformed this one. Is it the same? I don't know, but the following does have some striking similarities. I never told her about the above either, so what follows is completely original . . .
Name: P. V.
Issue: Foot pain (4 Hd's)
7/11/09-Hd5?-L4.4-1G
Visual: A red blog that radiates – a breaking heart, splintering and shattering
Why? Loosing something of value
Intent: wholeness, completeness, love
New Visual: A rose, same color (red) gives out sweetest fragrance when crushed. Sees again, only this time not crushed.
Transform? I think so . . .
A lengthy conversation ensued about how you know, who and what the holodyne is and whether it is us, and the difference between the conscious and subconscious and the role of the will.
INCOMPLETE
Issue: Foot Pain (4 Hd's)
7/9,12/09-Hd5?-L4.3-1G
Visual: An astronaut is floating down in a parachute and lands (on the moon) and walks along in full moon gear and armor.
Meaning: The universe is a hostile place, you can survive it, but you must suit up in protective gear. You may at times even have to trudge the desolate moonscapes of life alone. Keep going.
Feelings: Sorrow, aloneness
Intent: Survival, protection
New Visual: A kayaker is floating down stream and comes to a waterfall. She sails over it gracefully and plunges into the water, popping up moments later unscathed.
Meaning: There are challenges in life, but these are easily maneuverable. Enjoy the journey and meet the challenges with grace. You are not alone, but a small part of a flowing universe.
Transform? One condition. That you love me (you, Ryan, love me, kayaker). Ryan: And if I say no you are going to continue to be miserable? Yes. Why would you do that? Why would you sabotage yourself because of my actions? Because I love you and when that love isn't reciprocated it hurts me. Why would I not reciprocate love? Do you think I'm inherently cruel? No. Then why not? I don't know. Well if it's not because I'm cruel, it must be because I don't understand, right? Maybe . . . What else could it be? I don't know. Well I don't either. Do you think there is a reason? Yes. We've named two, can you name a third? No. Is it possible that there is no third? Yes. If it was merely due to a misunderstanding, would you be sorry and sad? No. So then you really are sorry and sad for a reason that you are not even sure exists? Yes. Do you want to continue living that way? No . . . So then, will you transform whether I love you or not? Yes.
Result: Became diver with space suit, then a teddy bear who got suited in a wet suit and kayak and became P's guide on the river and went down waterfall first. Took some time for P to develop confidence, but eventually P became very confident in rapids. (15 min)
Q5: Swish it up!
Note: Pretty much all the trackings thus far have been strait forward, but this one still has me guessing. Since we didn't complete several, this could be a revisit on them, or it could be a new one that didn't make it into the initial count. At any rate, I didn't want to do all the work, so I had P. do one, but I wanted this as a backup in case nothing came up for her. Something did, but we never transformed it, so I went back and transformed this one. Is it the same? I don't know, but the following does have some striking similarities. I never told her about the above either, so what follows is completely original . . .
Name: P. V.
Issue: Foot pain (4 Hd's)
7/11/09-Hd5?-L4.4-1G
Visual: A red blog that radiates – a breaking heart, splintering and shattering
Why? Loosing something of value
Intent: wholeness, completeness, love
New Visual: A rose, same color (red) gives out sweetest fragrance when crushed. Sees again, only this time not crushed.
Transform? I think so . . .
A lengthy conversation ensued about how you know, who and what the holodyne is and whether it is us, and the difference between the conscious and subconscious and the role of the will.
INCOMPLETE
Update: Brainwave Restructuring
July 12
While I've noticed every tracking I do shift the level of consciousness and thinking I have dramatically at the time, and then fade into a kind of general undertone, I'm now starting to notice a collective affect of all these transformations. My thoughts are becoming very coherent and are starting to resonate. It's really pretty wild. It's like I had this multitude of thoughts going off all at once and since many of them were saying different things (largely subconsciously), there was both a chaos and a canceling affect. Now I sense these waves are all coming together to create one intense coherent pattern. I'm in the middle of Lynne McTaggart's book “The Intention Experiment” (highly recommended) and it talks about this very thing and all the scientific research that has been done on brain wave patterns among those who meditate and how they are much more uniform and coherent (Chapter 5). I believe I'm getting the same affect of years of meditation with much less effort. Rather then focusing on and empowering a mature holodyne over many decades to overcome the immature ones, I am simply transforming the immature ones to resonate with the mature ones!
While I've noticed every tracking I do shift the level of consciousness and thinking I have dramatically at the time, and then fade into a kind of general undertone, I'm now starting to notice a collective affect of all these transformations. My thoughts are becoming very coherent and are starting to resonate. It's really pretty wild. It's like I had this multitude of thoughts going off all at once and since many of them were saying different things (largely subconsciously), there was both a chaos and a canceling affect. Now I sense these waves are all coming together to create one intense coherent pattern. I'm in the middle of Lynne McTaggart's book “The Intention Experiment” (highly recommended) and it talks about this very thing and all the scientific research that has been done on brain wave patterns among those who meditate and how they are much more uniform and coherent (Chapter 5). I believe I'm getting the same affect of years of meditation with much less effort. Rather then focusing on and empowering a mature holodyne over many decades to overcome the immature ones, I am simply transforming the immature ones to resonate with the mature ones!
Blood - Part 3
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Blood (4 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd4-L2.4-1G
Visual: A squirrel scampers around, then pauses, looking for possible predators, then scampers again and pauses.
Meaning: Life has threats – keep a careful eye out for them.
Feelings: Underlying fear
New: A parachute floats gracefully down from the sky.
Meaning: You may be surrounded by apparent dangers, but trust the parachute – the real life odds of a parachute ever failing are minuscule – the odds of God failing are zero. Your fears will never come to pass – let them go.
Transform;? Yes
Results: Already transformed
Q1: Yes. Full potential? Meaning? When I have fears you remind me to trust. Yes.
Q2: Old Situations? Meaning? Any fear that pops up you will help me release . . . Yes. One with? Meaning? I will automatically have no fears. Yes.
Q3: Yes. Help everyday? Meaning? I have zero fear. Yes.
Q4: Physically? Meaning? Since I have no fears I can have joy – will you give me joy? Yes! Relationship with others? How would that look? I let go of fears in terms of outcomes and simply trust that I cannot be harmed. Wow, the phrase is worth repeating: I cannot be harmed! Yes. Community? Look like? You remind me that even a whole community cannot harm me. (I like it!). Yes. Universally? Yes.
Q5: Trust
Issue: Blood (4 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd4-L2.4-1G
Visual: A squirrel scampers around, then pauses, looking for possible predators, then scampers again and pauses.
Meaning: Life has threats – keep a careful eye out for them.
Feelings: Underlying fear
New: A parachute floats gracefully down from the sky.
Meaning: You may be surrounded by apparent dangers, but trust the parachute – the real life odds of a parachute ever failing are minuscule – the odds of God failing are zero. Your fears will never come to pass – let them go.
Transform;? Yes
Results: Already transformed
Q1: Yes. Full potential? Meaning? When I have fears you remind me to trust. Yes.
Q2: Old Situations? Meaning? Any fear that pops up you will help me release . . . Yes. One with? Meaning? I will automatically have no fears. Yes.
Q3: Yes. Help everyday? Meaning? I have zero fear. Yes.
Q4: Physically? Meaning? Since I have no fears I can have joy – will you give me joy? Yes! Relationship with others? How would that look? I let go of fears in terms of outcomes and simply trust that I cannot be harmed. Wow, the phrase is worth repeating: I cannot be harmed! Yes. Community? Look like? You remind me that even a whole community cannot harm me. (I like it!). Yes. Universally? Yes.
Q5: Trust
Nails / Protection - Part 3
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Nails / Protection(5 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd3-L2.4-1G
Visual: A giant shark swims around; after several passes, it turns abruptly straight toward me and CHOMP, it's over.
Feelings: Generally feel safe around the shark but recognize possible danger – when the worst comes true, it's a surprise.
Intent: Safety, peace, fearlessness, excitement
New: A young chick is out pecking the ground for bugs, but stays close to mother and the rest – it recognizes its vulnerability and so stays in a safe range.
Meaning: Recognize your vulnerable weaknesses and invite protection to compensate. Don't presumptuously assume that you are unharmable. Ego is the #1 killer. Sharks don't care if you're a genius and hawks don't care if a baby chick is cute.
Transform? Yes
Result: Willing, but there is an immense amount of ego blocking the transformation. Transformed (5 min).
Q1-4: Yes
Q5: Be a chick!
Total Time: 29 Minutes
Issue: Nails / Protection(5 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd3-L2.4-1G
Visual: A giant shark swims around; after several passes, it turns abruptly straight toward me and CHOMP, it's over.
Feelings: Generally feel safe around the shark but recognize possible danger – when the worst comes true, it's a surprise.
Intent: Safety, peace, fearlessness, excitement
New: A young chick is out pecking the ground for bugs, but stays close to mother and the rest – it recognizes its vulnerability and so stays in a safe range.
Meaning: Recognize your vulnerable weaknesses and invite protection to compensate. Don't presumptuously assume that you are unharmable. Ego is the #1 killer. Sharks don't care if you're a genius and hawks don't care if a baby chick is cute.
Transform? Yes
Result: Willing, but there is an immense amount of ego blocking the transformation. Transformed (5 min).
Q1-4: Yes
Q5: Be a chick!
Total Time: 29 Minutes
Hydration / Mortality - Part 4
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Hydration (10 Hd's)
7/18/09-Hd5-L2.4-2G(d)
Visual: A red fire hydrant sits quietly. Then all of a sudden a cap pops off and it begins gushing Someone tries to put it on, but it immediately pops off again, gushing all over. This repeats.
Feelings: Frustration, anger
Meaning: Some things in life can never be changed – you can try and may make some progress, but you are fighting a loosing battle.
Intent: Do what's right, fix things, solve problems
New Visual: A problem dog that is eventually trained to behave.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (10 seconds)
Q1: Full potential? Look like? I am someone that has tremendous faith in people and circumstances that appear impossible. I believe that anybody and anything can be changed. Anything is possible. Yes.
Q2: Old belief? E. g. I feel that the SDA church is unchangeable. I think that people are who they are and can't be changed – just leave them be – you are fighting a force like gravity. New belief? It's a force, yes, but it can be steered, like a car in a new direction – trainable. Yes. One with? Meaning? I automatically see people as very easily changeable. Yes.
Q3: Yes.
Q4: Yes. Financially? Meaning? Easy to retrain people. Yes. Spiritually? Meaning? A relief people are not “stuck” in unconscious mode! Yes.
Q5: I see the dog running around ready to please . . . Assignment? Create the website!
Issue: Hydration (10 Hd's)
7/18/09-Hd5-L2.4-2G(d)
Visual: A red fire hydrant sits quietly. Then all of a sudden a cap pops off and it begins gushing Someone tries to put it on, but it immediately pops off again, gushing all over. This repeats.
Feelings: Frustration, anger
Meaning: Some things in life can never be changed – you can try and may make some progress, but you are fighting a loosing battle.
Intent: Do what's right, fix things, solve problems
New Visual: A problem dog that is eventually trained to behave.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (10 seconds)
Q1: Full potential? Look like? I am someone that has tremendous faith in people and circumstances that appear impossible. I believe that anybody and anything can be changed. Anything is possible. Yes.
Q2: Old belief? E. g. I feel that the SDA church is unchangeable. I think that people are who they are and can't be changed – just leave them be – you are fighting a force like gravity. New belief? It's a force, yes, but it can be steered, like a car in a new direction – trainable. Yes. One with? Meaning? I automatically see people as very easily changeable. Yes.
Q3: Yes.
Q4: Yes. Financially? Meaning? Easy to retrain people. Yes. Spiritually? Meaning? A relief people are not “stuck” in unconscious mode! Yes.
Q5: I see the dog running around ready to please . . . Assignment? Create the website!
Excess Sleep for J.V.
Name: J.F.V. (proxy)
Issue: Sleep (3 Hd's)
7/18/09-Hd1-L4.5-1G
Visual: A drum is being beat with sticks
Meaning: Life marches on and is always pushing you to keep up and keep moving
Relation: Take a rest and escape from the hassles and rushing
Intent: Peace, to be unmolested and unforced
New Visual: A flute is played
Meaning: Life is a beautiful musical score being played. Why would you not want to be a part of it and awake to enjoy it as much as possible?
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (5 min). Ended with J. in hospital almost dead and music bringing her back to life and her dancing to it!
Q5: Dance to life!
Hd2-L5.5-2G(m)
Visual: An elephant plodding along – alone – it trumpets every once in a while – then keeps plodding. It is sad that it is so alone.
Relation: Sleep allows one to forget their aloneness.
Intent: To be yourself, uniqueness, companionship
New: A marching band
Meaning: Many band members have a unique instrument – there is only one bass drum for instance – and while they are unique, they are not alone – they play in orchestra with all the other unique instruments.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1:30 Hours)
Q5: Play on!
Total Time: 1:50 Hours
Note: While doing this adjustment I noted two distinct regions of the brain where images could come from, one is the upper region in the brain and it involved a heightened sensing which took work and concentration, the other was in the lower regions of the brain and seemed automatic and put me into a kind of sleep / daze / paralysis. Obviously the former was the better of the two, the latter seemed as though it wasn't accurate at all, but rather was throwing out entirely fabricated images with little to zero relation. Don't let this lower “automatic” section hijack your trackings!!
Hd3-L4.5-1G
Visual: Someone is reaching the top of an escalator. They are apprehensive – how do you get off? This seems dangerous . . .
Feelings: Nervous, lots of people watching, feeling forced into something they don't like or want to do, being pushed.
Intent: Safety, being in control, not being forced, being free, choice, not being judged.
Relation to Sleep: An escape from others demands and those of life.
New Visual:
Part 1 - A chocolate cake with a cherry on top is served to J. Mmmmm. She takes a bite in great expectation. Then violently coughs and sputters it out. It has been tainted with shards of glass. WARNING Hd
Meaning: What you think is good for you may not be and what you detest as negative may in fact be a positive for you. You aren't as wise as you think you are.
Message: Voluntarily accept what comes to you as what is best for you – you may not like it but you can turn any experience into something beneficial if you really want to. Realize that you have attracted your current circumstances because these are what you need to grow and become a better person.
Part 2 – The girl not accepts and eats what everyone else is and lets go of her desires for what looks good.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (2 hours)
Q5: (1) Be careful! (2) Be very careful
7/19/09 – Update: Next morning J. was up at 6:50 when I came over which I've never seen since I've been here. She was very happy and did some nice things for me which she had never done before (brought me food). Noticed that she took control of parenting rather then letting the child control the relationship (if fussy, put in crib rather then pandering).
7/27/09 – Update: The above affect has seemed to stick somewhat as both she and her husband have been up earlier then usual, but I'm guessing since they are living in a very close and intimate community setting there is some quantum entanglement involved that is keeping this from fully manifesting. Also, I only did a transformation, there was no special integration done.
Issue: Sleep (3 Hd's)
7/18/09-Hd1-L4.5-1G
Visual: A drum is being beat with sticks
Meaning: Life marches on and is always pushing you to keep up and keep moving
Relation: Take a rest and escape from the hassles and rushing
Intent: Peace, to be unmolested and unforced
New Visual: A flute is played
Meaning: Life is a beautiful musical score being played. Why would you not want to be a part of it and awake to enjoy it as much as possible?
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (5 min). Ended with J. in hospital almost dead and music bringing her back to life and her dancing to it!
Q5: Dance to life!
Hd2-L5.5-2G(m)
Visual: An elephant plodding along – alone – it trumpets every once in a while – then keeps plodding. It is sad that it is so alone.
Relation: Sleep allows one to forget their aloneness.
Intent: To be yourself, uniqueness, companionship
New: A marching band
Meaning: Many band members have a unique instrument – there is only one bass drum for instance – and while they are unique, they are not alone – they play in orchestra with all the other unique instruments.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1:30 Hours)
Q5: Play on!
Total Time: 1:50 Hours
Note: While doing this adjustment I noted two distinct regions of the brain where images could come from, one is the upper region in the brain and it involved a heightened sensing which took work and concentration, the other was in the lower regions of the brain and seemed automatic and put me into a kind of sleep / daze / paralysis. Obviously the former was the better of the two, the latter seemed as though it wasn't accurate at all, but rather was throwing out entirely fabricated images with little to zero relation. Don't let this lower “automatic” section hijack your trackings!!
Hd3-L4.5-1G
Visual: Someone is reaching the top of an escalator. They are apprehensive – how do you get off? This seems dangerous . . .
Feelings: Nervous, lots of people watching, feeling forced into something they don't like or want to do, being pushed.
Intent: Safety, being in control, not being forced, being free, choice, not being judged.
Relation to Sleep: An escape from others demands and those of life.
New Visual:
Part 1 - A chocolate cake with a cherry on top is served to J. Mmmmm. She takes a bite in great expectation. Then violently coughs and sputters it out. It has been tainted with shards of glass. WARNING Hd
Meaning: What you think is good for you may not be and what you detest as negative may in fact be a positive for you. You aren't as wise as you think you are.
Message: Voluntarily accept what comes to you as what is best for you – you may not like it but you can turn any experience into something beneficial if you really want to. Realize that you have attracted your current circumstances because these are what you need to grow and become a better person.
Part 2 – The girl not accepts and eats what everyone else is and lets go of her desires for what looks good.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (2 hours)
Q5: (1) Be careful! (2) Be very careful
7/19/09 – Update: Next morning J. was up at 6:50 when I came over which I've never seen since I've been here. She was very happy and did some nice things for me which she had never done before (brought me food). Noticed that she took control of parenting rather then letting the child control the relationship (if fussy, put in crib rather then pandering).
7/27/09 – Update: The above affect has seemed to stick somewhat as both she and her husband have been up earlier then usual, but I'm guessing since they are living in a very close and intimate community setting there is some quantum entanglement involved that is keeping this from fully manifesting. Also, I only did a transformation, there was no special integration done.
Blood - Part 3
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Blood (4 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd4-L2.4-1G
Visual: A squirrel scampers around, then pauses, looking for possible predators, then scampers again and pauses.
Meaning: Life has threats – keep a careful eye out for them.
Feelings: Underlying fear
New: A parachute floats gracefully down from the sky.
Meaning: You may be surrounded by apparent dangers, but trust the parachute – the real life odds of a parachute ever failing are minuscule – the odds of God failing are zero. Your fears will never come to pass – let them go.
Transform;? Yes
Results: Already transformed
Q1: Yes. Full potential? Meaning? When I have fears you remind me to trust. Yes.
Q2: Old Situations? Meaning? Any fear that pops up you will help me release . . . Yes. One with? Meaning? I will automatically have no fears. Yes.
Q3: Yes. Help everyday? Meaning? I have zero fear. Yes.
Q4: Physically? Meaning? Since I have no fears I can have joy – will you give me joy? Yes! Relationship with others? How would that look? I let go of fears in terms of outcomes and simply trust that I cannot be harmed. Wow, the phrase is worth repeating: I cannot be harmed! Yes. Community? Look like? You remind me that even a whole community cannot harm me. (I like it!). Yes. Universally? Yes.
Q5: Trust
Issue: Blood (4 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd4-L2.4-1G
Visual: A squirrel scampers around, then pauses, looking for possible predators, then scampers again and pauses.
Meaning: Life has threats – keep a careful eye out for them.
Feelings: Underlying fear
New: A parachute floats gracefully down from the sky.
Meaning: You may be surrounded by apparent dangers, but trust the parachute – the real life odds of a parachute ever failing are minuscule – the odds of God failing are zero. Your fears will never come to pass – let them go.
Transform;? Yes
Results: Already transformed
Q1: Yes. Full potential? Meaning? When I have fears you remind me to trust. Yes.
Q2: Old Situations? Meaning? Any fear that pops up you will help me release . . . Yes. One with? Meaning? I will automatically have no fears. Yes.
Q3: Yes. Help everyday? Meaning? I have zero fear. Yes.
Q4: Physically? Meaning? Since I have no fears I can have joy – will you give me joy? Yes! Relationship with others? How would that look? I let go of fears in terms of outcomes and simply trust that I cannot be harmed. Wow, the phrase is worth repeating: I cannot be harmed! Yes. Community? Look like? You remind me that even a whole community cannot harm me. (I like it!). Yes. Universally? Yes.
Q5: Trust
Nails / Protection - Part 3
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Nails / Protection(5 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd3-L2.4-1G
Visual: A giant shark swims around; after several passes, it turns abruptly straight toward me and CHOMP, it's over.
Feelings: Generally feel safe around the shark but recognize possible danger – when the worst comes true, it's a surprise.
Intent: Safety, peace, fearlessness, excitement
New: A young chick is out pecking the ground for bugs, but stays close to mother and the rest – it recognizes its vulnerability and so stays in a safe range.
Meaning: Recognize your vulnerable weaknesses and invite protection to compensate. Don't presumptuously assume that you are unharmable. Ego is the #1 killer. Sharks don't care if you're a genius and hawks don't care if a baby chick is cute.
Transform? Yes
Result: Willing, but there is an immense amount of ego blocking the transformation. Transformed (5 min).
Q1-4: Yes
Q5: Be a chick!
Total Time: 29 Minutes
Issue: Nails / Protection(5 Hd's)
7/14/09-Hd3-L2.4-1G
Visual: A giant shark swims around; after several passes, it turns abruptly straight toward me and CHOMP, it's over.
Feelings: Generally feel safe around the shark but recognize possible danger – when the worst comes true, it's a surprise.
Intent: Safety, peace, fearlessness, excitement
New: A young chick is out pecking the ground for bugs, but stays close to mother and the rest – it recognizes its vulnerability and so stays in a safe range.
Meaning: Recognize your vulnerable weaknesses and invite protection to compensate. Don't presumptuously assume that you are unharmable. Ego is the #1 killer. Sharks don't care if you're a genius and hawks don't care if a baby chick is cute.
Transform? Yes
Result: Willing, but there is an immense amount of ego blocking the transformation. Transformed (5 min).
Q1-4: Yes
Q5: Be a chick!
Total Time: 29 Minutes
Hydration / Mortality - Part 4
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Hydration (10 Hd's)
7/18/09-Hd5-L2.4-2G(d)
Visual: A red fire hydrant sits quietly. Then all of a sudden a cap pops off and it begins gushing Someone tries to put it on, but it immediately pops off again, gushing all over. This repeats.
Feelings: Frustration, anger
Meaning: Some things in life can never be changed – you can try and may make some progress, but you are fighting a loosing battle.
Intent: Do what's right, fix things, solve problems
New Visual: A problem dog that is eventually trained to behave.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (10 seconds)
Q1: Full potential? Look like? I am someone that has tremendous faith in people and circumstances that appear impossible. I believe that anybody and anything can be changed. Anything is possible. Yes.
Q2: Old belief? E. g. I feel that the SDA church is unchangeable. I think that people are who they are and can't be changed – just leave them be – you are fighting a force like gravity. New belief? It's a force, yes, but it can be steered, like a car in a new direction – trainable. Yes. One with? Meaning? I automatically see people as very easily changeable. Yes.
Q3: Yes.
Q4: Yes. Financially? Meaning? Easy to retrain people. Yes. Spiritually? Meaning? A relief people are not “stuck” in unconscious mode! Yes.
Q5: I see the dog running around ready to please . . . Assignment? Create the website!
Issue: Hydration (10 Hd's)
7/18/09-Hd5-L2.4-2G(d)
Visual: A red fire hydrant sits quietly. Then all of a sudden a cap pops off and it begins gushing Someone tries to put it on, but it immediately pops off again, gushing all over. This repeats.
Feelings: Frustration, anger
Meaning: Some things in life can never be changed – you can try and may make some progress, but you are fighting a loosing battle.
Intent: Do what's right, fix things, solve problems
New Visual: A problem dog that is eventually trained to behave.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (10 seconds)
Q1: Full potential? Look like? I am someone that has tremendous faith in people and circumstances that appear impossible. I believe that anybody and anything can be changed. Anything is possible. Yes.
Q2: Old belief? E. g. I feel that the SDA church is unchangeable. I think that people are who they are and can't be changed – just leave them be – you are fighting a force like gravity. New belief? It's a force, yes, but it can be steered, like a car in a new direction – trainable. Yes. One with? Meaning? I automatically see people as very easily changeable. Yes.
Q3: Yes.
Q4: Yes. Financially? Meaning? Easy to retrain people. Yes. Spiritually? Meaning? A relief people are not “stuck” in unconscious mode! Yes.
Q5: I see the dog running around ready to please . . . Assignment? Create the website!
Update: Brainwave Restructuring
July 12
While I've noticed every tracking I do shift the level of consciousness and thinking I have dramatically at the time, and then fade into a kind of general undertone, I'm now starting to notice a collective affect of all these transformations. My thoughts are becoming very coherent and are starting to resonate. It's really pretty wild. It's like I had this multitude of thoughts going off all at once and since many of them were saying different things (largely subconsciously), there was both a chaos and a canceling affect. Now I sense these waves are all coming together to create one intense coherent pattern. I'm in the middle of Lynne McTaggart's book “The Intention Experiment” (highly recommended) and it talks about this very thing and all the scientific research that has been done on brain wave patterns among those who meditate and how they are much more uniform and coherent (Chapter 5). I believe I'm getting the same affect of years of meditation with much less effort. Rather than focusing on and empowering a mature holodyne over many decades to overcome the immature ones, I am simply transforming the immature ones to resonate with the mature ones!
While I've noticed every tracking I do shift the level of consciousness and thinking I have dramatically at the time, and then fade into a kind of general undertone, I'm now starting to notice a collective affect of all these transformations. My thoughts are becoming very coherent and are starting to resonate. It's really pretty wild. It's like I had this multitude of thoughts going off all at once and since many of them were saying different things (largely subconsciously), there was both a chaos and a canceling affect. Now I sense these waves are all coming together to create one intense coherent pattern. I'm in the middle of Lynne McTaggart's book “The Intention Experiment” (highly recommended) and it talks about this very thing and all the scientific research that has been done on brain wave patterns among those who meditate and how they are much more uniform and coherent (Chapter 5). I believe I'm getting the same affect of years of meditation with much less effort. Rather than focusing on and empowering a mature holodyne over many decades to overcome the immature ones, I am simply transforming the immature ones to resonate with the mature ones!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Seeing the World as Cruel
Name: Summer Camp Student (proxy) and Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Seeing the world as cruel (1Hd)
7/10/09-Hd1-L4-1G
Visual: A ball with large metal spikes all over it
Understanding: The world is cruel
Positive Intent: Truth, softness, love, forgiveness
New Visual: A bright vivid rainbow boldly proclaims it colors. Then some kind of cold weather comes along and freezes it. All the colors become shades of blue.
Meaning: The world is truly a beautiful place. It has been taken hostage by an outside force (sin / ignorance) but while this has changed its appearance, it has not changed its innate nature. It is still a beautiful, multicolor rainbow. It just has been iced over so you can no longer see that.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (mostly had already)
Note: Interestingly, what I adjusted this holodyne, I sensed a rather large shift inside myself. Usually when I do trackings for others, I sense a shift, but it is largely external. This lead me to sense that this might be a holodyne that I shared with this person. Possibly the reason I felt attracted to this person in the first place – we shared a common view that needed adjusted. I could feel his pain because it was my pain. I checked and found this to indeed be shared, but at a lower intensity for me (L1.8).
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation? When you see a problem in someone realize you are just seeing ice build up on the outside, blocking your view from the true them. One? Meaning? You become a part of my vision, giving me faith in the beauty beyond what I see. Yes. Q3-4: Yes. Q5: Love (as in the verb)
Issue: Seeing the world as cruel (1Hd)
7/10/09-Hd1-L4-1G
Visual: A ball with large metal spikes all over it
Understanding: The world is cruel
Positive Intent: Truth, softness, love, forgiveness
New Visual: A bright vivid rainbow boldly proclaims it colors. Then some kind of cold weather comes along and freezes it. All the colors become shades of blue.
Meaning: The world is truly a beautiful place. It has been taken hostage by an outside force (sin / ignorance) but while this has changed its appearance, it has not changed its innate nature. It is still a beautiful, multicolor rainbow. It just has been iced over so you can no longer see that.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (mostly had already)
Note: Interestingly, what I adjusted this holodyne, I sensed a rather large shift inside myself. Usually when I do trackings for others, I sense a shift, but it is largely external. This lead me to sense that this might be a holodyne that I shared with this person. Possibly the reason I felt attracted to this person in the first place – we shared a common view that needed adjusted. I could feel his pain because it was my pain. I checked and found this to indeed be shared, but at a lower intensity for me (L1.8).
Q1: Yes. Q2: Old situation? When you see a problem in someone realize you are just seeing ice build up on the outside, blocking your view from the true them. One? Meaning? You become a part of my vision, giving me faith in the beauty beyond what I see. Yes. Q3-4: Yes. Q5: Love (as in the verb)
Hydration / Mortality - Part 3
Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Hydration / mortality (10 Hd's)
7/10/09-Hd4-L2.4-1G
Visual: A donut with chocolate frosting sits there, tantalizing, then it starts flipping. A chocolate ship cookie does the same. A chef appears. He serves the donut to a customer (me) and I raise it to my lips in expectation of the goodness. I swallow wrong or something and cough and sputter.
Belief: I don't deserve good things
Intent: Humility, selflessness, avoiding greed, to experience the best of life.
New Visual: I see the Eiffel tower, then notice a bird on top. At first, I think it's an owl, but it seems kind of like an eagle. As it flies off it becomes an eagle – a golden eagle.
Meaning: You can sit atop of worldly goods like an owl, or soar above them like an eagle. Which do you prefer?
New Belief: You already have the best things!
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (10 seconds)
Q1: Yes. Full potential? Meaning? When I see something I want that I think I “can't have” - I soar above it – I recognize that I neither need it nor would having it serve me – it would affirm that I am incomplete in myself.
Q2: Yes. One with? Meaning? I automatically am satisfied with material poverty recognizing richness as what you can live without rather then all the things you must have to live.
Q3: Sit with at round table? Meaning? When I have a decision to make, you remind me that material considerations are of the very least concern. Everyday? Meaning? I soar above the desires that pop up for things that I see. I let those be a reminder to rise higher. Example? A Honda hybrid drives by and the wish to have one pops up. Why do I want one? I think I would be more powerful. Why? I could travel lots of places and see lots of things. And? I would therefore become expanded as a person. Would you not be more powerful if you could achieve this same thing without going anywhere? Yes.
Q4: Physically? How? I focus on internal completeness and let go of the idea of needing something external to satisfy (e. g. water). Yes. Relationship with others? How? I let go of wanting, hoping, and expecting others to do things that will give me satisfaction. Yes. Community? How? Letting go of the belief that the world must change in order for me to be satisfied. Yes.
Q5: Rise above your desires and simply be – enjoy what is. You miss much enjoyment in the present for hopes in a future that can only be happy by enjoying the present. Let go and live now!
Issue: Hydration / mortality (10 Hd's)
7/10/09-Hd4-L2.4-1G
Visual: A donut with chocolate frosting sits there, tantalizing, then it starts flipping. A chocolate ship cookie does the same. A chef appears. He serves the donut to a customer (me) and I raise it to my lips in expectation of the goodness. I swallow wrong or something and cough and sputter.
Belief: I don't deserve good things
Intent: Humility, selflessness, avoiding greed, to experience the best of life.
New Visual: I see the Eiffel tower, then notice a bird on top. At first, I think it's an owl, but it seems kind of like an eagle. As it flies off it becomes an eagle – a golden eagle.
Meaning: You can sit atop of worldly goods like an owl, or soar above them like an eagle. Which do you prefer?
New Belief: You already have the best things!
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (10 seconds)
Q1: Yes. Full potential? Meaning? When I see something I want that I think I “can't have” - I soar above it – I recognize that I neither need it nor would having it serve me – it would affirm that I am incomplete in myself.
Q2: Yes. One with? Meaning? I automatically am satisfied with material poverty recognizing richness as what you can live without rather then all the things you must have to live.
Q3: Sit with at round table? Meaning? When I have a decision to make, you remind me that material considerations are of the very least concern. Everyday? Meaning? I soar above the desires that pop up for things that I see. I let those be a reminder to rise higher. Example? A Honda hybrid drives by and the wish to have one pops up. Why do I want one? I think I would be more powerful. Why? I could travel lots of places and see lots of things. And? I would therefore become expanded as a person. Would you not be more powerful if you could achieve this same thing without going anywhere? Yes.
Q4: Physically? How? I focus on internal completeness and let go of the idea of needing something external to satisfy (e. g. water). Yes. Relationship with others? How? I let go of wanting, hoping, and expecting others to do things that will give me satisfaction. Yes. Community? How? Letting go of the belief that the world must change in order for me to be satisfied. Yes.
Q5: Rise above your desires and simply be – enjoy what is. You miss much enjoyment in the present for hopes in a future that can only be happy by enjoying the present. Let go and live now!
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