Name: P.V. (proxy)
Issue: Foot Pain (4 Hd's)
6/23/09-Hd4-L5-1G
Visual: I single Domino is standing. As it is standing, it begins to wobble. It tips over and begins an immense avalanche of Dominoes in strings and designs that circle the world.
Intention: Sensitivity, recognition
Problem: One small problem can be turned into an overwhelming problem, creating a crushing emotional load out of a minuscule issue.
New Visual: A multi-color top, with wonderful rainbow swirls is spinning and moving here and there as it spins.
Significance: As the terrain changes that the top is moving across, the direction and location of the top change, and yet, it doesn't stop the top from spinning or even slow it down. Thus, it is sensitive to its environment, yet not changed itself by it.
INCOMPLETE
8/1/09 - Update: Though we never completed this transformation, P.V. remarked to me how helpful this imagery was in a particular circumstance. Overall for the foot pain, P.V. stated (in an email dated 7/29/09):
"Seriously, the new way of looking at things really is very helpful, especially today as it's our 36th. God is good--all the time, and I thank Him and you!" - P.V.
Name: P.V.
Issue: Butterflies in stomach / intestinal uneasiness (1 hd)
6/23/09-Hd1-L5-1G
Visual: A cross with a snake on it
Intention: To bear the pain / suffer for the sake of right
New Visual: An ark with angels and a mercy seat
Representing: Mediation, the pain has been born
Transform? Yes. Complete? Yes
Q1-4:Yes, Q5: Isaiah 41:10
Assignment: Test me!
Name: P.V.
Issue: Foot Pain (4 Hd's)
6/27/09-Hd3-L6-1G
Incorrect Visual: Brown – Big square. Changes colors. Purple, orange and brown.
Was focused on “seeing” and not on sensing. Recommended not to be so focused on the self (seeing), let go of trying. Let it enter the imagination. You are not in control of what comes up, but you are in control of how you respond (accept / reject). Pretend you are dreaming. Have that same state of “letting go”.
Correct Visual: Up two stories looking out a window (the room was empty, but she felt safe, but not happy), at the beach and seeing D. Had his back to her. He was on the beach and walking away. Alone.
Feelings: Loneliness, feeling abandoned, empty, extreme sadness, sorrow, overwhelming loss, saying good-bye to what could have been, letting go, an internal ache, a longing,
Note: Didn't feel any of the feelings while viewing, but once it dawned on her what they meant, they overwhelmed.
Positive Intent: Completeness, companionship, shared joys, shared sorrows, loving and being loved. Ultimately wanting completeness. Satisfaction.
Relation: Could be creating physical pain to block emotional pain. In foot because its the furthest place to put it. Put it as far away as possible.
New Visual: Faucet with pure clean clear water coming out, like a full stream being turned on full blast. (Maybe P turned it on? Didn't see anyone else turn it on). Coming from a good source.
7/1/09
Representing: Satisfaction. Completeness, can never run out. As much as needed. Whereas D. can run out (come home and be tired and want to sleep). Noted similarities between story of woman at the well with Jesus.
Took a while to see how new visual fulfilled all the intentions of the old. Was able to see mentally, but didn't feel it. Decided to try transformation anyway.
Transform? Yes.
Result: Became ocean, then sunshine, then ended in a shower of water coming out a shower head. (12 minutes)
Feelings: Much joy! Singing: I've got a river of life flowing out of me . . .
Name: J.V. (proxy)
Issue: Throwing a fit to get attention from mom (2 Hds)
6/28/09
Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: Two Marbles rolling along. They both roll along together, occasionally touching. The on marble speeds in front of the other and blocks it from moving. No matter how hard the other marble tries to get around it, it rolls into its way. Block . . . block . . . block.
Representing: Mom and J. with J. blocking mom
Intent: Attention, recognition, appreciation, wants to be loved
Why? To establish identity
Why? Not sure of own identity
Ultimate Intent: To know self
New Visual: A kite soaring up in the air, free and independent
Significance: The kite is flying high above other people, soaring in its own world and being moved by the wind (spirit). It is living and moving completely independently of others and yet it is held in place by mom and dad (via the string).
Willing to transform? Already did
Hd2-L3-2G(d)
Visual: A sawmill cutting wood - “bzzzz . . .bzzzz”
Intention: To make something
Relation: There is a desire to make something but if there is nothing positive that can be made, it will make something negative (trouble). The saw is both creative and destructive.
New Visual: A seagull, strutting around and flying around. It flies then lands and walks, then flies. At one point it fights to try and steal a fish from another animal, but is unsuccessful. Though unsuccessful, it is still content.
Meaning: Seagull is seeking to live out its life as it wishes, but if it is thwarted, it doesn't get upset, it just tries elsewhere, all the while contented.
Transform? Already did
Name: E.V. (proxy)
Issue: Needing excess sleep (4 Hd's)
6/29/09-Hd2-L5-1G
Visual: A happy yellow rubber duck is sitting in some water. Then someone unplugs the drain and it creates a funnel of swirling water which sucks the duck over top of it. The duck doesn't get sucked down, but floats on top of it, spinning rapidly in circles, getting dizzy.
Feelings: Helpless, a victim of life, others, and circumstances beyond one's control.
Relation: Sleep is an escape from victimization.
Intention: Control of own life, self-empowerment, immunity, bulletproofness
New Visual: Two pieces of bread or sitting in a at oaster and pushed down, popping up a second later as toast
Significance: Thin of yourself as the bread. Someone want to do you harm and “puts heat on you”. Their intentions might be evil, but the heat only makes you tougher.
Transform? Yes
Result: Images of being dunked and held under water, cartoon images (Tasmanian Devil, Road-Runner, etc.), playing baseball images, early school images, etc. Finally a toaster . . . (12 Minutes)
Update 6/30: I did this tracking for a friend without their knowledge of it. They went to bed at 11:30 and woke up at 5:30 and "couldn't go back to sleep because of the light" (the usual is 7:00 or so). I've never heard or noticed they had this problem before. They had no sign of tiredness like they did the day before when they had slept much later!
Name: J.V. (proxy)
Issue: Putting up a fuss when people leave – aloneness (5 Hd's)
6/29/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: A ferris wheel with all the friends and family sitting in different seats and J. in a seat by himself, watching different members coma and go, come and go, always temptingly close, but never with him.
Intent: Companionship
Why? To feel important by being with important people
New Visual: A pair of blue converse shoes which spin into a blur and become stylish black dress shoes.
Meaning: You will one day grow up to be someone important, like all the people you want to surround you. You are in fact as important as them already, so don't feel you must be with them to matter.
Transform? Yes. Complete? Yes.
Note: J. was born prematurely and was alone several days after birth, which is likely the origin of this holodyne. (and the next). I found out after doing the visual that he does in fact have a pair of blue converse shoes!
Hd2-L3-1G
Visual: A ferocious predatory shark, looking for a meal
Intent: Safety and protection
Relation: Needs parents to be present to feel safe from lurking dangers.
New Visual: An empty swimming pool
Meaning: The pool is your little home, it is a closed environment into which no shark can possibly enter. Your fears have no basis in reality. They are entirely imagined.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (10 seconds)
Name: J. V. (proxy)
Issue: Insisting on being held by mom (2 Hd's)
7/2/09-Hd1-L3-1G
Visual: Three fluffy pancakes with butter on top and maple syrup
Intent: Good feelings
Problem: Seeking happiness from an external source
New Visual: A horse and a rider, galloping along, they go here and there and jump over one hurdle then another – they are free and independent.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (45 seconds)
Name: E.V. (proxy)
Issue: Showing Kindness (1 Hd)
7/7/09-Hd1-L4.5-1G
Visual: A ladder is standing nice, tall and straight, ready for use. Then suddenly something comes and knocks it over, smashing it to the ground in pieces. It is now useless. E. was going to use it but now can't and is sad.
Meaning: Your kindness to others will only be stomped upon. It would be nice if they appreciated it, but they won't. Don't bother.
New Visual: A hot air balloon is floating and begins to lift higher and higher and higher. WOW! This is high! Higher still and higher still . . . it is now just a pin prick and still getting smaller . . .
Update: The evening following this adjustment, I went to hop online and overhead E. talking about someone who was sick and how he had gotten some Vitamin C and Echinacea for them. While this seemed to me somewhat out of character for him, what almost startled me was the compassion I sensed in his voice. E. is a generally nice person, but this appeared to be a strikingly new attribute. (and I know E very well!)
Meaning: The kinder you are, the higher you go (closer to God), the response of others is irrelevant – it can't touch you. You are kind simply for the sake of kindness, not for the outcome.
Transform? Yes
Result: E. is nice to a lion and gives it a treat, the lion eats E. but E. has faith and along comes God and splits the lion in half and rescues him, turning into Santa delivering gifts and E is his helper. Some gifts are appreciated, others aren't but E. doesn't care, he is loved by Santa. Santa lets him take the reins and drive. E. feels special. E keeps having a tendency to thumb his nose at people and Santa keeps having to remind him this isn't very nice . . . Finally his brother (B) thumbs his nose back and this jolts E. out of the illusion that he is more special than the rest. This is just simply the job chosen for him – he is not superior. He settles into it as an occupation. It has its ups and downs – but all in all it's really no different than any other job. E. and B. were out once and someone intentionally threw a fastball and hit B. square in the forehead, cracking the skull and killing him. This enraged E. who went after them in furry. The group captured him and laid him down to torture him. His cry was heard by the dead brother and he awakened from death. He came to the group and with strong threats told them to release him. They said “who do you think you are?” His reply infuriated the leader who threw himself headlong at B. Invisible forces pinned the leader down and held him in agony. The others fled. B. Took E. on his back to his house and treated him kindly and his wounds. When leaving B. embraced to hug him. He said “I'd say I love you, but that just isn't the right word. I care for you. I am deeply concerned for your welfare. You mean a lot to me. And I guess that means I love you. E. took off in his hot air balloon tossing flowers out as he went. This just didn't seem to fit his character, but after doing it for some time he eventually became a little kid again. Now it fit!!
Name: E. V. (proxy)
Issue: Needing excess sleep (4 Hd's)
7/10/09-Hd2-L4.1-3G(m,m)
Visual: Bunk beds, with blue sheets, wooden. The person on the bottom (E.) has feelings of togetherness. Then someone on the top bunk swings a pan down that bangs E. on the head. E. looses confidence in the person on the top, shattering the joy of companionship and retreats to the only place possible - sleep.
Intent: Companionship, fellowship
Why? Fun
New Visual: A duck is flying. It enjoys being with the other ducks and can fly further with them, but it is complete in itself and can fly all alone if need be.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (25 minutes)
Q5: Have fun being yourself (whether with others or not)
Name: P. V. (proxy)
Issue: Foot Pain (4 Hd's)
7/9,12/09-Hd5?-L4.3-1G
Visual: An astronaut is floating down in a parachute and lands (on the moon) and walks along in full moon gear and armor.
Meaning: The universe is a hostile place, you can survive it, but you must suit up in protective gear. You may at times even have to trudge the desolate moonscapes of life alone. Keep going.
Feelings: Sorrow, aloneness
Intent: Survival, protection
New Visual: A kayaker is floating down stream and comes to a waterfall. She sails over it gracefully and plunges into the water, popping up moments later unscathed.
Meaning: There are challenges in life, but these are easily maneuverable. Enjoy the journey and meet the challenges with grace. You are not alone, but a small part of a flowing universe.
Transform? One condition. That you love me (you, Ryan, love me, kayaker). Ryan: And if I say no you are going to continue to be miserable? Yes. Why would you do that? Why would you sabotage yourself because of my actions? Because I love you and when that love isn't reciprocated it hurts me. Why would I not reciprocate love? Do you think I'm inherently cruel? No. Then why not? I don't know. Well if it's not because I'm cruel, it must be because I don't understand, right? Maybe . . . What else could it be? I don't know. Well I don't either. Do you think there is a reason? Yes. We've named two, can you name a third? No. Is it possible that there is no third? Yes. If it was merely due to a misunderstanding, would you be sorry and sad? No. So then you really are sorry and sad for a reason that you are not even sure exists? Yes. Do you want to continue living that way? No . . . So then, will you transform whether I love you or not? Yes.
Result: Became diver with space suit, then a teddy bear who got suited in a wet suit and kayak and became P's guide on the river and went down waterfall first. Took some time for P to develop confidence, but eventually P became very confident in rapids. (15 min)
Q5: Swish it up!
Note: Pretty much all the trackings thus far have been strait forward, but this one still has me guessing. Since we didn't complete several, this could be a revisit on them, or it could be a new one that didn't make it into the initial count. At any rate, I didn't want to do all the work, so I had P. do one, but I wanted this as a backup in case nothing came up for her. Something did, but we never transformed it, so I went back and transformed this one. Is it the same? I don't know, but the following does have some striking similarities. I never told her about the above either, so what follows is completely original . . .
Name: P. V.
Issue: Foot pain (4 Hd's)
7/11/09-Hd5?-L4.4-1G
Visual: A red blog that radiates – a breaking heart, splintering and shattering
Why? Loosing something of value
Intent: wholeness, completeness, love
New Visual: A rose, same color (red) gives out sweetest fragrance when crushed. Sees again, only this time not crushed.
Transform? I think so . . .
A lengthy conversation ensued about how you know, who and what the holodyne is and whether it is us, and the difference between the conscious and subconscious and the role of the will.
INCOMPLETE
Name: J. V. (proxy)
Issue: Seeing life as unfair (1 Hd)
7/11-12/09-Hd1-L4.3-2G(m)
Visual: An elephant trumpet and puts its trunk in the air. Some kind of cold spell freezes it instantaneously. It becomes frozen in a cube of ice, buried and forgotten. Then a warm spell comes along and it thaws. It starts moving ever so slightly. It is alive again. But the damage has been done. It will never be the same again.
Meaning: Life can be cruel and unfair
Intent: Fairness, being treated right, truth, being unharmable
New Visual: A monkey is swinging from vine to vine. Snap. One vine breaks and monkey falls on butt. Ouch! But who can monkey complain to? Whose fault is it? No one's, its just how it is. Monkey gets up and swings again, but this time keeps in mind that vine could break and he should be prepared for a fall to minimize damages.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (14 min)
Q5: The risks are worth it!
Name: J.F.V. (proxy)
Issue: Sleep (3 Hd's)
7/18/09-Hd1-L4.5-1G
Visual: A drum is being beat with sticks
Meaning: Life marches on and is always pushing you to keep up and keep moving
Relation: Take a rest and escape from the hassles and rushing
Intent: Peace, to be unmolested and unforced
New Visual: A flute is played
Meaning: Life is a beautiful musical score being played. Why would you not want to be a part of it and awake to enjoy it as much as possible?
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (5 min). Ended with J. in hospital almost dead and music bringing her back to life and her dancing to it!
Q5: Dance to life!
Hd2-L5.5-2G(m)
Visual: An elephant plodding along – alone – it trumpets every once in a while – then keeps plodding. It is sad that it is so alone.
Relation: Sleep allows one to forget their aloneness.
Intent: To be yourself, uniqueness, companionship
New: A marching band
Meaning: Many band members have a unique instrument – there is only one bass drum for instance – and while they are unique, they are not alone – they play in orchestra with all the other unique instruments.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (1:30 Hours)
Q5: Play on!
Total Time: 1:50 Hours
Note: While doing this adjustment I noted two distinct regions of the brain where images could come from, one is the upper region in the brain and it involved a heightened sensing which took work and concentration, the other was in the lower regions of the brain and seemed automatic and put me into a kind of sleep / daze / paralysis. Obviously the former was the better of the two, the latter seemed as though it wasn't accurate at all, but rather was throwing out entirely fabricated images with little to zero relation. Don't let this lower “automatic” section hijack your trackings!!
Hd3-L4.5-1G
Visual: Someone is reaching the top of an escalator. They are apprehensive – how do you
get off? This seems dangerous . . .
Feelings: Nervous, lots of people watching, feeling forced into something they don't like or want to do, being pushed.
Intent: Safety, being in control, not being forced, being free, choice, not being judged.
Relation to Sleep: An escape from others demands and those of life.
New Visual:
Part 1 - A chocolate cake with a cherry on top is served to J. Mmmmm. She takes a bite in great expectation. Then violently coughs and sputters it out. It has been tainted with shards of glass. WARNING Hd
Meaning: What you think is good for you may not be and what you detest as negative may in fact be a positive for you. You aren't as wise as you think you are.
Message: Voluntarily accept what comes to you as what is best for you – you may not like it but you can turn any experience into something beneficial if you really want to. Realize that you have attracted your current circumstances because these are what you need to grow and become a better person.
Part 2 – The girl not accepts and eats what everyone else is and lets go of her desires for what looks good.
Transform? Yes
Result: Transformed (2 hours)
Q5: (1) Be careful! (2) Be very careful
7/19/09 – Update: Next morning J. was up at 6:50 when I came over which I've never seen since I've been here. She was very happy and did some nice things for me which she had never done before (brought me food). Noticed that she took control of parenting rather than letting the child control the relationship (if fussy, put in crib rather than pandering).
7/27/09 – Update: The above affect has seemed to stick somewhat as both she and her husband have been up earlier than usual, but I'm guessing since they are living in a very close and intimate community setting there is some quantum entanglement involved that is keeping this from fully manifesting. Also, I only did a transformation, there was no special integration done.
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