Teeth / Indecisiveness - Part 1

Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Teeth / Indecisiveness (10 Hd's)

7/1/09-Hd1-L2-2G(d)

Visual: Someone is floating down in a parachute being blown wherever the wind takes it.
Feelings: At ease, trust, “it will be OK, it will work out”, uncertainty in the hows but faith in the end result.
Intent: Surrender to God, trust, faith, fulfill God's will, peace
Problem: The “hands off” approach leaves God without a means to carry out His will.

New Visual: A jackhammer
Meaning: There is still an element of surrender – you are letting the jackhammer do the grunt work, yet there is a participation with it. You are guiding it, you are creating the destiny. God is simply the enabler.

Transform? Yes

Result: Transformed very quickly (5 sec)
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: God - “I am your jackhammer”. Assignment: Go do it!


Hd2-L2-2G(d)

Visual: A baby bottle is filled repeatedly with milk, then is drained as a baby drinks it. It is now empty. Suck, suck, nothing. The baby is upset and throws it out in a fit. More milk is given, but now it doesn't want any. It is too upset and it feels the bottle let it down, so it doesn't want anything to do with it.*
Intent: Satisfaction, something that won't let it down, something that will eternally meet its needs.
Relation: Feeling forced to choose between two bad options (a limited, sometimes failing supply or the hope of an infinite supply that doesn't' seem to materialize as represented by the first image).

*After performing this tracking, I was curious and asked my mom if anything like this occurred when I was young. It took her only a moment to realize that something like this had indeed occurred. She told me that when I was eleven months old, she, dad, and I were on our way to Reno, Nevada to visit grandparents when I became thirsty. They had no liquid and we were in the middle of nowhere. For the next near hour I whined and complained. When we finally reached the next town, my dad went into the only place open at that time, a bar, and obtained some water. By the time it got to me, I was asleep. They awakened me and tried to get me to take it, but I didn't want it. They couldn't force me to drink it. (This may in fact also be a source of the creation of the sleep holodyne, where if I can't have a perfect world outside, I'll retreat to one inside through sleep. See "Requiring Lots of Sleep")

New Visual – Part 1: A tall 10 gallon cowboy has sits there, then feet pop out and it starts walking (quickly and cartoon like) and stops. It does this again. A single bullet is shot at it and blood starts trickling out. The hat no longer moves, but remains motionless. Someone comes to view their prize and as they lift the hat a monster that is 3x bigger then the hat jumps out and roars, scaring the bjezzus out of the shooter. The monster chases him, catches him and eats him. As he does, it is as if the screen collapses. The universe folds in on itself. Something has gone terribly wrong. WARNING Hd!

Meaning: Some things aren't a threat until you treat them as one. Your own perceptions are the real threat. Your imagination will destroy you. Let go of your own ideas of “the way things should be.” Flawed reality will treat you better then the perfect fiction.

New Visual – Part 2: Person just watches hat with gun pointed at it, not sure what it is but that's OK; It doesn't need to know so long as it stays at a distance, It eventually becomes something harmless.

Transform? Yes

Continued 7/5/09

Result: Transformed (3 min)

Q1-4: Yes
Q5-Message: Decisively accept the imperfect reality. Assignment: Decisively accept the imperfect reality.

Insight: Achievement in Hd isn't as dependent on talent, mental clarity, spiritual perceptiveness or any other kind of circumstance.