Heart Pain

Name: Ryan Van Denburgh
Issue: Pain in heart (throbbing dull/sharp at times)(6 Hd's)

6/10/09-Hd1-L2-1G

Visual: Dear with antlers
Intent: Wanting to live in peace, but slight annoying underlying fear, could die at any moment (hunter, mountain lion, etc).

New Visual: Penguin – peaceful, but carefree (think Happy Feet!)
Transform? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Have fun!

Note: This was an experiment I did, asking outside help (God/Angels) not to help just so I could compare and see if I could do it on my own and just how much they were helping. It turns out I can somewhat do a tracking and adjusting on my own, but it took substantially more time, effort, and I didn't feel as immense of a shift afterward, nor did the visuals come across as strong and clear. I would say they were doing at least 80% of the work in the preceding adjustments. The image that came to mind representing this was me pushing a car and trying to steer by myself as compared with 4-5 other people helping – it can be done, but is tough and impossible if you come to an uphill slope. Yet even with their help, I am still the driver and guiding the process . . . though they may assist even with that (like power-steering).

My guess is that God is doing around 60%, the angels 17%, other benevolent beings about 3% and me about 20%. I always like to welcome their assistance, thank them for it, and recognize throughout the process and in the recording their contribution. On virtually every occasion that I've worked with other people, they didn't see any picture, just color, until I reminded them that there was outside help available, and that maybe they should invite it.


Hd2-L3-1G

Visual: A metal chain
Intention: Strength
Action: The chain is under tremendous tension, not snapping, but feeling as though it could at any given moment.
What is causing the pressure? People, it is like a tug-of-war.
How does it relate? Wanting to please everybody, yet unable, creating a strain in the heart.

New Visual: An umbrella. It is raining but just bouncing off. People's opinions really don't affect me.
Transform: Yes.
Q1-4: Yes. Q5: Don't listen to anything that you don't want to hear (i. e. you don't have to). You don't have to consider an invalid opinion valid just to be polite. Let invalid views and opinions bounce off you like water off an umbrella.


Hd3-L3-1G

Visual: A giraffe
Intention: To live happy and undisturbed.
Action: Poachers are chasing it and it has nowhere to hide.

New Visual: A zebra, camouflaged so no one can see it. It does as it pleases and poachers are driving all around it but don't notice it. It lazes in the tall grasses, nibbling here and there.
Transform? Yes, but on one condition: “I must be guaranteed I won't die” (be shot by hunters, etc). OK guaranteed. “By whom?” God. “OK.” The zebra is eternal.
Result: Transforms. Decides to test and yells to hunters, they shoot bullets which he never feels or notices. “It must be true!”
Complete? No. “Can I kill myself?” Not your true self only your false self.
Complete? Yes.

Q1-4: Yes. Q5: No.


Hd4-L3-1G

Visual: Race car with huge back wheels
Intention: Speed, movement
Why? That is its task, to fulfill its duty, meet goal
How does this relate to issue? It is always having to stop to do things and slamming on brakes because it passes them by it is going so fast. Much tension always breaking, can't ever get going or build momentum.
What is it stopping for? To pick people up
Why? They need a ride
Is that part of its duty? Yes

New Visual: An airplane – it only takes people from A to B, no stopping along the way. If they can't get to the airport, tough luck. This may seem unfair, but it's not fair to waste other passengers' time with inordinate stops.
Key point: Focus on providing the passenger you have with the best flight possible and you won't have to look for passengers, they will come to you.
Willing to transform? Yes, but doesn't think it can . . . too expensive, no resources, etc.
The resources will come, all it has to do is be willing. “Yes, on one condition: I can go back to the car if I don't like the airplane.”
Why would you? You get everything you want and better – top speed and maximum passengers.
“OK”
Complete? Yes
Q10-14: Yes. Q15: Love me


3/25/09-Hd5-L3-1G

Visual: A hot air balloon
Action: Low on fuel, just barely staying above ground being pushed by wind, just missing trees.
Relation? Barely able to survive financially. Always a little tension, apprehension, “What if I hit a down draft? How long will fuel last? When it runs out will we crash?”
Positive Intent: Survival, economy, selflessness, (doesn't want to be greedy and take more fuel then it needs), trust

New Visual: A beach ball (big, blow-up, multicolor)
Significance: Don't worry, go with the flow, no matter where you bounce, you'll be alright (this ball is puncture proof). Just enjoy the ride, wherever it takes you. A beach ball can't worry nor does it need to. It exists to serve.
Transform? Yes, but on one condition. That God will take care of me. “God will you watch over the beach ball, no matter where it goes, and guide it and take care of it as your own beach ball forever?” “Of course my son!” “OK”

Result: Transformed into a happy carefree beach ball.

Q1-4: Yes, Q5: Trust, don't forget purpose – service.


3/25/09-Hd6-L3-1G

Visual: A cross with a shadow (I can sense personal involvement – cruelty toward me)
Meaning: I am a victim of others' cruelty
Positive intention: Non-violence, “turn the other cheek,” compassion, selflessness, peace

New Visual: A monster truck, other people are the cars that get crushed. Very loud motor. HUGE! It pounces cars to pieces. (actually that is what it could do, that doesn't mean that it does - “I could call a thousand angels to defend me” - Jesus).
Willing to transform? Some thoughts:

1. Non-violence is sometimes not an option. There will be, it is just a question of upon you or upon them.
2. Peace can be maintained in your heart if you do it in clear conscience.
3. You should be willing to turn the other cheek, but there is a “time to kill”.
4. You can have compassion even upon those whom you slaughter.
5. Selflessness can still be exhibited if you execute out of justice and not self-dense or revenge.

Yes, willing to transform.

Result: Became two swirling tornadoes, then a tank reflecting bullets and exploding objects around it. (takes 15 minutes – found a way to speed up- flash images of what it is supposed to be and remind it – evidently it can forget and lose sight of). Becomes monster truck – all the cars start running from it, and it starts chasing them like a lion after a herd of dear.

Complete? Yes. Q1-4: Yes. Hesitant on 3, then I said “I am inviting you to, will you?” and it said yes. Q5: Watch Gladiator – You are the Gladiator! Don't forget it.


Update: As of 7/9 I still feel a very faint pain in the heart, but it has been so faint that I completely forgot about it. The last time I remember consciously feeling it was a week ago. So it's basically been disappearing, little by little since the adjustment (at which time it was very sharp). I'm guessing in another week or two it will be completely unnoticeable.

You will notice that in this photo taken 7/3 there is still a substantial marking on my tongue in the heart section, so the problem is far from resolved, but the fact that the pain is disappearing tells me it's on the mend. For more info on this, I'd highly recommend Walter Kacera's book "Ayurvedic Tongue Diagnosis" or you can see the chart here.



BTW, you can't see it very well, but the back of the tongue is completely clear of the gunk that used to hang out on it. OK, there is still a touch but over 85% is gone. A bit returns if I eat a bunch of food late at night, but it's nothing like the residual gunk that was there. This of course is the intestinal area. Check out my first two blog posts for more info.